i like this capture..i REALLY LUV the bj im trying..meant for taking picture but not to buy..i think i look good in it..

demam again..
didnt go to class..sleep the whole day..
stay in my room the whole time..
just imagine from 7pm yesterday till 4pm today..
no life..no kids..no broadband..no surfing..
i was lying..sleeping..
wake up for the sake of..work..bj to wash..& a knock on the door..
yeah..my darling sis warden sent me food..
the 1st item that goes inyo my stomach..
it taste yummy but since i was sick..it meant for energy..

i met doc..
blood pressure was low..
no detect of fever..
get injection..
get pill..

im here at school just in case i dun get shock for tomorow morning..
huarghhh....lots..& lots of work to be done..
ive 3 class..which im blur about to teach..
huarghh...

pull urself together dear..
tomorow gonna be a LONG day

im sick again..

demam..

tak larat..

still manage to handle a class..

still manage to bank in money..

still masuk kedai bj tgk bj..

still masuk kedai buy barang2 comel..

huarghh..

i really need a deep sleep & a long rest!

the expensive bj that i ever have..no to mention the lovely one..i luv it!the color..the patern..it just me!

my motivation

manage to get me self..
4 new branded shoe..
the mng shirt at a bargain price..
lots & lots bargain bj..
the viking stuff..
2 new plants..
a new 2 way foundation..

for beautification
for feeling good purpose
for cruzgenic reason
for being satisfied
for wanna bargain that i cant get at mall in a camp
life is great..
is all about
u lose some..u gain some

to myself
luv urself..pamper urself b4 other..work hard..
smile always..laugh a lots..treasure life..
be happy.. MUST CRUZ 45!!!

things that ties us together..thanks for being a FRENz dear..

"ma..tak mau balik camp leh tak?"

"tak dapat gaji leh tak ?"

huarghhhh..have to balik..
huarghhhhh..tak mau balik..
huarghhhh..lambat nye nak cuti..
coz of rm..coz of rm..coz of rm..
me gagahkan jua..huarghhhh

sky so blue..i luv this capture too

me luv flower..me luv me self..do me look like 17?

my vis..my stay..how i enjoy my working trip..

when i look at this pic..i laugh out loud..just look at the ramping one he has..wow!!!im so jealous!

almost there i think..need to LOSE MORE WEIGHT..flaten tummy..flaten arm..smaller butt..I MUST..I MUST!!

7 days at KL..
wat a relief..
though pack w meeting..
still there time 4 frenz & family..
little for myself but its ok..
i get fever by the way..& period..
was so weak..no perasaan..no crave for eating
gosh..tak larat..
still manage to get myself new bj..jalan2..
hehehehheh

my dearie cousin treat us food..hehehhe
nice one cousin..luv u to the tiny bits!!
new photo & more..lots of them..
headed to jusco then..find new shoes..luv it but time so limited..only looking..huargh..
but its so nice..
at camp this patern another 3 month kot lagi..

wat else...
mmmmm..
need to go back today..
need to lose weight more..
need to be hyperactive..
nedd to be energetic

lots & lots of work..waiting for me..
huarghh..counting one..
wat to do..
work..& work..

i luv going for meeting(ONLY)..stay in hotel(1st class nye) & be away from school(cepatlah cuti sekolah!)

luv this capture too....so demure(..taken from joget2 word he utter me once)
i hope u know dinda..that i luv u so much..thanks for being such a GREAT FRENZ..listen to my crap..learn to be a thick skin w my behaviour..patient w my "one more..one more"..me conquering ur tagboard(since i dun hv any..so i LUV to conquer the tagboard of my closest one)..

my pesanan(hehehe..im a teacher wat)
hafal jalan...
coz i will not always be around..
coz im very far from home
coz i worry to much about u getting to a "new place "
which i already drive u many times..

so that i can sleep when u drive..
so that i can make up & be pretty while u drive..
above all..coz
I LUV u DINDA

the food here not as nice as wat we had at ampang!but ok lah

one attach..one 50/50...one 100% wanna be HAPPY

i really like this POSE..the color..the smile..among the best capture i pose..hahaha..im so perasaan one...thanks to my dinda canon....

me & my realiable nikon..i cant w out it..its my precious..my LUV..my everything..

room where i stay for the past 4D3N..the stuff that i bring..such a heavy laptop(this belong to my school~almost killing me& just lokk at the size of it)..wanna MORE HOLIDAY!

is so hectic today..
my presentation tak siap lagi..so padan muka!!!!
the good news i can bring the school laptop..heheheh
the bad things is..kerja tinggal makin byk
kerja tinggal tak antar..hahhaha
huarghhh

im still here..
now at my room..hahaha..so personal..even tak not so super duper connection but boleh lah.

the angelic devil..me..the loyal taz fan forever!!me luv meself

im such a good gurl..
i am..i am..iam..
when think back..
i would rate im 50% angel..50% tassie devil..hahahha(cant lived wout my tassie..)
mmmm..
being angelic..should i describe more..
being a devil..hahahhaha..i the little one..hehehehhe..

i was w my warden mate..
i was driving..& then i saw a banner kat tiang lampu tu

"korang..nak tau tak..masa student dulu..me nah ada ambition nak ambik banner yg terhang kat jalan sbb its cantik...but tak berjaya coz that banner all infact being ikat w dawai"

"i been thinking lah..lama tak buat all those mischief work tu..hehehhe"

yup..im kinda naughty..
i am..i am..
but my naughtness w a good intention & so far not all i manage to do..hehhehe
no regret so far..
in fact when im dealing w this brat..im proud of myself that
ive done that b4 u do..
but i managed to get a way(smoking is not in the list..& others stuff that would lead myself to mati cepat)
& they failed to succed coz they not as clever as me..hahahha..im like so perasan!!!..

but believe me..
there lots of things in life..i need to embrace..to conquer(is this the right word)
been thinking lately..when ive the time..i might wanna join the army..hahahhaha
a temporary army..mmm..that one i need to take into consideration for 2006..

the fact that im scared..& im excited

the 2 days rest wasnt enough i think..
im still working
sapa cakap being a teacher nie such an easy life..sapa..sapa..habag mai
well..its all about work..
huarghhh..kerja me tak siap..

im like so lazy..
all i can think of r
the kl..the kl..the kl
the empuk sleep..the pool..
the met up the new face..
the joy of being at mall..
the joy of not seeing the student..
the joy of at kl..so close at home
the joy of kerja abih at 430..then go window..

despite of i dun hv any experience for it
despite of im not totally prepare any for the presentation.
despite of kerja aku byk tergendala here..huarghhhh

i know that its a risk going there..
meaning..i would be lost..
be alone..
might be all there r the pakcik..pakcik..makcik..makcik
typical malay people
the protocol..the bored stuff
the lame joke
the unready me..
the takut me..
huarghhhh...

still im excited to go
coz of being near to home make me smile..

i pray that everything gonna be good...be great..
that it gonna be a smooth day..a day where im being such a good gurl(in the meeting lah)
the fact that im about to sell myself..my camp..my reputation
the fact that im very naive about the system compare w the rest..

i really realy hope so..
coz deep inside here gurls..
im pretty scared..(tak nah gi meeting nie..masa w net dulu..sekali at HQ but i liked coz..i dont hv to kerja..go meeting & talk..talk..idea..idea..the salary jalan..hahahah)

to HIM , i ask the all strength & patient..amen

im posting from my room again..hahhahah
use the net..
yeah..yeah..
im waiting for this moment to come..
i once said that..i need the fixed line in order for me to EASY connect to the net..
if the LAN i need to wait takpe,at least ive a choice

the net choice that i gain:

~the CC which really not me.its not foc
~the net room...luv it..air cond..foc...privacy yet like tak larat hv to balik at very night time
~install the fixed line & be wait for the LAN.

for the next coming month..i know ive to bear the cost of phone bill..the net bill..the laptop bil..
which meant less shopping..huarghhh
in fact..its been a while i didnt really go shopping..betul ka?hahahhaha
for a person as me..its consider rarely..
need to note here its kinda my retail therapy..hahhahhah

i know..like my expenditure makin byk..for such
~pay hutang which include my atos..my CC..my study loan..my phone bill..my atos service..
~coming bill the net bill..the land line bill..the computer bill..need reallt to budget my money..

dear god please give me the lighter way..

murahkan lah rezeki hamba mu ini..

amen..

how aaa..wanna more money..huarghhh..
~need to remind myself also that i need to save..yep..save...
~save for the month of september for the road tax
~babah & mama..
~sibling utang


i hope that a good frenz of mine..byr lah the utang asap..otherwise i go broke

DEAR GOD..

murahkan rezeki hamba mu

make her life much easier..

make her live happily ever after

make her senang di mana jua..

amen ..

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i was out w my warden mate.
went to JJ.wow!
its a mall..hahhaha..
had dinner at this new place..nice!..
i like the food!
new word by my the taman friend
i might dapat the warden's salary..amen..really need all the payment lah..
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accompany my kanda bio for facial
buy the banana fritter
the breakfast besides the seaside
on duty
manage to do the the paper..half way then
manage to wash my clothes..thank god

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using my line to the net..YEAH!!its a big success for me!!
im posting using the method
slow a bit lah but still can surf..that the most point..
cant wait for the broadband
im really2 content w the line..finally!!!
the bill sure kill me later

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Y im so lazy!

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me think me miss HOME

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cant wait for the salary

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cant wait for meeting..wanna outta here..
next week will be a very tiring day..
hahhaha...i will not be around
YEPPIE!!

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im bored at this moment
life is great w a phone line..that technology that every mankind should appreciated..
i call my frenz up..please bear w me..i still dont remember my no & my call..need to budget also..
anyway..the phone keep me less free worry....

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i was w joget2..he sound tired..
bored..bored..bored..
no more those sexy voice..hahahahha

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need to really clean my room mess..
really a big mess

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i wanna be a better teacher..i wanna be respect..

Next I thought about a hypothetical conversation with a parent who might say:

"I know how to frighten my children.

That is easy.

But how do I earn their respect?"
Then I thought,

"Anyone can frighten a child, but not everyone knows how to earn their respect."

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about the question "how much do u feel respected by me 0-10 and why?"

10 because you take the time to listen to my problems and you don't criticize me because of them and you don't try to force me to do anything that I don't want to do--

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Today I was talking to a teacher in her mid twenties.

She said "I think the students should just respect me and do as they are told."

just to refresh our soul

if a teacher teacher by sitting

murid belajar sambil mengantuk

if a teacher teach sambil acting

murid belajar dgn tekun

if teacher teach wout alat

murid belajar dgn ralat

if teacher mengajar byk ckp

murid akan bertambah gagap

if teacher menjadi pemudahcara

murida akan pandai berbicara

if teacher teach tanpa menilai

tak akan tahu murid bodoh dan pandai

if guru berbudi bahasa

murid akan mengenang sepanjang jasa

in process belajar jadik garang
hahhahah..
sapa suruh provoke my anger..
hahahhaha...

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YEPPIE!!!
~go kursus next week at KL
~got my fixed line
~my tugas satu settled
~the door gift coklat settled
~got my medical claim..after 6 month..huarghh..so lamanya..
dr bulan september ..just imagine lah..but dapat di kala me need me..
~manage to get the empuk kerusi from the school

the choosen one..

its a privillage to be an insan terpilih..
i receive a msg from a very dear frenz..HADA
gosh..its been a while no news for her..i ended up by calling her..
yeah..she a GREAT motivator..
(me so lucky hv a GREAT frenz that here masa susah & senang..luv U all)

she a teacher also by the way..
send to a school where by she the only malay around..
i would rate is pretty challenging..
she seem enjoying herself there..
cant wait cuti sekolah..to see her
(fizan..cuti sekolah..we gonna met up tau..hehehh)

w my bzness..
w my tirednes..
w my baik nye
w my tons of work
w my date line
w my non civic value budak2

i conclude all..
that IM THE INSAN TERPILIH

there must be reason Y im here
to change
to be patient
to be the inventor..

ok dear..
get back on track..
pull urself together..


me luv myself!

MY BRAINNY GET MALFUNCTION..HEHEHHEH

Troubles as Light as Air,
Love as Deep as Ocean,,
Friends as Solid as Diamonds,
Success as Bright as Gold.
These are My Wishes for You.

im the penat teacher..

tired..tired..tired..
help..help..help..
do i lose weight..i also dont know..
mkn pun if tak di suruh..i think i would pass..
life bz..bz.bz..

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;

Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;

Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.

Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

dearie..
thanks for listening

"saya check my sis mail.."

bullshit betul!
nak tipu aku..
byk lah kau nye penipu
me kerja this line..
me tau lah..
will get the names..

welcome to my bzness..im trying to adapt!!

lately..wake up in the morning will be like shocking one..
sekolah..sekolah..sekolah
class..class..class
punch card..punch card..punch card..
my life now really2 hectic..always on the go..

today:
~kaunter warden
~class
~find info over net for class
~surf for info
~w the request thing...cant they understand simple malay/eng word..
~take my new bj
~buy my nippon table(its so cute!!!)
~buy a kekabu pillow
~tuition..hahahha..
~jaga lab till 12pm(otherwise i wont sitting here)
~isi petrol
~surf..surf & surf..

me gonna hv instant child esok..hahahhah..dunnu..wat i should address myself..mama..mummy..hahahah..too young for that..siap depa..aku nak basuh cukup2..hehehhe..
~gonna train them to reti masukkan kerusi dalam table
~greet people..respect people
~no displinary cases
~make sure they be excel student
~be good boy/gurl(me like good one..)
~got civic minded..

this is my will..
my target..
cant wait..
hope i dont cry lor..
hehehheheh

im still angry..

i wanna cry..

im so angry at this moment..
aku bg chance tuk taip..
balik mcm pelisit..laju nak kejar bukak lab..
lab kunci tak ada..
pity my atos..
& those brats..
didnt respect me at all..
gi surf..hei..u hv to submit it on thursday..
im so baran..
melawan ckp lak tu
siap download lagu..
im so angry at this moment..
i wanna cry..
i am!
dah lah me tak nak balik..
nak mc esok..
arghhhhh..
im so angry that i wanna cry!

here again..

already miss home

"if kau dah kurus..ambiklah bj aku yg kau nak.."..get fit..get cruz twin!

bz..bz..bz..weekend..how i wish i can stay awake..can very fit..can not tired..can hv the 24/7 energy..

im tired..im restless..
the journey to home was really challenging..
its non stop raining from camp to home..

my note:

~im tired..lots of work...
~spend stay home ONLY on friday due to tiredness..
~the kenduri at HL which really pack my list
~the shopping spree w twin & cousin despite jimat2 stuff
had this nice laksa..the bubble tea..the bargain bj..the gorgeous bag..hahahha
~the tired kenduri
~the pick the kamariah stuff
~the unsettled job..the byk job,the need to go back job

when im tired..im get cranky..i get moody..& i get so marah!
tgh marah sesangat nie!!!
huargh..nak balik...nak balik..nak balik..

piss off w the budak..
bg betis nak paha..
aku dah pandai dah..
dah lah the pakcik drvier hv to wait like almost 1 hour for them.
lagi wanna makan..mau pray..
tunggu the brat pun dah lama..lagi wanna wait for that..
if me the driver pun im gonna piss off..
penat tunggu for the fun of others
its just suck!!!!
the brat seem dont respect others..
hei..they should know that i take my very limited precious time to accompany them....
wout complain..w gladly..but the brat..pikir just to hv fun..wout think that others people also got errand to done..like me..
return rush to open the lab for the sake of student to use the pc..wout paid..
rush to get the key to open lab..wout claim the petrol
need to do work related to my subject w dateline
need to think about the tuition stuff..
need to fulfill my need..the shop..the ice blend..the dating..heheh
gosh..
see.. me dah membebel dah..
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lately..the past day..
eat like banyak..
yeah..im complaining about it..huarghh..
dunno..
yeah.. i know i need to lose weight..rasa semacam w my body..rasa so berat..
so tak larat..see..that Y i need to lose the weight
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yeppie..treat myself w the ice blended..the caremal stuff..
gosh..lama nye tak hv that..
yum..yum..

then i had adi**x coz i wanna stay cergas & awake..
huargh...coz of the bzness me unable to hv this..
need to go back...to to strictly diet..
huarggghh

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i was w a cikgu here..
she was telling me about her frenz perception about my camp..
i was so hot to hear that..
according to that bijak tak bersyukur nye org..
my camp is at the lowest rank ..
that idoit afraid sending his adik here would jeopardise her future..
bodoh!..
though i dun really like few narrow minded people here..
i just lv this place..
u wouldnt find such others than this camp
i just realise/tau yg if my camp bas travel thru highway..tak yah byr tol..coz we were sponsor @ our bas is under the Z plat..
mana ada tmpt lain like this isnt..
tau tak others people beatur to enter such school..
bodoh nye org..
i just hated this bijak pandai people..who think deap baguih sgt..
if u adik so bagus..napa dia tak dapat better school kan..
tak reti bersyukur langsung

kidz nowadays..betul2 untung.
yeah..bak kata org..lain zaman lain ragam kan..
but totally..wat can i see..
despite depa much bijak..lebih IT kononnya..
depa just plain brat..
if they dun really tau bersyukur
if they dun take for granted for wat they hv..
me sokong the national service..
hahahah..those brat...bebudak..mak bapak yg tak sedar di untung..
antar to stay in jungle..then br depa tau ckp TQ kot..

this is my point of view..
i gain..i deliver from my seeing..my hearing..my experience

gonna be pengsan soon..
atk pun..kurus..
lose weight..hehehhe
cam best je kan..
but napa asyik makan aje
yesterday..eat nasi kerabu..
today lunch..nasi alagi..
huarghh..
apa sudah jadik w myself..
bj like sendat a bit ..huarghhhh
huarghhh
edd..u must be strict to urself..
u wanna look great w the BJ!
the damn bloody expensive bj..
ada sapa nak sponsor my myr 500..
heheheh

may be i will..

i was reading a blog about a man the she think he not exist..

my copy paste:

he's got to be witty. smart. sharp. intelligent. fun- loving. sporty. smiley. funny. happy. responsible. able to lead. understand me. accept me. me as a whole.
i want someone whom i think is my soulmate, my bestest friend in the world,
who will joke with me and not always be in husband or boyfriend mode.
he is so perfect that i cried my way home tonight cuz i know.
he doesn't exist.
and that's not the worst.cuz i only want him.
and if i can't have him, i don't want anything else
i don't settle for less.

but then.after waiting..
she found one..
i think they look so lovely dovey together...

me r the one type which so romantic one..
hehehe..

hope..there be some one..
bak kata my twin..
all the jodoh things in the hand of god..
yeah..
till then..enjoy my single life!!

yesterday..
got student make hal..
jadik case here..
huarghh..
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bring the brats to the frenzly match..
ok & ok..
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2nite :
tuisyen
hv to study
the student tesis
book place already
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my YEPPIE!!
br tau me can bawak balik laptop..
the dell one...hehhehe..
best..best..
esok kena datang pagi2..
yeppie..
leh buat like arta sendiri..diam2..hehehe
yeppie..

got the net key room..
for easy access..
got the laptop at room
(which ive to bgn pagi2 to school..make sure i ada at school)
for easy work done..
god has answer my prayer..
so be rajin..
be blessful
ok dear!

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lately byk makan..
dunno hungry memanjang..
eat nasi like craze..
eat nasi..like lapar people..
need to firm about myself..
LOSE WEIGHT>>DONT want to be fat..WANN CRUZ!!!

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smile..grin..smile..grin..a reason to smile..can it b shared?

life offers choices

if u can't have all,

at least have some

if u can't be good,

at least don't be bad

if u can't be totally happy,

don't be completely sad

bored..bored...bored..
lazy..lazy..lazy
wanna go home..wanna go home..
wanna lose 10 kg..wanna lose 10 kg..
im hungry..im humgry..im hungry
work byk..so lazy..huargh..
wanna go on date..wanna go on date..(someone save me lah..so teruk..so gatal..hahhaha..)


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i need to save money..
I KEEP TELLING THAT MY SELF..
over & over again
SAVE MONEY!!

bored stuff i do today
w meeting & all..
w a bored frenz..a jelaous frenz over net...really make me piss off..
its that a frenz is..

going to be bz..but im still lazying around..hahha..
me..me..

so lazy to go work tomorow..
really piss off w a service..
so inefficient..
i think i need to deal w the telco directly..

piss off w a frenz..
who make promise..
then didnt do as it suppose..
at very last minute

bz gurl..bz gur..bz gurl

i luv myself..
i luv my work
some people here r gREAT..
some r so bored..
some make me angry..

i luv my job..
might be this is wat i want
might be god hv anwser my prayer

today monday..
arap everything fine..
y lah im so malas

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a frenz here give me a nice link..
need to check it out

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pagi2 me dah kat net..hahahhaha
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my darling cham..pregnant again..
gosh..so soon..
name yg i suggest for her child..hehheheh
me kan the mama angkat..hahaha

gurl:
amanda

boy:
rafis dean
dean rafis
ibn sina..avienci
(the great thinker in islam..)

at ease

i went jog for the 1st time here at a park located 30 min drive
hahahhaha..
me just wanna new environment
cant compare my santuanry place..but oklah..
at least dapat gak cuci mata(huarghh...miss cuci mata)
even though not so many choice..hahahha

then headed to Jj ..bought myself
~ biskut cruz
~tuna cruz45 spicy
~soya cruz45
~pudina(im going to make a arabic tea like the one i had in tarbush..)

itu je...
gosh..me really need to LOSE WEIGHT

huarghh..like fat today..coz i eat a lot
big butt..big boobs..huarghhh
hated myself..
hated myself

jum said to me..
"dont care wat others look at U..just look at urself..
berapa weight kau nak.."

yeah..

me wanna be like 45...then 43..then 40..
now like so static..
tak mau turun dah...
huarghhh

now back to basic dieting..
more protein..
satu ari makan enoygh..no eat stuff..
no nasi..
no oily stuff
no midnight snack!
FASTING!!
air kosong only..

i was in the net room today..
i expect some privacy yet..nope..
im ok w it..
but i dont like..hated..dislike when i blog..when i write people look into
this people here..always like to see wat im doing..
like never see lah ..
always wanna know my blog & all..
this is my space..
tmpt dok aku kutuk hangpa..hahahah
this restricted for FRENZ & family that i allow to view..
even i know this happen to be at www..
for everyone viewing kan..
but who yg able to surf & sort it out je lah..
so..

here am i..
alone(yup..peace & harmony..)
today me close the door..
me wanna the room privacy & cool
me like it here coz so cool..
me like it here coz got internet..
aaaaa..today hv tobalik awal..esok sekolah..

esok sekolah?hhahahhaha
me dr dulu tak abih2..esok sekolah..
wat to do..

The world is a scary place when you stop liking yourself

this entry meant for my reading..for my motivation pada diri

when i look my capture..my picture..
i never make any frown face @ sour..
all of it will be a smiling faces..
i hated to see me in moody
i hated to see myself mad @ grumphy
i read some where that when taking picture of urself..u must smile..
fake it..w ikhlas..learn to smile
yup..
i hated to see picture turn bad..
i might be not so good in taking pic..
but ill make sure all my pic..my capture will be all SMILING faces

i would like to thanks my frenz & family for being so cooperative & patient w me
especially the tissue part..
the kaki part
the posing part
the "one more part"
the senyum part
the "trust my nikon" part
"gambar..gambar part"

its make life more interesting isnt..
something that can be cheerish when we in no mood..
im looking at all the picture that ive hv now..
gosh..
i need to smile..
i need to be happy..

ingat joget2..
ingat penguine
ingat shopping spree
ingat wei
ingat all the jokes..
ingat all the sale
remember all the precious moment
ingat tassie
ingat pingu
ingat si ramping at JB..

i try to laugh..
i must laugh..
i need to be happy..

i luv myself

this is my merepek ..some r true..some r my desire..the rest..let it be just my rambling matter

i hated buying stuff when its not bargain
i hated buying stuff coz im so tension
i hated being broke
i hated i shopping when there is no choice
i was splurge/spoil by sale..by bargain
i hated buying stuff that dont last long
i hated buying stuff so expensive but didnt pulang modal & dont last long
i hated people borrow my stuff
i hated getting bad treatment
i hated when i cant shop the best bargain when i need one

wat i want!
i wanna my own laptop
i wanna my own camcorder
i wanna my own/new phone
i wanna my own/new line
i wanna my own/new mp3..
i wanna flickr acc
i wanna my atos being service
i wanna my atos being cantik
i wanna go home
i wanna go shopping

i wanna stay young..stay fit..stay adorable..stay & be cruz45

i luv antique!

i wake up..
i clean my room..my stuff
i went to net room & surf
i went to buy a watch
i went to buy book
i went to a tourist spot-ive fun!!!!i take lots & lots of pic
i went to mall-get myself a shoe & a paper bag
i went for nice food..

still..at this moment im so angry..
im so sad..
im fell like screaming at people..
Y>>Y>>
Y people didnt call when i need them
Y people dont be online went i need them
Y people cant let me in peace..
Y oh Y..

i need a hug at this very moment..i need a call at this moment..i need someone to make me laugh..i wanna cry!!and here am i writing

got a call from a long time friend..
taklah..some people..cant see other senang..
i know that the person will call w a reason..
a reason to know Y im better that them...
jealousy might be..

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hated myself still..
Y..im still searching Y i like this
im hungry..
i mad about myself
i mad to others
i mad coz people were not online when i need them
i hated disturbance by people i dont know
i hated people who called themselves a friend but yet they only wanna my help only
i hated people liked that
i hated people call me coz of the fishy reason
i hated the feeling being fat
i hated the people here
i hated these mentality
i hated people who jealous about me
i hated it..i hated it

i hated myself..hated ..hated..hated..
wanna throw my tantrum to whom..
Y i like this..
Y..Y...
god please help..
i have a nice day today..then tetiba marah
Y..Y..

huarghhh..napa saya sangat marah...marahnye..!!

tetiba.. takde mood..
sgt marah..sgt penat..
wanna scream at people..
hated the student
hated to masuk camp
Y..Y..
my hati no feeling tenang..
like something going to happen..
hated it..hated it

taking great photo is just the beginning

i wanna upload more..all these r my capture..from my trusted & relaible buddy! my NI!

i was kinda down today..
today i make some small evil
i punch earlier & i sambung my sleelp..
so clever of me & wanna utilize this peace b4 the coming budak..
hehehhehe..
plus a revenge lah also..who ask to demotivated me..hahahahh

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make new frenz lagi..
get a call..baguih..baguih..tgh bosan ari nie

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bosan nya..tuhan yg tau..
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i wanna my own net connection..
my own laptop..
more RM..huarghhhh

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Y my weight dont want to turun..turun lah..
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went to this park near camp..
nice like my sanctuanary park &a zoo..luv it
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JOKES

a dissatisfaction of wife to her hubby,

Y we must go to the engagement..i
ts only an engagement..
they will get marry..then we hv to come lagi..
like this when they get divorce..
we hv to come also lah..

~i think this funny..it make me laugh..my warden mate..make me laugh..
~she more than a frenz..she the reason i enjoy my camp..my life..HERE..
~she resemble my dream life..a workaholic hubby..behave children..a positive attitude toward life..i learn lots from her..

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sit up straight

lift ur head up..

lift ur eyes up

take a long ,deep breath & smile

though things many be far from perfect from u,

act likeits a great day to be alive

because it is

keep a smile on ur face & in ur voice

put a spring in ur step

act like ur would act if u the most confident,

successful,joyful,person in ur town

speak toothersin kind and positive terms

think & speak to urself the same way