the fact that im scared..& im excited

the 2 days rest wasnt enough i think..
im still working
sapa cakap being a teacher nie such an easy life..sapa..sapa..habag mai
well..its all about work..
huarghhh..kerja me tak siap..

im like so lazy..
all i can think of r
the kl..the kl..the kl
the empuk sleep..the pool..
the met up the new face..
the joy of being at mall..
the joy of not seeing the student..
the joy of at kl..so close at home
the joy of kerja abih at 430..then go window..

despite of i dun hv any experience for it
despite of im not totally prepare any for the presentation.
despite of kerja aku byk tergendala here..huarghhhh

i know that its a risk going there..
meaning..i would be lost..
be alone..
might be all there r the pakcik..pakcik..makcik..makcik
typical malay people
the protocol..the bored stuff
the lame joke
the unready me..
the takut me..
huarghhhh...

still im excited to go
coz of being near to home make me smile..

i pray that everything gonna be good...be great..
that it gonna be a smooth day..a day where im being such a good gurl(in the meeting lah)
the fact that im about to sell myself..my camp..my reputation
the fact that im very naive about the system compare w the rest..

i really realy hope so..
coz deep inside here gurls..
im pretty scared..(tak nah gi meeting nie..masa w net dulu..sekali at HQ but i liked coz..i dont hv to kerja..go meeting & talk..talk..idea..idea..the salary jalan..hahahah)