i cant wait 2 go on my fit-ness training..

ive no regret on working..
i try 2 be positive in my work..
despite feel like crazy w the system..
ok fine..esok work..
ok fine..lots of work waiting next year..
but dun kill my soul..
patient is the key perhaps..
and yes..am keen 2 take d k-ck-bx-ng class..
i dun want 2 be an emotional eater
i dun want 2 be fat
i need 2 live up my dream..

so please my dear body ,fat and soul..
please cooperate w me to handle my much needed
"get rid of the fat"

amen

be strong

today i feel like give up
losing weight..is hard..
i feel tired and feel like
"penat nye nak kurus"

i wanna 2 discover these work out..
and still in deciding process..
i dun want 2 be fat anymore

i look up thru some photo that i had..
its really frustrating to see those huge arms and thigh
and how i look hideous in the photo..
crap!!
i need 2 shed those 10kg extra!!

be strong..
stay in this circle..

notes for myself

i feel empty today..so here goes

• We all get stuck in negative thinking sometimes, whether it's about money or our career or relationship struggles. It's easy to get bogged down by all the stuff that's not going right, but DO take a minute and remind ourselves of all the things that are going our way, like our awesome haircuts, running engine,comfort bed..
• If you look at a situation as challenging, it gives you some power to do something about it instead of making it seem like something that's happening to you. Words not only describe states—they also create emotional states..
  
  

  
  
  
  

i run..i jog..i get tan..just 2 get rid of the fat

awesome 6km journey..
i lurve early morning jog..
ive fun too!!

i lurve the color of the sky..
its beyond word how 2 describe how beautiful it was..
another million reason why i run..and i jog..
and trying 2 get rid the fat..
simply because i wanna 2 enjoy this
more and more in future

participant can dress up..
how cool is this race right?

i just lurve the shirt!!
its so pretty and colorful!!
a bit small for s size..
but i meant 2 shed the fat away!

the path ..
lurve the morning air and the view!

she my little angel and i miss her already

gab-by is so good w camera..
and she lurve her food so much!!!

confession ..being fat

i hated it..i hated it..i hated it
omg..seriously..
i take a look of photo of MY_SEL_F
freaking mad fat..
what has happen 2 me?
is that really me?
ive a fat tummy..a double chin..
u named it..I HV IT ALL
if i hvnt realize lg..i dun know what 2 say more..

current weight 61 kg..
am over weight
read..over weight!
dun say am skinny..tak cukup makan or watever
i cant fit 2 many of my clothes..
AND I LOOK HIDIOUS
AS MY dad said:
"sarung bal-ut nang-ka"
and it really sadden me

as the bigge-st los-er trainer said:
"take action now!"

yup!!
am on my way..
i wanna the fit n lean M-E!!

HAVE 2 WATCH OVER MY DIET
AND EXERCISE!!!

BEING FAT IS NOT A CHOICE
I WANNA BE SKINNY..HEALTHY..

joy..jam..

tired..
its take 4 hour just 2 reach town
omg..
when i reach camp..
am totally exhausted

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running event tomorrow

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no mood 2 organize my stuff

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will sleep early 2day..
nite

It's never too late to have a happy childhood. ~Ber-ke Brea-thed

my mini created vacation exercise..
i walk frm my place ..in the raining time
had this wonderful swim at the beach and walk back
and take photo along the way!!
i learn that my thigh is huge n big n its so freaking painful as it
crash to one another..
lesson:
EXERCISE TO GET RID FAT!!
TAK MAHU GEMUK
AAAAARGHH

anyway..i enjoy d walk
w my student..as she is the one who take my photo..

i wanna rap-unzel..
i lurv-e arie-l
frm d mermaid princess
now rapun-zel..
lurve her hair and character!

decent wear..

addicted to hv the try this exercise..

my latest addiction!!

If you want to be happy, BE!. ~Le-o T-ol-stoy

i called this bag as maxi-mus..
got hor-se..white color and so rapunzel story
this definitely will make toddler gabby envy me..hehehe

super lurve this bag!

my biggest cake ever!!
and i need 2 do something w my expanded waist and everything

FIT,SLIM AND LOSE WEIGHT!!!!

MY ULTIMATE RACE!!
complete 4 12 hours and 35km+++ walk..
am so addicted 2 do it again...

i learn a lot and experience so much in 12 hours..
alhamdulilah..i feel bless and full of gratitude

its all about me

a year younger and mature..
Thank you god for all the wonderful things
u give me in life..

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i need all the energy and blessing and luck
for this 12 hours journey by foot..
yup..u read it right..
12 hours @ 50km by foot
mission:
to reach the finish line successfully
amen

happy girls are the prettiest

am broke..but happy and lots of gratitude 2 god
am bless with good healthy..alhamdulila-ah
amazing family and smashing circle of frenz
ive great career and i can always do things that i want

yes..sometimes i do forget..how lucky my life is
how am should be thankful for this kind of blessing god gave it 2 me
for example
ages ago..i always wonder being short and plump
but as a grown up..short people r lucky..and can be tall for instead
hee-l..wedg-es... just named it!
i was plump..fat..omg
but later in life i learn how to manage my life,body n soul

yes..life is about searching
experimenting,feel,being hurt
but at the same time human will endure the
beauty of smile,
learn to laugh
forgive n forget
act of kindness and humanity

am truely bless for this living

of course there is room for improvement
to become better human being..
a humble insan
a pious daughter
a understanding sister n sibling
a workholic n hardworking employee
and much2 more..

--to lurve myself..
4 days in counting

4 days in counting

• yup..i need to hv a good running shoe
• i must save moolah..enough if shopping i guess..
• i wanna travel...and visit frenz throughout the world
• i must stop spending and really saving
• PAY DEBT
• religiously saving and pay DEBT
• consistance in prayer
• be a good muslim
• do voluntee-ring work
• be kind to others
• improve my language skill
• read book
• hv an organize life
• lead a healthier life
• hv a positive attitude
• open dive cer-tificate
• go div-ing
• climb a moun-tain
• to grow old w someone who adore me for who originally me

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the more i read..
the more am scared for this coming weekend
i hope i be able to the finish line
i hope i be able to compete with others
i hope ive a high spirit
i hope i do well
omg..
yes am scared..
but i know
this is what i want
and i know i be able to do it

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dear god,
please bless the dream that i believe
bless the day that important to me...
gave me strength and kesenangan in all my doing

tq god

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simple way-s 2 fin-d jo-y in my life

trying new stuff

enjoying taking self photo

new hair look!

find a manequi-n that resemble myse-lf.
DO look at the bangle..
n the heel n the bag..
and the hair..
minus the skin color n thinness
this is a major inspiration!

why i lurve my "emm-a wats-son "hair

location: dining area at din'da house
time:night


husb-and mi-ra(dinda bro in laws)
"la ingatkan anak saudar-a yang mana"

me
"omg..am like ana-k sa-udara..ok..starting 2day onward..i will call u a-yah su"

P/s-one of the magical moment and happiness..

NOW 2 SHED THE EXTRA POUND THAT DANCI-NG AROU-ND MY WAIST N TUMMY.
HIDIOUS OK!

nota mo-tivas-i diri

I NEED 2 LOSE 10 KG..THEREFORE..MY PERSONAL REWARD

1.BUY MY DARLING TWI-NNIE AN I-P-HO-NE
(why..as reward should be a material item..and i lurve her so much..and she wanna it..plus no stre-ss matter @ guilty feeling for me...like na-za-r lah kot..)

2...as my wardrobe miss me so much!..omg..just try this pant..i cant fit into it..stressful okay..i miss the cru-z..super thin me

3 .i dun want 2 be a fat..old look alike gal..and yeah..i think ive lots of cholest-rol in the body system 2 get rid !

4...omg..i wanna my body back..
i need 2 hv an active lifestyle..