to mum to to be..yeah..& am a aunty soon..

Before you were conceived I wanted you
Before you were born I loved you
Before you were here an hour I would die for you
This is the miracle of life

~ Maureen Hawkins

i lurve my life?do i?

yesterday was a horror day..
i cried b4 i go 4 my meeting
its a lousy stuff & its makes me stress
was so lazy to story later..

i wanna to write an thought of mine that came to my mind
yet was so bz that i didnt able to do it
basically its about my future..
mmmmmmmm

again the meeting..the work..suck & its just suck.
am mentally tired..
better go sleep..
nite!

3 class in the row tommorrow..stupid peke-liling..& the workmate that typically..

am holding tight to the 6 month pressure of work that i give myself
am on diet..strictly wanna to lose 10kg..so tak makan sbb i hv no gap between the time,
takde masa,save,malas to eat,save masa,can do others stuff rather than makan.
am on diet..i wanna to fast sbb nak ganti posa
am seriously need to berjimat & buy the necessacry
am need to relax
am need to siapkan kerja saya
am need to be prepare

oh ya on the lighter note..
the past day...am making myself clear that i need to exercise..
& i did..for example today..i went cycling..it was really tiring & i couldnt
believe that its was so tiring..my kaki all cramping but it worth it
& i play bad-min-ton after that..& learn to hold of the racket better
am not an athlet ,i just lurve to keep myself in shape..& healthy..& presentable
& i dun wan my evening fill w tidur only..& talk..
life is too short for all the wasted stuff
the reason Y i so into shaping myself
that people dun understand as their r not me:

sbb i need to build the stamina,the otot,the confidence,
the great feeling,the happy feeling,get rid the fat,
get a tone body,push the happy hormone out,
to beat stress,to feel the sun & the wind
to smile,to laugh,to be out from the work norm
& i could list lots more..

for god sake..am doing something good for myself..
things that make me happier..

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i dun know
its just me @ wat..
but sometimes i feel myself fainted..
like minor..tiny weny fainted
where my body feel terhempas ke tanah
@ collapse suddenly yet the jatuh things is
somethings that i can feel & control
meaning..i feel dizzy..& a bit like terjatuh
yet i still can berdiri..& hold myself still
i encounter it many times lately
but then..lack of sleep..lack of laughters..
i believe is wat causing me

y guys r so stupid & idiot & so slow..@ i just being perasan..fullstop!

a foolish man tells a woman to stop talking
but a wise man tells her that her mouth is extremely beautiful when her lips are closed

i know the kids likes me..

sometimes..i believe that am much a kid spirit & hv kids lifestyle compare w them.
do notes that the 3 kids r daughters & sons of my bos & an us-tz here..
& ive spoiled them w my kiddie act..
am such a brilliant person!

its sunday people!

i was w wawa yesterday & we did something suprising..
i wont tell yet to the world..
but with god will,high determination,
ikat perut,diet,ikat perut,diet,
lose weight,lose weight,planning,
work smart in the camp,budget..
with god will..am praying hard for this..
AMEN...
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hv a great disccusion w the mate here..
1st year can be stupid as am learning..
am new 2nd year..learn to do work..learn to build contact & be independent
3rd year..affirm & assertive..

am a choosey..am a high maintain gal next door

a hyperactive kids,crazy mind..funny attitude..

people always wonder how she herself is a c-iv-ic teacher..

she does wonder too

yet she know herself better than other..

people said she make their world shineier & she turn a sour face into sweet delicacies
she cant bear to see a tear or even grumpy face..

people said she is funny too..& she does makes different in their life..does she?

well..she always wonder the same things...

yet..she know..she been loved by others..

& she knows that people depend on her in many ways..

she is not physically strong..just she has faith..

faith in herself..faith in her CReator..faith in people she loved..

u know u are the one that she loved..

WELCOME 2008!

A NEW BEGINNING FOR US

she half 11 years kids &20+ young gals..that HAPPY with her life

am WORTH A LOT & i wouldnt wanna to waste to a wrong person
i really LURVe MYSELF..& the joyful of my life is my priority
i know wat i wanna i life..
there be a someone who would hold my hand..
&truely accept for who am i..
till then..
am happy being me!

if u guys thinking apa nak reward myself!
ive listed so many in my writing
I lurve anything gadget..lurve beauty..
lurve girlish,manly & kiddy stuff
& I LURVE mOOOLAH Too.

notes:if u thinking of getting me doll..only get me
B-AR-BIE DOLL by ma-ttel ONLY..
the most least clothes with..meant SEXY ONE is wat i like!

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SAVE MOOLAH..SAVE MOOLAH

STUff that i might be getting this years after save money & pay the debt
-Mac
-phone
-new cam
-passport
-trip-cuti
-car services
-pamper myself
-min-era-l make up
-sport branded attire
-a good speaker
-a pro acc
-hair treatment
-j-w marri-ot
-good fabric
-gold bling2

he is an adorable kid!
& i let him to call me mama edd..

in 2008!!!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height.
Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches p ull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle.
" An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love, Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music,
plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county;
to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opp ortunity.


AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away.

hellllllllo everyone..Happy blasting 2008..gosh so fast one..!

its been ages i didnt write..
Y..its because of am extremely bz..
plus with the worsten condition of the net.
& the very tiny limited time that i had
this is just a fast review of the early 2008 & end 2007

end 2007
so little time..yet so many things to do..
with the study.."sui-cide exam",charming A-C-N,cuti2 msia version,
moving out house,bro's wed..etc are among the stuff that ive done toward the end of 2007
of ya..on the eve itself,i was busing packing my stuff to the "hulu"permanent home that my dad would want to spent his retirement there..& am really blast for the running atos that with me..
otherwise i died of boredom & hatred..

early 2008
so little time..yet so many things to do
plus the airmata,the tiredness,the hatred,the bertimbun kerja &
all new faces & stuff that i be facing..
i try to accept it as a part of life...life journey..pengalaman..
the more payah one..the better..
went back to camp..the the list keep on & on..
happy?sad?excited?tired?
...its just beyond the word..
i just make myself ready..start the engine &
make the work success..

& in between the hectic schedule..
dinda came by here & we had our mini cuti2 msia
here..it was unplanned yet am feel like the burden was lift off a bit..
thanks dinda..i appreciate it so much..
we discover the new way to take photo..learning about our gadget more
& enjoy self with the cheap budget vacation..
gosh..i really lurve all the photo taken

before i forget..
i ended 2007 by rewarding myself a develop photo which are kinda a lot
& together develop it for frenz & family..
i lurve each & every capture taken..
to see it again & again i realize that my life is filled with
lots & lots of HAPPINESS..& lurvE..& FUn..
despite all the grumphy & tiredness that faced & utter..
am a blessed homo sapien in the world ,at least in my world..
& sometimes i didnt realise that @ taking things for granted
so for now on..in 2008..

I MUST:

• APPRECIATE MYSELF BETTER
• LOSE WEIGHT:10KG ..2 BE SKINNY
• TO CLIMB A MOUNTAIN
• TO GO CUTI2
  
• TO SAVE MOOLAH
  
• TO LOSE WEIGHT..TO IKAT PERUT
• TO SAVE MOOLAH
• TO ORGANIZE MY LIFE BETTER
• TO TOUCH THE LIFE OF OTHERS
• TO BE A GREAT PERSON IN MY FIELD OF CAREER
• TO FIND MY TRUE SELF..MY STRENGTH & LEARN ABOUT MY WEAKNESS
  
• TO BE SKINNY & LEAN..& FIT
• SIMPAN DUIT
• TO BE 45KG!
• TO BE ABLE TO FIT IN THOSE TINY,XS BAJU WITHOUT THE FEELING OF GUILT
• TO BE AN INTELECTUAL & WITTY PERSON -READ A LOT
• TO PROMISE MYSELF TO HV A GREAT LIFE-WAKE UP EARLY..FOR EXERCISE
• TO BE A GOOD SERVANT TO THE AL-MIGHTY..
• TO GANTI POSA..
• TO BE A GOOD DAUGHTER
• TO NOT TAKE LIFE GRANTED..
• TO READ MORE..TO INQUIRE MORE & TO TRY MORE NEW STUFF
• TO BE HAPPY B4 OTHERS
• TO SMILE TO THE WORLD.
• TO FORGIVE & FORGET
• TO HAVE A NEW BEGINNING
• TO BE WISER W MY MONEY..

its all not in order as i just write it all
..gosh..that are a lots..
i pray for it..that i be able to fulfill all of it..
AMEN

this is kinda a long entry for end 2007 & early 2008..
even its just a summary..yet..i think at least it better that i do not hv one
oh ya..NOTED TO MYSELF:
-buy myself a dictionary & read at least 5 new word everyday
-berdoa sebelum tidur
-jaga solat & read quran
-clean my room
-DUN BE LAZY
-JGN BUAT KERJA BERTANGGUH
-DIET & JAGA MAKAN

"No one is born HAppy
but all of US are BORN with the
ability to CREATE HAppiness...

So Today..I HOPE 2 make u HAPPY
SMILE!its a GREAT day ahead for u!"

welcome 2008..
am strong..am health..
am full of life & lurve
its a wonderful day for me.
just keep my faith..& calm me inside & out