3 class in the row tommorrow..stupid peke-liling..& the workmate that typically..

am holding tight to the 6 month pressure of work that i give myself
am on diet..strictly wanna to lose 10kg..so tak makan sbb i hv no gap between the time,
takde masa,save,malas to eat,save masa,can do others stuff rather than makan.
am on diet..i wanna to fast sbb nak ganti posa
am seriously need to berjimat & buy the necessacry
am need to relax
am need to siapkan kerja saya
am need to be prepare

oh ya on the lighter note..
the past day...am making myself clear that i need to exercise..
& i did..for example today..i went cycling..it was really tiring & i couldnt
believe that its was so tiring..my kaki all cramping but it worth it
& i play bad-min-ton after that..& learn to hold of the racket better
am not an athlet ,i just lurve to keep myself in shape..& healthy..& presentable
& i dun wan my evening fill w tidur only..& talk..
life is too short for all the wasted stuff
the reason Y i so into shaping myself
that people dun understand as their r not me:

sbb i need to build the stamina,the otot,the confidence,
the great feeling,the happy feeling,get rid the fat,
get a tone body,push the happy hormone out,
to beat stress,to feel the sun & the wind
to smile,to laugh,to be out from the work norm
& i could list lots more..

for god sake..am doing something good for myself..
things that make me happier..

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i dun know
its just me @ wat..
but sometimes i feel myself fainted..
like minor..tiny weny fainted
where my body feel terhempas ke tanah
@ collapse suddenly yet the jatuh things is
somethings that i can feel & control
meaning..i feel dizzy..& a bit like terjatuh
yet i still can berdiri..& hold myself still
i encounter it many times lately
but then..lack of sleep..lack of laughters..
i believe is wat causing me