i still didnt believe the way i spent my merdeka..

am at mel-ak-a..hvnt go back due lots of factor..
mostly moolah..
i just wanna stay home..after all..the road must be bz right

i ended out seeing this 3 fella..
actually one only the person i know &
i met the person as he need to know about his camera-dun know proper way to use
all three of them r the workers in camp..the "M" lah
they were fine..
i was afraid at 1st but then they respected me as an educator
calling me c-i-kgu..(i dislike people called me that)
but its like selamat to be around when they addressed u the name

3 guys & a gal..
we went back to camp almost 3pm..like really..
ive FUN..
am being myself..taking lots of pic & they willingly to pose for me
see..that Y lah am happy!
not many guys wanna to pose infront of camera!

i ride this with the three fella..!

i just lurve the color..light!
the sound are really loud!..
gosh..my 1st time for me-r-deka this way!
it was totally unplanned

how i mend the broken heart?

truth..
i cry because the tears suddenly flow..
suddenly..
all the bad..the hurt memory flash back
its hurt..& that y i think i cry..

we talk over phone
i told him that am happy for him
its was expected & written..
its kinda a long talk as i need to know more
yeah curiosity is killing me..but i need to know the truth

i can sense his tone of voice..
there r moment where..i can hear his voice was so "control"
i hope he CRY!hehehehhe
part where he said he told his future be about me
& part where he said

"i'll be much happier if u can find/be w your loved one too"

till today..i can remember the tiny little word..
& i reply..

"it might takes times..as i dun want to get hurt anymore"

he has to hear it again..i told him wat i feel..
i told him that he used to hurt me a lot..
killing myself slowly..i told him..
& he has to Listen..
am not blaming him i said..
am giving him wat he need to know
& we need to settle the past..
for good..a new chapter

i told a frenz regard this..
she said
"he still remember u"

i was touch..
& if it true..
am WOrth A lot..God is Fair!
i wish the Ex all the happiness..
but then again..he is a Jerk in my past..
he will have half of the happiness @ ZERO!..hehehhehe

am cruel....
but that life..

in between..
i was a bit down also today..
thank god managed to do class in lab..
so basically..ok lah
balik..i slept as i was sleepy..
now..need to work hard for tommorow..

oh ya...
was w mr ess-o..i miss his smile
& a new guys..let named him MR K..hehehehhe
oh ya a boring guys called..
layan aje lah..

well the "show must go on"

TO MYSELF:
I LURVE U!
I BELIEVE THERE PLENTY OF HAPPINESS FOR ME IN FUTURE
IVE BEEN SHOWERED BY LOVED..& AM HAPPY..
I WILL MAKE MYSELF HAPPY..
THAT FOR SURE..

guess wat..the ex is getting married in november
& am being invited
it was all expected..
the feeling ive now?
will write soon..
i need to lay down

am sad today
i dislike my KJ
i feel like crying..enough said

i wish petrol way much cheaper!..i need MOOLAH

BACK TO SCHOOL..YEPPIE!

unfortunately it wasnt mine!
still i lurve the pieces

i lurve her when she happy!!!

she-a happy bunny
LOSE WEIGHT SHE MUST!!!

LET BE SKINNY!

CHECK OUT THIS

http://www.oprah.com/article/health/weightloss/bgreene_20070212

TIPS!!!!

• Park farther from your destination.
• If it's a short drive, consider walking instead.
• Take the stairs instead of the elevator.
• Get your workouts done in the morning.

saya MUSTI KURUS!!!

NOW BACK TO DIET-KURUS-BE SKINNY PERSON

I WANNA FIT INTO

• XS SIze keba-ya nyo-ya- striking yellow
• new camera/lense

TARGET KURUS DATE

• DEC 08(MY BIRTH)
• MAC 09(MY CONVO)

FUCK people who ask me to ate nasi..
shall be no nasi starting today!!!& start posa
i need to detox toksid in the body

i MUST LOSE WEIGHT!

lurve that i dun regret..my beloved Dd..

spending the days in pool n spa
that my auntie on paternal side
i just lurve this capture..
i look so happy n young!
like 15 years old kid!

i lurve this fella
so far the training calling me kakak succeed!
he loved me..i know..

the GF ive lunch with..

hand..finger..u know who kan..hehehe
taken at his workplace..
i was showing him his photo n my trip..
i just lurve those hand..
if only i can hold it..hehehehe

brave move!
i was so boring driving at highway
i took my Dd n shot the capture..
me..Dd..inseparable

the usual act..no photo taken
but me being me..
u cant escape lah

i miss those chubby finger..hahhahaha

lurve the santai look..

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my friday was a bless..
i met m.hazie & dinda in KL..
hvg our quick lunch,window & gossiping
wow..it been like 8 month i hvnt see m.hazie
i enjoy the company w the gal..
then headed to min-es b4 meeting mr. e0-sso
yeah..i went to his workplace..
like seriously..i went!!
no wonder he such a bz man.

hand in his photo..
teach him ways to take photo..
a bit chat..& more photo of him

lurve his hand...undescribely feeling
u just wish to hold the hand..(but sedar diri kan)
wat others things that i like about his appearance
-his go-thi & his sweet smile u just melted away...
by the way he is totally a sport person..
& his car is seriously clean unlike mine hehheheheh

things about mr e-ss-o

• we met up again when the petrol prices decrease yeah!
• his road tax ended 12/12
• sams-udin his is father's name
• 2 sibling only-his the eldests

"U takde abang?"
"ive younger brother"
"lah...i thought u the younger..no abang?(buat muka dissapointed,hehehehe)


in between.. i took the lr-t ride..
been ages i hvnt ride one.
i feel akward n janggal still it was good experience am brooke..
totally broke. kena ikat perut
MUSTI KURUS!!!!!!!!!!!

am writing from mines..
for a cost of a lemon n a yeemee..
not so good..but i get to kill the time
n feel rich(dalam budget)

am meeting mr ess-o
mamat nie hard to date lah..
hehehheheh

will see..

2 days back..
some one mentioning am a 22 years old
wow!

wat do i do on the 3rd day of my school holiday?

for the past day ive been exercising my talent in cooking

• fry pas-ta
• the shita-ke mushroom w oyster sauce n broccoli(lurve this food!)
• the egg tufu
• today-i made chicken soup(as the family coming by)
• samosa(curry potato feeling & mayo potato crab feeling)
• lots of tea

i Need to CONTROL MY MAKAN
I ATE NASI..HATED..HATED(AS i went for wedding-2 in fact)
NEED TO SERIOUSLY DIET

just cleaning the house..
i lurve spending my time here
myself..the house..the chores..
lots of kemas'ing that i need to do

i need to watch my expenditure
am thinking/plan to challenge myself
need to start packing & kemas'ing

in between,mr-ess-o called td
it was unexpected call
i didnt expect him to call
he sound so sexy over the phone
he make me grin
(still sob still my no 1)
its just i need to flirt..
in camp no guys that really melt my heart
ive a high standard in guys..hhehehe

mum,dad & sibling is coming over
yeaH!
i counted the sibling of 5 guys..
(the 5th,6th & 7th + the adorable yet monstery bro-faiz&dani)

lazy..lazy...lazy
but wanna to kurus..n lose weight..
dang..dang..dang

i need to control my expenditure
save money..ikat perut
yet still enjoy the life

i was browsing..
lurve this site!

http://www.davebiesse.com/blog/
wed thing..awesome capture..

its cuti..yeyeyyeye

am still here..
yesterday clean up the house
wah so many my stuffbr 3 years..
seriously freaking byk stuff

in between..check this out for the single available
powerful..intelligent gal like me..hehehhehe

http://www.videojug.com/film/how-to-be-single-and-happy

am a happy bunny!

H.O...LI..DA..Y!!!!
READ..SPELL..SEE THAT EVERYONE!!!

YEYEYEYEYYEYE
ive plan
lot of IT OF COURSE!

playing tarik tali

i had a boring call from a guy frenz
nicely guy but boring

so i decide to call mr ess-o
just trying my luck as i wanna to get rid the 'badi'
of the boring call..
& we talk for awhile..

such a sexy..sweet & calming voice
i lurve his sexy voice...
seriously sexy..
with this fella..
i feel easily to communicate
like wei-he understand my prob
w mr es-he make me grins
hahahahhaha

good looking-sexy voice
great body tone..great dress up
hahahahhah
me likey!

MY PURE BLOOD..MY LITTEL GAB..I MISS HER ALREADY!

AM still trying to find our similarities
i miss my angel already
must buy us two same clothes..
that read
"sisterhood!!!"

after battling with worst cirit..
till i lose energy to walk
on the good side..I LOSE WEIGHT!!!!
I DESPERATELY WANNA BE SKINNY!!!

I DUN know y i post this pic..but i like the look..hehehhehe

i recall i was in the jungle 3 weeks b4
followed by the sukan down south
then
i was on travel mode the past weeks..
life is hectic!!!!

but am back..
and so missing my own room
n my stuff