how i mend the broken heart?

truth..
i cry because the tears suddenly flow..
suddenly..
all the bad..the hurt memory flash back
its hurt..& that y i think i cry..

we talk over phone
i told him that am happy for him
its was expected & written..
its kinda a long talk as i need to know more
yeah curiosity is killing me..but i need to know the truth

i can sense his tone of voice..
there r moment where..i can hear his voice was so "control"
i hope he CRY!hehehehhe
part where he said he told his future be about me
& part where he said

"i'll be much happier if u can find/be w your loved one too"

till today..i can remember the tiny little word..
& i reply..

"it might takes times..as i dun want to get hurt anymore"

he has to hear it again..i told him wat i feel..
i told him that he used to hurt me a lot..
killing myself slowly..i told him..
& he has to Listen..
am not blaming him i said..
am giving him wat he need to know
& we need to settle the past..
for good..a new chapter

i told a frenz regard this..
she said
"he still remember u"

i was touch..
& if it true..
am WOrth A lot..God is Fair!
i wish the Ex all the happiness..
but then again..he is a Jerk in my past..
he will have half of the happiness @ ZERO!..hehehhehe

am cruel....
but that life..

in between..
i was a bit down also today..
thank god managed to do class in lab..
so basically..ok lah
balik..i slept as i was sleepy..
now..need to work hard for tommorow..

oh ya...
was w mr ess-o..i miss his smile
& a new guys..let named him MR K..hehehehhe
oh ya a boring guys called..
layan aje lah..

well the "show must go on"

TO MYSELF:
I LURVE U!
I BELIEVE THERE PLENTY OF HAPPINESS FOR ME IN FUTURE
IVE BEEN SHOWERED BY LOVED..& AM HAPPY..
I WILL MAKE MYSELF HAPPY..
THAT FOR SURE..