buat kerja gila pada diri sendiri on 30/08/05
wake up at 11am
do medical check up at UPM~goes RM 111
work(NET) half day at 7pm..stay back at office till 7am..
didnt sleep,utilize internet services & do filing..
back home at 7am on 31/08/05~sleep for 2 hours only
at 930am went SWIMMMING w twin & nana
best..best..
tak sedar diri work at 3pm ~window-window at mines..
me ended buy 2 shoes which was on bargain=total cost:rm 54.95 & rm 3 tube)
me & shopping>>>> cant control~me know but it d stress theraphy for me..
try new cosmetic~trial & error touch up
its been a while hvnt took pic at picture slot machine~picture was hilirious but it was fun>>>cost: RM 8 only!affortable w us 3 yg lack of money..
ITS BEEN A GREAT DAY!!>>>>>>gone all d sanity
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cheer me UP!

went swim(though bad swimmer yet i just LUV pool)

water therapy

girls outing~YEPPIE!!

ice blended

spending & shopping

GREAT BARGAIN!!!

new stuff>>>.shopping stuff

someone said that i lost weight ~CRUZ~

SMILE /HUG from one that u LUV,CARE

expensive icecream & chochalate

anything about TAZMANIAN DEVIL

good jokes/humor~luv hitzfm morning gotcha

EXERCISE~BURN D CALORIES/FAT

Your BMI Analysis*
Current weight
53 kg
Current BMI
22.9
Preferred weight
45 kg
Preferred BMI
19.5
Healthy BMI range
18.5 - 25
Healthy weight range
42.7 - 57.8 kg

*Body Mass Index (BMI) is a mathematical formula used by most health experts to analyse health. Please note that the BMI does not take body fat percentages nor lean body mass into consideration.


Daily Calorie Requirements
Based on your current weight, height and activity level, your Daily Calorie requirement is 2080 calories. This is what you need to maintain your current weight. However, food is not the only thing that affects weight management; exercise or lack of it will impact the amount of calories burned and thus your net caloric intake. To change your weight by 0.5 kg or 1 lb in one week, you must increase or reduce your net caloric intake by 500 calories per day or 3500 calories per week.
The Daily Calorie calculation is an estimation of your calorie needs. Individual differences will affect the actual amount of calories you need.


Comments
You are currently in the healthy weight range and do not need to lose weight. Be careful not to lose too much weight as being too thin poses health risks. Aim to stay at BMI above 18.5.
We suggest that you focus on a proper diet and exercise to lose an appropriate amount of weight. The Diets.com.sg program can help you do that.

i need my sanity back..
since last week macam org mati laki
kurang betul sikit judgement
when i think a lot,depressed 2 much,worried a lot
i get tense..tak betul..bengung..
effect:

stay kat office late night~wanna 2 spend quality time surfing & transfer all d surfing knowledge while im at net~i've been here almost 1 years & half..huarghh..byk lagi tak buat..
table tak kemas..unsure about myself..locker unpacked..makin pikir maki byk lak kena buat

wake up late..
so late..
go rhb at noon..no money yet..huarghh..no mood!
then force myself 2 settled mara..thank god i did!
so many things to do,buy,write..
so government job..
tomorow morning hv 2 do medical check up..
hurghhh bosan

kinda takut mau kerja lah pulak..
huarghh..
my life would be totally change..

Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?
A group of investigators got together and analyzed the >personalities of well known and modern cartoon characters.
The information that was gathered was made into this test
Answer all the questions with what describes you> >>>best, add up all your points at the end and look for your results.
Then forward this to all your friends and change the subject of this message to what character is you

1) Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner
b) Fun/Theme Park
c) Painting in the park
d) Rock concert
e) Going to the movies>

2) What is your favorite type of music
a) Rock and Roll
b) Alternative
c) Soft Rock
d) Country
e) Pop

3) What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy
b) Horror
c) Musical
d) Romance
e) Documentary

4) Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter
b) Professional Sports Player
c) Teacher
d) Police
e) Cashier

5) What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise
b) Read
c) Watch television
d) Listen to music
e) Sleep

6) Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow
b) White
c) Sky Blue
d) Dark Blue
e) Red

7) What do you prefer to eat right now?
a) Snow
b) Pizza
c) Sushi
d) Pasta
e) Salad

8) What is your favorite Holiday?
a) Halloween> >>>
b) Christmas
c) New Year
d) Valentines Day
e) Thanksgiving

9) If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris
b) Spain
c) Las Vegas
d) Hawaii
e) Hollywood

10) With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart
b) Someone attractive
c) Someone who likes to Party
d) Someone who always has fun
e) Someone very sentimental

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Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!
1.) a-4 b-2 c-5 d-1 e-3
2.) a-2 b-1 c-4 d-5 e-3
3.) a-2 b-1 c-3 d-4 e-5
4.) a-4 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-1
5.) a-5 b-4 c-2 d-1 e-3
6.) a-1 b-5 c-3 d-2 e-4
7.) a-3 b-2 c-1 d-4 e-5
8.) a-1 b-3 c-2 d-4 e-5
9.) a-4 b-5 c-1 d-4 e-3
10.) a-5 b-2 c-1 d-3 e-4
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(10-16 points) You are Garfield:
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know howto have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme.> >>>You always know what you are doing and you are> >>>always in control of your life. Others may not see> >>>things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you> >>>always have to do what is right. Try to remember> >>>your happy spirit may hurt you or others.> >>>> >>>> >>>

(18-26 points)
You are Snoopy: You are fun, you are> >>>very cool and popular. You always know what's in and> >>>you never are out of style. You are good at knowing> >>>how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably> >>>disappeared for a few days more than once but you> >>>always come home with the family values that you> >>>learned. Being married and having children are> >>>important to you, but only after you have had your> >>>share of fun times.> >>>> >>>> >>>

(27-28 points)
You are Arnold: You have lots of> >>>friends and you are also popular, always willing to> >>>give advice and help out a person in need. You are> >>>very optimistic and you always see the bright side> >>>of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much> >>>of a dreamer, if not you will have many conflicts> >>>with life.> >>>> >>>> >>>

(29-34 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You> >>>are the classic person that everyone loves. You are> >>>the best friend that anyone could ever have and> >>>never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone> >>>and they would never not understand your feelings.> >>>Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most> >>>part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people,> >>>then you will be stress free.> >>>> >>>> >>>

(35-42 points)
You are Charlie Brown: you are> >>>tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also> >>>very serious about all relationships. You are a> >>>family person. You call your mom every Sunday. You> >>>have many friends and may occasionally forget a few> >>>Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with> >>>reality.> >>>> >>>> >>>

(43-50 points) You are Dexter: You are smart and> >>>definitely a thinker. Every situation is fronted> >>>with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You> >>>demonstrate very strong family principles. Maintain> >>>a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation> >>>when it comes.> >>>

im damn tired..i know..
sleep only for about 4 hours..
no wonder i fall asleep till user waited 4 40 seconds

this week im so teruk..so pemalas & so gemuk..
didnt go for jog,didnt skip.
i eat a lot
not being harsh 2 myself
no adipex,late night eating,
didnt swim,didnt exercise
HUARGGGGh!!
this week is mentally challenge..

2DAY PRAYER..no stupid question & no stupid user..
let myself in peace..
need 2 do printing
need 2 utilize d phone
need 2 organize my cuti/my AL/my documentation regard net
need 2 organize my mail
need 2 sort my mail
need 2 rethinking
need 2 budgetting
need 2 make plan..

huargh...
wanna adipex..
wanna lose weight
wanna not 2 be sleep..
wanna time
wanna peace
wanna hug
wanna laughter

esok masih ada

dont know..2day think my PC merajuk lah w me
siebel & mail~malfunction
took long time break for system error..
then error for full hard disk lah..
thank god lah bebudak kat sini very intelligent..very pakar IT if compare 2 me
i know i adore intelligent people~at least > knowledgeable than me!

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inform cik din regard d matter..
HUARGHH!!!!

im going 2 miss all d fun here..
ada CCTV tp aku tetap gak tidur while working(sbb too damn tired @ demam)
call being recorded but still make personal call (short conversation & there ways 2 know whether call is being detected @ not..he..he..he)
kerja time is so flexible~i LUV shift hour,LUV working on PH,LUV triple pay,LUV odd hours works~
near 2 park~jog 2 CRUZ easily:so greeny park
near 2 everything~especially my FAV place-mall,park & etc.plus near 2 house-no need 2 pay rent,save tol & oil consumption
my so called own PC at office ,reliable net connection & smooth work(if no problem w server)
8 hours working time spend in front PC & d perks of surfing d net~me think there is no job yg macam nie..wajib duduk in front pc.."we given u net so utilize while u working!
i LUV d toilet~coz if me work E shift-it left me alone owning d toilet..realy privacy
d perks of utilize d paper cutter,d printer & copier
LUV d pantry~i dont know but others but what in pantry r SOOOO COOL!!flat screen sony,dvd,home theather,brand new fridge&microwave,user friendly water pitcher & comfortable zone..my home pun tak cool macam nie..
no office wear restriction~means not necessary bj kurung.weekends & PH surely can wear casual.
LUV d GIM though rarely been there
NET hv cool building & view structure

HUARGHH>>i can list all d good things much longer..we tend 2 appreciate d things more when we gonna lose it..

above all d things i LUV here in NET..it lack job security..still im going 2 miss all d FUN
at NET lah i learn 2 be MORE CERDIK,more IT savvy.,meeting GREAT friend & treasure them &i learn so many new THINGS here & i blessed that im gain my 1st ever office work experience here..

org bodoh mana tah ckp bebukan ngan aku..
please lah..aku nak termuntah ngan kau
tak ingin..uWEK!!!

penat lah ari nie.
phone kena barred lak tu..
minta2 janganlah ada call 2day..

ME,RAF & MY PATIENT

i've waited..
waited
waited
waited
sleepy..
zzzzzzzzzzzz
time out!......

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guy that i like didnt know aware about it..
guy i dont want 2 .. make me termuntah lak come terhegeh2..uwek!!
guy that liked me(i wonder who)dont want 2 make d move
guy that liked me(WHO?)stay shy..
guy that great & charming,just wanna b friend..kay lah..as spare tyre

SUMMARY:GUYS BODOH @ AKU NIE MEMANG MALANG

sob kata tadi"my ex luv still cukup for next 2 years"
i think that sweet..but aku ckp dia desperado!!!hahahaha

i DONT WANT 2 be desperado!
i just want 2 be loved by someone who Know how 2 loved me..
even i've 2 wait..
till then..
flirting is FUN!!!

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i realiaze
that every thing that i've done/achieve normally for others happiness....
its always about others...example my family..its not that im complaing(i did am i)
but i never did do things that i want till i grown up..

so if i wearing sexy wardrobe @ short skirt for example..im experementing new things
so if i enjoy sexy swimwear..i never had one b4 & i wanna 2 learn new skill
so if i luv expensive beverange & dining..im treating myself w pleasure
so if i prefer non malay than malay..malay never been charming..but non malay used 2 broke my heart..malay so typical..non malay hard 2 adapt changes especially belief..

so if i hv a big ambition..wanna be stewardess regardless my height & beauty..coz people use 2 demotivated me when i as little but when i grown up..i realized that it never 2 late 2 try isnt..

so if i choose security over satisfaction..im still blur..i wanna stability..but current job cant give that..im enjoying current job coz i've dream this type of relaxation & perks{shift..flexible..near house/town(still near KL),near 2 shopping complex,no jam(save money on tol & oil),less paperwork,learn new things which different from study time,no strictness on bj kurung attire-freedom of dressing,corporate structure,famous & stable company,}but its on contract basis & no bonus given @ any attempt 2 be permanent staff.huargh.!..life full of choices isnt..u take this..u lose this..but i always thankful coz there still people unemploy & their paid not setimpal w what they do..

good~bad

being OFFERED
GOVERNMENT SECTOR/STABLE/SECURITY/IM OLD OLIDE(26 YEAR-NEED WORKS THAT STABLE THOUGH NOT SO HIGH IN SALARY STILL OKLAH)/TAK LARAT CARI KERJA DAH/I WANNA TASTE D BONUS END OF YEARS/I WANNA TAKE HOUSE LOAN

my blurness

am i able 2 deliver a good teaching/preaching/good example.
am i ready 2 be mature & sacrified things that i really want 2 do in life(more childish ambition)
am i ready 2 end my private sector job satisfaction w static gov job especially bureucracy
am i ready 2 be mentally challenge w malay mentally
am i ready 2 duduk dalam hutan(HUARGHHHH) ..no internet super duper connection,no my own pc like my office pc,no work privacy,no shift work..
am i ready 2 work like this for d next 30 years...
am i ready 2 relax myself on public holiday as i used 2 kejar tripple pay!


so many question w blurness answer..
im scared actually!!

ana said"edd,ur 26..alreday..if aku pun..i'll go"
yep 26..im getting old..
i will faced all d challenges but i'll make sure that what i dream in my life im going 2 do it..
HUARGHHHHHH!!!!!!~~~IM STILL SCARED!!!

near TARGET:

CRUZ:40KG!!!MUSTI..MUST!
LEARN SWIMMING~WANNA B EXPERT
GO FOR STEWARDNESS INTERVIEW~EXPERINCE GAIN & TRYING MY LUCK
TRAVELING~wanna go for beaches @ island (sipadan for example @ redang@ pangkor)


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suck fella ask me 2 work 2day.padan muka kau..no staff..biar ur nasib malang..ari2 aku dok menyumpah kau!!!

made me smile

Hi there...I'm about to leave office now for a dinner.
I'll be back later and we'll catch up.
Hope you are doing good.
raf

On 24 Aug 05, at 8:21 PM,
edd cruz wrote:
> hai..
> kindly be online..
> --eddcruz

get offer from MARA:teaching position..
im blur..im speechless..im confused..
so soon..
tak tau..
ari nie semua blur..i

will write long..just 2 let out my feeling

little argument w twins..
dok bergaduh nak upload my pic..
geram sbb i wanna 2 do it myself
i want 2 view it 1st b4 anyone else.
geram..marah..
twin masuk tidur..ha..ha..ha..little fight over...

just return from vacation..
tired..hungry..sleepy..
lots of picture taken....
hv a great time!..

in between,my trip back was interupt by:
jaring-miscommunication in schedule but being retified
kfc-org bodoh bahlul buat schedule.i ask for OD but put me duty.WHAT D FUCK?just bg aku naik angin je..40X i pray for that idiotic fella,soon that fucker be one..argh!!!i know my patient running low 2 that ass hole..

little time 2 noted BIG EVENT!

curi masa surf d net kat umah.
2day work kfc 12-12.but late 30 min..didnt realize that it already noon..
guess im really tired yesterday!

summary on 17/08/05-WEDNESDAY

depress due 2 d accident earlier
sleep for 2 hours only(6am till 8am)
didnt work 9am -2pm at kfc~tense/depress!

WENT FOR SWIMMING~w nana!.best..best!!.
~NOTES~
*pool is AWESOME!!BEST !
*SO PRIVACY-me & nana only.
*WEAR MY 1ST SWIMMING SUIT!
*swimming 4 30 min but really tired.jogging 1 hour/skiping 300X pun tak penat like this.but it was great.d water really calm me & i was so relief..

went 2 take new glasses at mines.wear glasses 2 work..so many people wonder w my new look.they never seen me w glasses.d glasses kinda cool.TREAT MYSELF W ICE BLENDED BLACK FOREST!yummy good & cheap-sudah pokai mau minum starbuck

reach office late 30 min..im really tired due lack of sleep,no mood at all & very bery lousy feeling!

organize CIC party.kinda tired so didnt involved much..focus on being d CIC photographer.i took almost 200 picture..

still work as usual..call was ok..but my break kinda long~bored/tense so peduli apa lah login time semua..that day no mood at all

went for supper w jum & wei.it was great!!.arghh wei..he is damn cute!..we did take picture 2gether use his phone..cool!.abis dah perasaan lagi aku nie

stay back at office till 4am.settle email & everthings..gonna GO for a long break!

went home & sleep like a log..

AGAIN~IM STUPID & MEMANG MALANG

blogging from home & i couldnt stop crying...couldnt sleep..still trauma & worst..all d BANG SOUND keep hearing 2 my ears..

truly my FAULT & MY BODOH!
(dearest all..please call me if u reading this..im still trauma w this experience..2 TIMES ACCIDENT IN D ROW!up 2 date still afraid nak bg tau babah...mama couldnt said anything..she know that her daughter just so stupid....HUARGHHH....i cant help blaming myself!!!)

in short:
finish work at 12midnight,log out asap,drive my atos from parking lot,less than 30 meter from parking lot, think can avoid d tebing then BANG!!!..

d side effect
im clueless,im speechless,im traumatic,
i had my flat tyre(right infront) that i didnt know how 2 change it,
small damaged over sport rim (right infront)
additional damaged 2 infront bumper,but still hanging 2 d body,
additional scartch infront right bumper

solution
jum advise 2 get help.
get cik mie & hafiz help change 2 spare tyre

LESSON
learn 2 change flat tire.write note & took picture
learn at last that my atos has jack & d equipment
learn how 2 open my infront bumper
learn my atos engine body
i was tired 2day..that Y i log out sharp
i was sleepy..that Y i couldnt concentrate
CIK MIE SAID:DONT THINK!,DONT AGAK!..be accurate in driving..(babah for sure will scold me & im screwed & i couldnt blame others except MYSELF!!!

NOW I KNOW
im such BAD DRIVER~SUCK DRIVERING MANUAL,HORROR DRIVING AUTO

REGRETS
not almost a years( a month 2 turn 1 year),3 major accident occured at my office involving my atos & causing me MONEY!!!..all sbb my stupidity
serasanya im d only record breaker here!

PADAN MUKA!!
hvnt sleep at all since 9am..just imagine
16/08/05~9am till 17/08/05~6am(didnt know i can sleep @ not after this)

I WROTE THIS AS REMEMBERANCE OF MY STUPIDITY

"dok meraung kat keta..
dok meratap tayar keta..
dok mengira bulan & bintang
dok mengira bugdet tayar bulan depan
dok pikir mau bilang apa sama bapa
HUARGHHHHHHH!!"


"malam nie ku peluk tayar,
berbumbungkan duka,
berbantal kan tangis..
meraung tak sudah..,
esok aku naik beca!"

my merapu!

terasa miang lah pulak..he..he..he.. tetiba rasa nak getting engaged & married 2 someone(basically met a great millionaire guy,guy luv me & wanna 2 spent his life w this lazy person~me!).

D REASON Y? dunno but all d event macam best je :

engagement
get expensive ring & present & get 2 wear nice dress & be pretty

married
get 2 be loved, get everyday pamper ,get manja2 things,get HUG,get someone 2 called me ayang/darling/sweetheart-<<>>-became raja sehari~being treated like princess,get 2 b dress & make up beautifully,get 2 go honeymoon-this meant VACATION/HOLIDAY-,get 2 pose exclusively for mine wedding album,get 2 hv my own house-my own ownership/my property-

ha..ha..ha..ha..

im not that desperado..just a little merapu!

"You are
dreamy, peaceful, young at heart,Optimistic ,caring & you tend to see
the best in people.You tend to be always smiling - and making others
smile."

copy paste from adik cruz (w a little edition)

plain me
Originally uploaded by adi &ida.

MAKNA & MAKSUD

x bererti kita x call org tu
kita x ingat kat dia

x bererti kita x sms(send/reply) org tu..........kita x peduli kat dia

x bererti kita x email(reply/send)org tu.....kita x ambil berat kat dia

x bermakna kita x tegur dia
kita x sayang kat dia
x bermaksud kita x rapat dgn dia
kita x pernah fikir cara
utk merapatkan diri dgn dia

kadang kala org yg jauh
beribu batu dgn kita
org yg jarang call kita
org yg jarang senyum dgn kita
org yg kita jarang jumpa
adalah mereka yg selalu dok ingat kat kita

manusia itu bersifat ikhtiariah
boleh memilih apa yg dia mahu
sbb dia ada akal yg tuhan anugerahkan(yang membezakan antara seorang insan & seekor haiwan)

andai kita pilih utk hidup dgn mudah
maka kita akan dpt hidup dgn mudah
andai kita pilih utk hidup susah
maka kita akan dpt utk hidup susah

Ketika kau fikir bahawa
kau sudah mencuba segalanya
dan tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa lagi
Allah SWT punya jawapannya

no wonder...

kinda restless 2day as doing piles of errand

>only get 5 hours sleep~wake up at 9am
***MANAGE 2 DO SKIPPING FOR 300x
>play & entertain dani & faiz
>wdraw from RHB seri kembangan~massive jam but thank god queue is few
>sent pants for adjustment
>meet noni at her office
***went 2 mines 2 make glasses~cost RM 168.Get myself a ice blended black forest(RM 6.43) & roll popiah(RM 2.30) w not wearing contact lense for 20min.Reason:eyes checks up & accuracy rabun
>off 2 work at 3pm-jaring
>dealing w email & preparation 4 2morrow CIC event(im d secretary of d year)
>in between that handling user as usual..
>it was raining so didnt go for jog..
>spent d whole 9 hours at my cubicle utilize d perk of high speed internet connection
>waiting patiently till 12pm 2 log out..

ha..ha..ha..
still im complaining im exhausted..

I should be THANKFUL instead!!!

my gmail~adiamanda~

at last got my gmail account~YEPPIE!~
from my beloved cousin..nana..
2day so eager 2 utilize my gmail account
i know that im kinda over excited but gmail only based by invitation isnt?..

i just cant help myself smiling w 2GB storage...
its not my yahoo email not sufficient but i wanna back up email....no harm in that isnt?...

my plan for my gmail use:
focus ON STORAGE THINGS!(like email store room)

my yahoo mail:
email & etc.this is my BERRY 1ST MAIL!.dr cikit storage sampailah dah ke 1GB

my hotmail
cikit bebenor-so buat perhiasan

my lycos
saje,wanna variety..kinda cool though only 300MB

myjaring.net
OUTLOOK~home PC

my mimos
office info & CRAPS!.connection is realiable,fast,spam free(97%),8 hours a day,5 times a week.

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great. One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog... And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes. Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

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#i think its TRUE & 100% ACCURATE

#whatever i wrote in my blog is what i think,i feel,i loved,i hated,a reminder,a motivator,a place 2 SCREAM OUT MY feeling,my non verbal santuanary ,my dream,my future plan,my past history that i believe its important for me 2 treasure it,great thought& articel that i appreciated its content & a day in my life.

#DONT want/wish/like to include comment/tag board coz i've no time 2 read & so lazy 2 reply.(sorry adik sayang!)..i enjoy writing blog for my pleasure & dont want 2 burden my BRAINY HEAD w "apalah aku nak balas comment"

#everything is about ME!!!!

#only people that i close with & trusted R given privillage 2 read all my CRAPs!as for d unknown in d world wide web,i didnt bother at all coz i dont even known u,but its ur lucky day 2 found & reading my CRAPS!...

UNFORTUNE EVENT ****contain HARSH WORD,im sorry but there is no greater expression that it***

ATOS hit another car by accident at TOL KERINCI(this tol cekik darah.abis RM 2.50 & bodoh nya system)

***d sign said tunai&T&G,it was green,but only accept T&G
***me make reverse at 1st attempt-no car at behind,2nd attempt didnt check & realize
***BANG!really loud & still trauma till now.that Y im no mood as per 2day

i blame myself-80%
DUE TO MY MISTAKE,MY BODOH,MY NOT KNOW,NOT ALERT,MY UNAWARENESS,MY CLUMSINESS,MY UNCONSCIOUSNESS

tol-10%
asshole-10%

thank god,ATOS didnt hurt himself..

but that car(kenari lama) tu kecoh..very minor injured.kinda gabra at 1st but when d bitch membebel cam sial,i wont give her chance.i tolarate & said sorry but bitch always be bitchy asshole,i fight back!

wanna tipu me kata

1. plat RM 50-CRAP!me not stupid lah..less than RM 20
2. atos make its depan kemek-if it kemek,my atos sure ada kesan also.i c d mark-its berkarat.so ,it urs mistake sial!
3. d depan things longgar-as long lamp u tak broke ok lah plus,it didnt effect anything pun.sial nie buat kecoh over things yg nothing much pun
4. ask for extra-cibai nie memang tgk muka cekik darah & memang sial & babi & celaka!.

just paid that kecoh babi perempuan cibai tu RM 50.

then just continue 2 IKEA.

still trauma,cant think well & didnt call babah.

2 overcome call kambing(this is d time where kambing function been utilize) & emi
ask kambing whether need 2 make report,but since paid d bitch cibai ,he said no need.that cibai babi pun might be tak report.

case settled though still trauma..

"it's all a part of life tragedy.."
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I'VE LEARN

my first ATOS's accident w others car
next time tgk side mirror whenever gostan
ALWAYS PUT EMERGENCY LIGHT WHEN UNFORTUNE EVENT OCCUR(in this case d tol bodoh~if i put d emergency light on,chances clumsiness is less,i think~
STAY CALM,DONT PANIC!
if any bitch/asshole fool u around~search for their CRAP! & FIGHT BACK w ur EVIDENCE!
DONT LISTEN 2 CRAP!
DRIVE SAFELY LAH EDD!this things happen meant ur still lousy lah.

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IM THANKFUL

GOD LUV ME so much he bless me w this minor BANG experience
im still alive yet still feel d trauma & d BANG!
MY BELOVED ATOS NOT HURT EVEN CRACK THOUGH there is LOUD BANG!...i'll cry out loud/blame ME if my ATOS accident/badly injured
just RM 50 gone not my insurance claim
settled though d bitch is so sial one!

im so restless 2day..
wake up at 9am..2day need 2 buy jaring gift.
spent time for myself~EXERCISE-do skipping 300X~
went 2 office,collect money,headed 2 IKEA.
reach office punctual.
work...
went for jog~it was so windy & not so many people..just walk & utilize d outdoor gim~
its work again after that..

my prayer for 2day:
please no heavy flow call,no call lagi bagus,no difficult question,i prayer that there would be less call/no call at all till 12pm..
i wanna reach home early & safely

thank god i work w suky 2day..it peaceful & i can be leave all alone..doing my stuff..

I FEEL REALLY DOWN

IM FEEL SAD,I FEEL GLOOMY,I HATED MYSELF

IM TIRED,IM EXHAUSTED,IM MOODY,

I WANNA CRY SO BAD,

I WANNA SLEEP,I WANNA LAUGH,

I WANNA FEEL FRESH,

I WANNA ICE BLENDED SAN FRANCISSO,

I WANNA EXPENSIVE ICECREAM,

I WANNA HOT SOUP,

I DONT WANT TO BE DISTURB,

I WANNA KEEP SILENT 2DAY,

I WANNA HUG& MOTIVATION,

I WANNA PEACE,

I WANNA BE LEAVE ALONE,

I WANNA SMILE FROM MY HEART,

I WANNA CHAT W CIK ABG,

I WANNA SEE COMFORT FACE,

I MISS MY ROOM & I WANNA MY TAZ BLANKET

I WANNA SMS & CALL MY FRIEND(got call stated that im reaching credit limit)

if adi amanda

combination of my bery fav name

adi~this is what "edd" in malay writing.can also derived from my name ida & just read/spell it backward

amanda~if i can choose my name,it would be amanda.i just luv d name d most!.if i've baby girl in future...amanda would be her name(this is my future plan yg i dont know temakbul @ tidak...but w god will)


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Your Japanese Name Is...

Ayame Nanba

What's" your Japanese Name?

if nursuhaida~my real name

my parent anugerahkan myself w this name..simply & plain ,isnt?

as my twin is nursuhaila so im nursuhaida.duh?

when i was a kid i always didnt like my name coz it just plain..ordinary..& i think it just so common till lah i've grown up.

i hated people most when they cant spell @ pronounce my name betul2.

normally it turn to be shuhada instead of suhaida @ suhaidaH @ shuhaida(my name doesnt hv double H) @ the nur itself turn 2 be nor & worse nurul & there is space between nur & suhaida.

in addition,people tend 2 spell/write my dad name WROngly.

i can say its kinda geram...being misprounce,mispell,miswrite & having a plain name

when i was little..im not creative 2 make my name so VOGUE..so i've known as kakida @ ida @ sue..so it just plain & boring & its so typical!..

but when i enter matric..i ask people 2 called me eddhie/edd/adi.

kinda cool & it resemble me a lot.(in between,the class consist of so many /all girls & all their name start/hv/ended wNOR,NUR,SU,IDA.) i've my own personality.my self esteem increase & im different/unique person since then ( i think)

by d way my twin nick name is ella..

so it ella & eddhie.cool isnt?

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in between,i've 2 learn 2 adore my name..nursuhaida..its a gift by my parent..a life time gift.

~notes(as far as i know,d meaning of my name in arabic)~

cahaya kebahagiaan(d light of happiness)-that y kot i've always sen as a happy & bubbly personality

cahaya para shuhada(muslim died for d sake of islam)-me think me a person that always sacrife my leisure/happiness for d one that me love/cared.

***that Y in Islam naming a child is VERY IMPORTANT coz its resemble ours personality

Your Japanese Name Is...

Michi Aburakoji

What's" your Japanese Name?

eddcruz

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mayoko Kaoin

What's" your Japanese Name?

"When MUSIBAH
melanda,we tend 2 APPRECIATE ALL D SUNSHINE & D RAINING that we always take
for granted "

Y we always be so ungrateful,so greedy & so selfish.y we never learn from our mistake/past,Y we must be so cruel 2 mother nature,y we never value/teasure things that really important in our life simply because its FOC /god's creation..

i wonder Y...

sky 

no haze 

pm 

2 

blue sky 

SOS..

almost a week(sunday (7/08/05 till 2day),im not well at all..
i thought i was working 2 hard(due 2 24/7 working shift) @ my body is desperate for vacation trip/MC..

but it turn out that d environment~d dirty air that i breath,no sunshine,no rainy day,no fresh scent flower,no exercise:jog at d park(due 2 bad air)~is d main cause.

IT WAS HAZZY for almost a week!

d last TERUK nya HAZE that i recall was when i was in matric in 1997/1998.
its quite worse w all d CATUAN air..but NEVER as WORST as this sampai my body/my imune system collapsed.

THANK GOD(ALHAMDULLILAH)it was really sunny again on friday..im really really thankful.

its been hazy d past 3 days..
2day was d worst..
AGAIN im sick!recover only for about 8 hours..
but shopping spree w cousin heal d sickness..
yet temporary..
still hvg d cough,d fever..

HOW I WISH 2day IT RAIN HEAVILY..

purchase that i've bought & get..

a.noni give this awesome scent avon perfume.totally FRUITY MELON!
b.bought a strach~ironing aids!bg rajin sikit iron bj:RM 5.90
c.deodorant yg NICE baunye!
d.COOL tumbler..just RM 1.80~nie ada tisu lagi inside it

LOVELY NONIE

nonie1
Originally uploaded by ann7358.

she just an angel,isnt she?

i almost recover from my fever..
i hope so..
didnt had my adipex almost 4 days(sun till wednesday)
since im not being well no selera lah 2 eat..
but 2day..it was ok a bit..
eat munchy during work(which i really rare 4 me d past month)
treat myself w food high in fat,calori & oil content..(i had roti kaya & other benda merapu)

tomorow,khamis,gonna strict adipex,strict xenical & diet

LIVE FOR 2DAY,

PLAN 4 D FUTURE

LEARN FROM D PAST

my weakness,my bad habit

i know..i cant help it..
im sick..im not well
still..2 heel me..bring me d shopping mall & i'll be cure!
ha..ha..ha.ha..
went 2 maluri after taking a short rest..
interestingly..found few item that on bargain...i know that i need 2 hv it

a.new track bottom(per piece only RM 15-cheetah)
b.a pair of sneakers((ambros brand-good bargain~50% &so pinky!)
c.seed bj at children department that was really bargain
d.my swimwear tahat was on bargain & i fit into. (i already buy d skirt-only RM15)

i know..i cant help myself 2 list it & 2 buy it..
i will & i must LOSE WEIGHT..
im afraid 2 weight myself..takut naik lah..
didnt diet properly since im hvg this fever..

FORCE 2 MYSELF~i WILL LOSE 45 KG!
near target lose~50kg then must 47kg!!!!!!

2day,didnt diet at all.
i ate & ate & ate,
i need energy 2 work & consume lots of chochalate.
yet..i puke afterwards.
nak balik dah nie.took half day..
wanna sleep...miss my bed..
tulah mama tanya still nak gi kerja ..kerja gak..kan dah tak larat..
padan muka..at 7pm nak berambus..

lor online as per 2day..
actually geramnya toward this fella.i waited like buah tak gugur d past week,he didnt online..suddenly 2day lak..appear..im being harsh/didnt give him chance/bambo dia...its unlike me at all.ha..ha..ha.padan muka kau..sapa suruh menyombong sangat.
man!..sometimes/always their just suck!..
i know..hatred had occupy my body,mind & soul..

~TODAY' S HISTORY~

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kambing was born 2day.
he died in my life on 6 November 2003
my wish 2 him
"whats goes around comes around"
"kekata jahat:may u'll bless w erectile dyfunction"
"i've learn that u r not so saint.ur such a jerk & lousy fella"
" u r kind but in d same time ur word berbelit2.do return whatever u owe me!"
"u'll never find any one better/as angel than me.."~a curse on U!~
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struck by fever

got fever this morning.couldnt wake up,couldnt open my eyes..my body was too weak.mama was not in d house(ulu langat's house).leave only kakila(biasa lah dia,tidur mati),sharul(balik jam berapa pun tak tau) & myself.

im suppose work kfc at 9pm but i couldnt bare 2 force/pull myself 2gether.so officiallyMC.i sleep MATI ~wake up at 2pm..kena kerja jaring at 3pm.bersiap2 & drive atos 2 work..feel like driving melayang2.

now at work..im typing so slow..so tak larat..sit quietly& simpan my energy till 12pm.my prayer..please no call,please just enquiry only,please let myself in peace.

Psychological age appraisal

http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm

w VIP assistance..i complete d test..
kinda impressed..kinda WOW!
me being 15 instead of 26..
totaly COOL!

MY RESULT!

鉴定结果 您的心理年龄15岁 与您实际年龄差-11岁 幼稚度80％ 成熟度29％ 老化度17％

being translated as

15-pschological age,
11-different years,
80%-young degree,
29-adult degree,
17%-old degree

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gosh!im really that young..being rated as 15 years old..it really make my day!!!

wishes,yummy cakes & a teddy..a suprising reply..duh?

send to lor

Oh, what a beautiful mornin',

Oh, what a beautiful day!

I got a beautiful feelin'

Ev'rything's goin' my way.

Its some one birthday..
though he is very far far away..
just a though,wishes & pray..
that he'll be HVG SUCH a GREAT DAY!!!

reply~

hello cik adek...terima kasih banyak banyak...very nice looking cake...if only i can grab it :)
it's been a while since we last spoken to each other...i've been really busy at work and with life too..
how are you doing ? hope U're keeping well...
and lastly..thanks again for the well wishes

raf

ME reply>>>>>

who's this?

i wonder..
ITS U!..
gosh...where hv u been?outer space searching for 10th planet.i almost erase u from my long term memory..( ^ _^ )..he..he.he..im just joking!

thought u like it..HAPPY BIRTHDAY by d way..

take care.

"gonna rest my case,gonna hv some peace"

--edd

buy adipex & xenical 2day..
weight..still hvnt drop.STILL 53 KG!
didnt eat anything since morning....
maybe i eat alot d past 2 days..
maybe didnt exercise harder..
huargh....
I WANNA LOSE D 3 KG...

guys that i known 80% of them r SUCK ,IDIOT & LOSER(1st list kambing,kodok,gagak hitam)!
20% ,already taken..
that Y lesbian exist coz of MAN/GUYS r extinct.no wonder!
still..IM STRAIGHT!....i know..

simply LUV these WOMEN!