ME,RAF & MY PATIENT

i've waited..
waited
waited
waited
sleepy..
zzzzzzzzzzzz
time out!......

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guy that i like didnt know aware about it..
guy i dont want 2 .. make me termuntah lak come terhegeh2..uwek!!
guy that liked me(i wonder who)dont want 2 make d move
guy that liked me(WHO?)stay shy..
guy that great & charming,just wanna b friend..kay lah..as spare tyre

SUMMARY:GUYS BODOH @ AKU NIE MEMANG MALANG

sob kata tadi"my ex luv still cukup for next 2 years"
i think that sweet..but aku ckp dia desperado!!!hahahaha

i DONT WANT 2 be desperado!
i just want 2 be loved by someone who Know how 2 loved me..
even i've 2 wait..
till then..
flirting is FUN!!!

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i realiaze
that every thing that i've done/achieve normally for others happiness....
its always about others...example my family..its not that im complaing(i did am i)
but i never did do things that i want till i grown up..

so if i wearing sexy wardrobe @ short skirt for example..im experementing new things
so if i enjoy sexy swimwear..i never had one b4 & i wanna 2 learn new skill
so if i luv expensive beverange & dining..im treating myself w pleasure
so if i prefer non malay than malay..malay never been charming..but non malay used 2 broke my heart..malay so typical..non malay hard 2 adapt changes especially belief..

so if i hv a big ambition..wanna be stewardess regardless my height & beauty..coz people use 2 demotivated me when i as little but when i grown up..i realized that it never 2 late 2 try isnt..

so if i choose security over satisfaction..im still blur..i wanna stability..but current job cant give that..im enjoying current job coz i've dream this type of relaxation & perks{shift..flexible..near house/town(still near KL),near 2 shopping complex,no jam(save money on tol & oil),less paperwork,learn new things which different from study time,no strictness on bj kurung attire-freedom of dressing,corporate structure,famous & stable company,}but its on contract basis & no bonus given @ any attempt 2 be permanent staff.huargh.!..life full of choices isnt..u take this..u lose this..but i always thankful coz there still people unemploy & their paid not setimpal w what they do..

good~bad

being OFFERED
GOVERNMENT SECTOR/STABLE/SECURITY/IM OLD OLIDE(26 YEAR-NEED WORKS THAT STABLE THOUGH NOT SO HIGH IN SALARY STILL OKLAH)/TAK LARAT CARI KERJA DAH/I WANNA TASTE D BONUS END OF YEARS/I WANNA TAKE HOUSE LOAN

my blurness

am i able 2 deliver a good teaching/preaching/good example.
am i ready 2 be mature & sacrified things that i really want 2 do in life(more childish ambition)
am i ready 2 end my private sector job satisfaction w static gov job especially bureucracy
am i ready 2 be mentally challenge w malay mentally
am i ready 2 duduk dalam hutan(HUARGHHHH) ..no internet super duper connection,no my own pc like my office pc,no work privacy,no shift work..
am i ready 2 work like this for d next 30 years...
am i ready 2 relax myself on public holiday as i used 2 kejar tripple pay!


so many question w blurness answer..
im scared actually!!

ana said"edd,ur 26..alreday..if aku pun..i'll go"
yep 26..im getting old..
i will faced all d challenges but i'll make sure that what i dream in my life im going 2 do it..
HUARGHHHHHH!!!!!!~~~IM STILL SCARED!!!

near TARGET:

CRUZ:40KG!!!MUSTI..MUST!
LEARN SWIMMING~WANNA B EXPERT
GO FOR STEWARDNESS INTERVIEW~EXPERINCE GAIN & TRYING MY LUCK
TRAVELING~wanna go for beaches @ island (sipadan for example @ redang@ pangkor)


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suck fella ask me 2 work 2day.padan muka kau..no staff..biar ur nasib malang..ari2 aku dok menyumpah kau!!!