live simply,laugh often,love deeply: April 2006

i was surfing

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Originally uploaded by Merina.

i like this model shoot

i like the dress..
the make up..
the skinny body..

its just perfecrt..hehehheh

I HATED being penat...HATED being FAT..all i need now is LAUGH

ive lots to write actually..

a.i was viewing my flickr &
i was viewing my contact..
i like her..
coz its like im seeing myself
wat i wanna do in my life..
i like her photo..
& she still look so pretty
even w short hair..
yup...short..
in between
i just hv my new hair cut..
FOC..like crew cut..
i hvnt really take
a nice picture of myself
(see how im so bz)

b.i dislike my student..
the budak2 here..
i pity my warden atos
yesterday coz of this one brat..

c.im about not (mIGHT)
to hv a laptop today
& tommorow coz
ive keep it too long..
"they said?"
but takpe..fri balik..
yeyeyeyey..
so this entry just meant to lepas geram

d.i pray that ive a GREAT day today..
no sakit hati..just a normal day
happy..tenang..not penat..

its 8am in the morning..this is an amanah..so..kerja je lah..u being paid 4 that!

we hv this warden meeting last night & lasted till 12midnight
i slept at 4pm..was terjaga at very hour
pull myself together to jog even its a bit raining
i just wanna smell fresh air & the need to cruz45

HAPPY i was
coz i see a rainbow
at morning..strange isnt but it was a rainbow..

ANGRY i was coz
i suppose to get rm105 for my salary
half duit umah but i didnt..
darn..byk tu..
already confirm the info..
me send stuff to photostate
but no action taken

hahahahhahah..
im going to be pack..
class..student..tuiition..
hope iv enough energy..

i ate a LOT yesterday
ive mango...TONs of it
nasi ayam..yum..yum
& ive bihun goreng in the meeting..
hahahahahhaha

i feel that i laugh a little..
capture photo so few..
was not really..really happy..
i didnt spend much surfing
i still waiting my CC
i hated borrow school
laptop as its not purely mine..

i need a miracle..
i want > myr
m thinking of dipping myself in sungai..@ pool..
i wanna RUN freely..
i wanna go back & go window shopping..
i wanna pose 4..capture picture
i wanna sweet thing happen..
i wanna EAT wout going to gain weight..kilo..fat
i wanna clear my debt..i hated being in debt..

but at this very moment
all i just wanna is a laugh...
a happy laugh..

im up at this hour...

today gonna be very bz one..

i cant wait to be home..1 day more...& its friday

Perkara ini berlaku sekali je.... dalam kehidupan kita

Bulan Depan (hari Khamis, 4hb May )

Dalam Dua Minit

dan 3 Saat selepas 1:00 Am ,

Masa dan tarikh akan menjadi seperti ini

01:02:03 04/05/06 .

for mE!

kena gi sekolah...

jgn malas..

ari nie sgt indah..

lets JGN LAZY...EXERCISE..rajin cuci muka...EAT CONTROL!BE CRUZ45 &HAPPY FACE!

complexion sungguh improve!!!!

hehehe....
texture dah cun....

kurang kaler (blusher/lipstick)
also the undereye bags... (sleep early la babe)
tapi tetap cun!!!

aku bangga ngn ko hehehehe

dari nana the cousin

highly motivated..

ada improvement..hehhehe

kena lagi HARDWORKING..

CANT lazy

STRICT EXERCISE & BEAUTY REGIME!!

in between...

yesterday i was out buying saline..

then nampak the cosmetic bar takde langsung sale gal..

so i went & try all..dgn aman..hehehhehe

luv the blusher & loose powder

TO myself:tak beli pun takpe ..try..ada duit nanti buy ok!!

i was thinking of KL..the shopping spree..home..adip..swim..gREAT food..

if ikut hati ..me drive after class but hv assembly till four & was in room at 5pm

it was a pack day & im TIRED..

in between..

esok gaji..yeah!

reminder:

byr hutang

byr bill

SAVE!!!!SAVE!!!

JIMAT!!>>JIMAT!!

BIJAK BERBELANJA

BUY PERLU STUFF

to myself..

gi get urself a window shopping..

biar hilang all the sadness..

spend wisely..

SAVE & pay utang

pay my phone bill & my broadband

control ur phone bill..

i HOPE..i kuat all the iman

tak buy takpe..tgk aje..

that will help..

i dunno know y..but i do feel better now

i feel so syahdu..
i miss home..
i call home & i cry..
i cry like budak sekolah yg homesick..
i was crying out loud over the phone..
dun know..tetiba syahdu..
i think all happen coz i tgk sign board KL semalam..
takpe..friday balik..cant wait..
wanna be at home
just be at home..park my car..
tgk umah sepah..KL ujan..
mama membebel..abah look..
bro yg poyo..
dunno..i just feel wanna be home..
i know balik nie musti bz..
window shopping..outing...
taklah...heart & soul already kat kl..
5 days in counting

list to buy..when ive sufficient money..till now..save..jimat..

~concealer

~perm eye lashes

~facial

~pastel color lipstick(???)

~loose powder

~brush...(a good one)

~branded blusher(coz ive to motivate myself)

current using..jadik rajin sikit..kena LOSE WEIGHT also.i wish ive high metabolisme rate..edd..wake up & EXERCISE!!

ive never get tired even bored w these place..i wish ive more energy..more battery life..more time..

my saturday morning..beach gal..

i luv being a gal nowadays

Blusher
~For work, add just a light touch of the blusher to give a glowing look to your face without being pink all over.
~Use a slight touch of blusher to add colour and radiance to your cheek and face.
~Use upward strokes. Apply the blusher to the apples of the cheeks, blending it well towards the temples.

For a glowing skin
~Don’t rely on glowing skin creams or bronzing powders for your hands, as they tend to leave a thin stain on the clothes.
~After a shower, massage your body with a good moisturizer. The skin will get a good texture.
~For oily skin, use an oil-free moisturizer. For dry skin, use an oil-based one.

For those luscious lips
~At work, don’t use red or bold colours unless you want to make some kind of statement.
~Use lip-gloss to accentuate your lips. Give them some colour. But don’t make it look gaudy.

Experts advise that 20 to 30 minutes of aerobic activity at least three times a week is beneficial for both men and women.

Aerobic Activity Training
Bicycling
Brisk walking
Dancing
Jogging
Jump Rope
Roller-skating
Skiing
Swimming
Tennis

http://www.beautytipsonline.com/articles/photogenic.htm

from my reading...i know im not..Y is so hard to lose the 10 kg...lose weight i must

Danger Signals

The following is a list of warning flags for anox....

Losing a significant amount of weight
Continuing to diet (even when already thin)
Feeling fat (even after losing weight)
Having an abnormal fear of gaining weight
Losing monthly menstrual period for three or more consecutive months
Having a preoccupation with food and obsessively counting calories
Preferring to eat in isolation
Exercising compulsively
Abusing laxatives or other over-the-counter diuretics
Denying that you're hungry
Always having an excuse as to why you're not eating (for example, "I just ate" or "I'm feeling ill")
Becoming "disgusted" with former favorite foods
Obsessing about food labels
Drastically reducing or completely eliminating fat intake
Not believing others when they tell you you're thin
Detesting all or specific parts of your body
Denying that a problem exists

im so desperate to see me losing weight..wanna be the next lindsay body.

Anorexia (a-neh-RECK-see ah) nervosa, typically called anorexia, is a type of eating disorder that mainly affects girls and young women.

A person with this disorder has an intense fear of gaining weight and limits the food she eats.

She has a low body weight
refuses to keep a normal body weight
is extremely afraid of becoming fat
believes she is fat even when she's very thin
misses three (menstrual) periods in a row—for girls/women who have started having their periods.

i wanna be skinny..i wanna to be 47kg...

doc gave me this purple pill & i luv it coz its color..

since im not well this week..sleepin g kinda is my exercise..

ive to work hard after this to lose weight

im thinking on a nice vacation...again!

dinda..i luv this capture..hehheheheh

saya dalam proces hendak sihat

saya naik..huarghhhh..

weight 54kg

huarghhhh..kenapa tak 45..

im so worried

was reading this..

to diet..7 days wout goreng food

guess i ate too much of fried stuff..

too much oil. & fattening

too much nasi..

i hated myself for that

i ate coz i cant ate normal food as im so weak & demam..

hated myself

to see all those fat

ive 4 hours straight sleep & im awake..

today...ive learn & i learned

kabut meant fog

kabus meant mist

two different things

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i need to settle my hibiscus project

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my camp punya lah byk activity..

me ..myself pun tak larat apatah student

huarghhhh..kena bina stamina & improve my body immune system

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me luv color..me luv lots of GREAT things in life..me wanna lead a HAPPY>>>HEALTHY>>MERRIER live..

me so thankful..me hv meeting at 3pm..

me demam

me rasa me gemuk sbb bj like ketat.me look ugly in mirror

me wanna hv homecook chicken soup..no oil..no fat..healthier sup

me wanna drink lots & lots of h2o & org juice

me wanna eat fresh mango buy by my dad(its free & abah always tau to buy yg sedap one)

me hv 2 can of lychee in can

yesterday me ate

~bihun goreng

~biscuit

~tuna in can

~a cartoon of fresh orange

im uploading..sending mail & all..
br phase satu..br gambar yg on weekend..
ive to mail the pic yg kat orientasi week..
punyalah byk penerima..heheheh

taking pic..w my nikon
always be my passion..
my luv..my life
stuff that me smile..all day long
its feel so good when u can shoot & click
despite i dun hv like others (yg high tech)
yet im content w my nikon..

in betweeen..
i just teach my principal to use the mail things..
teach him that better to use that than the normal one he use..
heheheheh..
even he old..unlike my KJ..his wanna to learn..
nice fella..hahahaha

to twin..
miss u lah..
hahahahahha

ive been there..ive done that..wow..its awesome!!!no wonder lah ticket o mahal..1 meter track je half million

ive to go schooling tommorow
i received a note from student form one..
she seem hvg prob..

"sorry aa..miss ari nie pun tak sihat lah"

so esok lah kan..

just a note here:

my kj tu mulut tempayan & she is not amanah person
ive buah pear w me & suddenly i recall wei..miss aa that guy..he make me smile & laugh..thinking about his such act make me feel better..still i dislike my kj

saya rasa berat badan saya bertambah..
sbb saya tgk cermin saya saya macam gemuk..
saya tak suka gemuk..
sbb saya susah-susah nak kurus..
saya mau kurus..
kurus..
dan kurus..

im not well today..
i call my camp & get irratated by my KJ
dun like her..
i was sick lah..sick
i was sick coz the budak spread the virus among others reason Y i always seek
my body resistant is poor coz of them..
she the bossy bos is not lah good one it term of being a role model..
dislike..dun like..hated..

i feel much better after enough rest..

i miss my kl..
miss..miss..miss..

by the way ..
ive great weekend to share..
a memorable one..
i ate delicious meal..that is the one ..tarbush stuff..
which camp dun hv..
i met lot of interesting people..
i liked them..

i wonder..& i pray everyday
that i would luv wat am doing..

suddenly..
i wanna more holiday..

im HOME..
yeppie..
its so good to be one
note..
its downpour unlike camp
its jam unlike camp
its feel good unlike camp

yet..im HAPPY!!

the two brat..i miss them
grandma is here
& im able to surf..