i miss my smile..i miss my saticfaction face over spree & exploring..i miss my petite figure..

msk kerja today..semua mencari..
bangang ke apa diaorg nie

thank god..only one class today in 10 min more..
wish me luck..

am back at camp..boring..buhsan..
am still on cuti mood

the late entry during the school holiday

my diet @ eating regime is not to EAT NASI,

LESS CARB/NO CArb,NO fatting stuff

eat lots & lots fiber,

more protein intake

NO SOFT DRINK

LOTS & LOTS OF H20

NO OILY STUFF

NO GORENG SYUFF

LOTS OF VEGE..LOTS OF GREEN

CEREALS..OAT..FIBER

FASTING..NO FOOD

& EXERCISE(LOTS & LOTS OF THEM)

ANYWAY..

AT CAMP I TRY/MUST NOT TO EAT NASI

TAHAN PERUT,TAHAN MAKAN,TAHAN NAFSU TO EAT

& REWARD MY SELF W SINFUL & LOTS & LOTS OF FOOD AT KL

STUFF THAT I ALWAYS EAT AT KL(JIMAT MY DUIT APA)

& MY FORMULA IS..NO EAT FOR LIKE 6 DAYS,,& ON THE 7..EAT STUFF THAT U LURVE THE MOST

HUHUHUHUHUHU

U SEE..NOWADAYS..MOST SICKNESS COME FROM OUR DAILY LIFE ROUTINE,FOOD,SOCIALAZATION..ENVIRONMENT

& I PITY THE MOST MY ORGAN2 DALAMAN

GOD KNOW HOW THEY HV WOR VERY HARD TO COMPETE W MY NEED

TAKE MY HEART FOR EXAMPLE..

DAHLAH KENA PAM DARAH TO MY WHOLE BODY..EVERY SECOND WOUT STOP & I DERA IT W HIGH BODY FAT,HIGH CHOLESTROL IN IT

DID U GUYS REMEMBER THAT THE SIZE OF UR HEART IS AS BIG AS UR PUNCH..SO SMALL..SO FRAGILE..

WE NOT GETTING YOUNGER(AGE I MEANT)

WE CAN LIES ON OUR EXTERNAL THRU MAKE UP..BLA BLA & SO ON..

BUT THE JANTUNG,KINDNEY..ETC..WAT WE CAN DO IS MAINTAIN IT,JAGA IT

& AS THE SCIENCE GOES..EXERCISE..JAGA MAKAN..

IN BETWEEN AM IN CUTI BUT IN THE STUDY ENVIRONMENT

THE CLASS AS USUAL HECTIC..EVERYDAY FROM 830AM TILL 7PM..

CLASS WAS INTERESTING..LEARN LOTS OF IT STUFF BUT WAS NO IN MOOD PLUS SOME OF THE LECTURE R BORING..HHEHEHE..

BUT STILL IVE LEARN LOTS & LOTS OF NEWBIE.

i lurve cLASSES..I LURVE MY COURSE..

I FEEL LIKE VERY EDUCATED..LEARN NEW STUFF..

JAUH FROM THE OLDIEST PEOPLE..

I LURVE THAT THE FACT IS AM AT HOME..IN KL..

I LURVE THAT THE FACT I CAN RONGGENG,

THE FACT THAT I CAN JUMPA ALL MY GF/BF,FAMILY & ALL TIME FAV,TWINNIE,COUSIE & DINDA FOR THE MONTHLY/WHEN DUIT ADA SESSION

I FEEL SO BLOODY YOUNG..FEEL SO STUDENTLIZE...HEHHEHE

& THE FACT I WAITED FOR THE CUTI JUST TO BE AWAY FROM SCHOOL & ATTEND CLASS..HEHEHEHE

SO MANY TIMES I TOLD MYSELF THAT I NEED TO BERJIMAT

MOSTLY COZ OF SAVING,MASA SUSAH TIME,BERINGAT,TO BUY MY WANNA STUFF,DSLR,BACKPACKING-TRAVEL,BG MAK ABAH & BAYAR UTANG!

SO IKAT PERUT ,TAHAN NAFSU,THINK..& THINK

I SO WANNA TO GET A DSLR & MORE NEW CAMERA

& LOTS & LOTS OF SAVING

& TO CLEAR MY DEBT

& TO JALAN2

AGAIN..

I REALLY NEED TO DROP KILOS..KILOS..& KILOS..

I REALLY NEED TO BERJIMAT

I REALLY NEED TO NO NASI INTAKE

I REALLY NEED TO SAVE

I REALLY NEED TO KEMAS MY STUFF

OH YA..AM A SHOPERHOLIC PERSON

TWO PAIR OF NEW KASUT(A BLACK PUMP & A CREAM HEEL)

A NEW BRA(TRI/UM/PH FOR MYR 10 ONLY)

2 ENGLISH COMIC BOOK( I NEED TO READ)

TGK MOVIE RAT-TA-TOI(ALA YG CETA KARTUN..SO LAWAK ONE)

money comes..& money go..
coming to work..& back to home

i NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!

the day i went & saw my very 1st match & scream.....

GOAL!!!!!!!!!!
it was the last match here at historical state's stadium
& the ticket myr8
my very bery 1st life match..
i did enjoy it...it was the MU(engla/nd VS Ita/ly)FC Mi/lan
very the internationalize..

am bored...damn bored today
called dinda in the very morning hour(sorry dinda)

now hv to face the reality ya!

my last capture on wearing my expensive make up b4 eaten b the monkey here..

LURVE & LAUGHTER....its all i need for monday

am at camp!
wake up a bit late at 545am,rush myself ready & drove myself
outta home & reach here at 715am..1 hour & 15 min..

anyway..am HAPPY yesterday..
the highlight of my very dim weekend & weekday
as i mentioned to cousie & twinnie & dinda..
the brownie is to die for..
just umpan me w the brownies..i definelty balik one..
the power of brownies..

& nana..to top up the compliment..
urs brownies is setaraf w the Se/cret Rpi one..
damn syiok.....!!!!
& the bread puding..wah..macam hotel one..

am so lucky to hv 2 sista in the whole wide world yang
COOOOOOK all my fav stuff..

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sad news,tp tak feeling sangat
monyet br ceroboh my car as i stupidly leave it terbuka
& the brainless animal took my make up,
my highly expensive make up that i jimat usage
gone my fav mineral m/up..
lesson learn!!!padan MUKA awak!

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anyway..when look back at the picture i took yesterday
i feel happy..i feel gooood..i feel calm..
am surround w lurve..surround w GREAT people..
yeah..yeah..my neeekon is so fragile..but still i lurve it &
it deliver good capture..
pray that murah rezeki..i soon get a dslr..
AMEN..

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COnfession...

when ur tailor said ur a bit plump..doesnt it frighten u?
when u look at mirror & see the extra fat,dun u just wanna make a lipo
when u wear ur old fit clothes & its keta,wun u be horified
when u weight urself & count everything..& u find u not that skinny..wun u be veryyyyy worry

I DID!!!
GOSH..
I MUST LOSE WEIGHT..
SAYA MUSTI KURUS!
to be 45kg!
to be freaking kurus..tinggal tulang pun tak ape..


am dun mind being an anox/eria
yeah..am desperately to LOSE WEIGHT
TO BE SLIM..
TO TONED DOWN
TO HV A SLANDER BODY

FAT..FAT..GO AWAY
I WANNA BE SKINNY

p/s:ari nie going for foooood party!ive fasting 3 days already 4 this..am way so lazy to drive my self to jam..(OMG..dah ada syndrome gomen people lak)..but FOR THE LURVE IF FOOOD..& THE NEED TO SOCIALIZE..TO BE NORMAL..TO STAY ME!..
I SHALL BALIKKKKKKKK..YUM..YUM..BROWNIES..BREAD PUDDING...SALAD...HUHUHUHU

i only can eat 1 donut only....

when she happy..u cant help to laugh as well

new hotspot 4 donutttttttt!

miss my dress so much..
but am build up fat..so hidious..
must diet , mUST EXERCISE
must be very strict to myself

alhamdullilah!
managed to complete 3 days fasting..
must FASTing..fasting..& fasting
less sleep,siapkan work saya & build up my stamina

all i want is laugh..& a smile..

am at the boooooring camp...
hated..hated..hated
ada lak kelas today
& i forget where i put myself

noted:
wearing new bj & tudung
wake blusher & gloss
& using my abbydel after so many uncounted days havent use it

i miss myself!!!!

& darling jum:thanks 4 calling me skinny..u just made my day !..i keep that msg darling
at the very moment ,i miss sob!i wanna to hear his tickling stuff

NOW!!!!SMILE GAL!

MON=CUTI
TUE=CLEAR LEAVE
TODAY=MC!!!!

pagi2 dapat call buhsan
dapat tau perkara buhsan..
arghhhhhhh

hv to get my happy kickout
HV TO EXERCISE4
BURN FAT..LOSE FAT
BE SKINNY GAL!!!
BE ANOX..YEAH...WAT TO DO..
AM FREAKING FAT

MUST LOSE WEIGHT!

just return from long tiring camping
which everything just suck!!!!

is this the kids that i raised..
i doubt that!