she cant help her self hvg all the bling2 things

i called the princessie!!!!

this is the also my newbies!

lurve the capture!!i think i look cute!!heheheheh

great bargain the shawl!!lurve it!

my 1st attempt!!!!!
droooooool everyone!!!

its monday!!!!hooorah!!!!
no class..wake up kinda blury..
tak sempat sidai bj
punch in all faces very sial one..
i spent ,1st 30 min inside my car..
msg-ing & load my brain w loud music!-its a great monday start

anyway..the weekend was awesome..
jumpa cousie-lurve ur tummy nana!!
& twinie-she really lose weight this time..yet makin mengada2..hahahah
& spent the girly day out wout much mooooolah yet splurge on nicey thing

stuff that i got:

• 2 bottle of my fav brand perfume
• bj sopan-3 pasang
  
• earing-5 pairs..
• lovely shawl
• stationery

went back at camp on sunday night..reach around 1am..
b4 that go to i-k-e-a for coffee & the lepak- relax feeling

in between:

• i hated dikongkong like -sms like bila nak sampai camp?sampai jam berapa?-am a very free & light& easy..buhsan people lah here
• hated force to it..stuff i didnt one to eat..am not kid lah..suka hati aku lah..am not skinny & i really wish i am..lots of extra fat..here & there..i know myself better than U!..i wish to be skinny-anox-cengkung-my wanted dream!
• i need to build a good porfolio of myself-in case
• i MUST BERJIMAT-SIMPAN DUIT
• nowadays-stuff very the expensive-IKAT PERUT-SAVE MOOLAH-& CRUZ45..HEHEhehe
• i MISS THE 2 GUYS-JUM & SOB
• this is a boring monday

i'll eat stuff..
dun worry if i get skinny
as i wanna be one..
as i dun consider myself kurus even cengkung..
there is still flesh in my body &
not to mention the fat..arghhhhh

so diet & retain to the stand i shall..
as balik i know..there shall be temptation..

& yeah..i need to be gracefull & feel good about myself..
thin..anox..lean..skinnyi shall be one..
must..must..must

this week am going home..Xncl run out...must get the mdvl..& outta here environment.& yeah esok road tax mati

ive assignment to type..& report to made & submit..
really lazy..y oh y?

diet routine!yay!!!!no nasik smlm
no must not eat after prayer as to hv a flatten belly
pray ma-ghrib asap..
& less eating..firm tomyself no nasi-must..must!!

& balik my room & wat kerja..

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oh ya cust serv-the tellylady for my car is rude!
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tak mau gemuk...gosh..ive so geeeeeky life..

meeting w my 12 kids..
a frenz hvg fever..
hv submit the bike report & many more kena taip lagi
am fasting
got one class in the noon-boring-
plan 2 bring the kids to pasar
today..will control eating..
i dun wanna to eat becoz people told me so
& yeah..get the X today..
i wanna feel light!

hvg fever..i suddenly miss the ocean's breath...

was on a sick mood-fever,flu..
no selera,taste to eat..which is very GREAT!!
lose weight!!!

in between,was reading lots of receipe..
hahahhaha..pasta,cakes,puding..all the sweet temptation
sedapnya..feel like eating & baking one..
but come to think back..
i lazy to clean stuff..i do hv all the prop-
i guess after this i can make a collection of buying all the props..
cousie make delicious brownies,puding,cheese cake...
& bila lah twin wanna make again the she-pard pie & the potatt-o sa-lad.,
oh ya..i really adore cupcakes nowadays
there cute..& colorful

gosh...fasting month really make me crave ..
need to remind..!!
am not a nasi- eater
am strictly on DIET-losing weight i must!!

focus on the grey bj..mine!
it was very old one..since 2000 if im not mistaken..
still fit me..yet must be conscious..as the pant like ketat a bit
oh ya..am wearing a myr1 shawl..bargain..bargain..& lurve it

oh ya..bargain stuff also..
unplanned outing on tuesday & i managed to get 2 silky shawl
one is peachy orange duo light pinky colour &
the others is like songket(this is the best bargain tudung ever)

work was dadaddadada
& today its cuti at camp..
celebrating 1st rama-dhan

gosh..a long entry just because if a text...SAYA PERLU BERJIMAT CERMAT!

"hai there,am at j-a-k-a-r-ta,will be back end of the year!"

that was a suprised,shocking text..i dun know.
after all its me that msg-ing the moron
i feel like mau cekik..mau tell him that we need to finish the unsettled things..
moron betul...

but then again..when i received the text..i feel like
a ranting dipatah-patahkan
arghhhhhh..i hated the feeling
i hated to put myself in a sad atmosphera again..
i hated to mourn over a spill milk.
come to think...really..i wanna to strangled the moron..
its not that i still hv the BIG CAPITAL L -O-V-E ..
its over...broken to pieces..scattered by wing..
history that hidden in the very dark corner of my heart
its kinda like unfinished bussiness..at the very end of the day
i didnt really express the anger,the geram,the penampar that he should get
the yelling..the all unappreciated thing moron do to me...arghhhhh
i just cry..& cry..asking for sympthy
come to think,gosh..was am so stupid.& completed idiot

& that is Y..
am really fragile to the heart..love dovey things..
i meant i cant see the people i lurve being under appreciated..
i know how its feel..
& truely..ive make a VOW to myself ..a vow that meant for me only
that i shall never make myself hurt by others...
i would make myself HAPPY!!!
i would do things that i lurve & spent time,money & energy for..
everything that i do..ill do it FOR MYSELF!!!!!
not others...

example..TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!
TO FIT SIZE O,TO BE IN 45 KG WEIGHT!!!!
NO FAT..NO TUMMY LAYER..
JUST A SLENDER..FITTER BODY
THIS WOULD MAKE ME HAPPy!!!
THIS WOULD MAKE ME FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF
IM DOING THIS FOR MYSELF


i remember i still hv a photo of us together..
come to think..gambar poyo2..& moron never look good on my capture..
seem like tak ikhlas face when thinking back
I hvnt see the capture..after years i think..
i almost forgot moron 's face also..HHAHAHAHAH
but i really like the frame that i put the capture..
i guess.. when am ready..am strong..i wanna dig the stuff..
to get the frame..its really unique..& i bought it coz it was on bargain & different
& i wanna to sell those stuff that moron gave it to me..
crappy stuff..hahhahaha..
well..am a bit tiny broke..

so dun anyone dare to talk about married @ watever
especially org2 yang tak ada kaitan w my life..typicall ma-lays people
suka hati aku lah..!!!!
i dun really have faith in men..except family & close frenz
i REALLY WANNA HV FUN W MY LIFE!!!!
wanna to ENJOY MY LIFE..

i think.. so far am doing GOOD!!
i discover myself bit by bit
the hidden talent of me..
& to love myself the most

my wish..lose weight..be skinny..be 45kg
i wanna my petite size,cenkung muka,
light body,flat tummy!!!

i just wanna be skinner..that all..

am at school today..sekolah lah..
semalam home wat makan2..i miss home when mom told me
& i misz my twin..am recovering bits by bits..
& baguih gak..all the pening2 lalat..can cruz45..

tak mau gemuk..mau kurus aje..mau lose weight!!!

playing w new toys...
www.picnik.com

now..how to get rid of the puffy eyes & flawless skin..
& diet i must also lah..
i think i weight myself heavy & look hidious..

ok ...time to sleep..

polishing my writing..pardon the bad grammatical error..

there was a guy whom is deeply in lurve w a gal..
he truely lurve her so much..but he never utter the word

"i lurve u "to the gal

the gal try to understand the him & i guess she do many trick for the sake of saying the magic word once during their courtship..she never did managed to get her BF to utter it..as
the boy will gives so many excuses..
(well a guy is great in creating 1000 of reasons )


i wonder how the gal able to lived & continue the relationship with the heartless guys..

finally..
after 3 FREAKING PATIENT YEARS..
BOTH of them get married..

wah..am so amused w the bride..
can stand with a guys like that..i guess..lurve conquer all

but one sweet,WISET ,TRUELY,DEEPLY ever romantic things that the guys did WAS..

at the aisle..when they proclaimed the oath/vow..

he said to his beautiful bride..eye to an eye..

"hv u ever wonder Y during our courtship that i never said i lurve u..not even once..
its is because i wanna to say it at this very moment...

she held her tightly in his arm..kiss her softly..& said..

baby..i lurve u.."

there was tear running her cheeks..
it was really a magical pharase for her
she only nod her head..speechless..
she look gently to his man's eyes..

she couldnt ask for more..

they lived happily ever after

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i wrote this kisah benar as wat a friend of mine told the story to us..
i think it was a so sweet..romantic acts..yet..i wonder camne lah the gal can stand his BF's intention...

mmmmmmm..life..life..

sexy pant..sexy guys..hahahhahaha
nie namanye muka tak malu..
^6 guys ^ & a gal..hahahha
the guys lak yg macam very the shy

the kereta si berkilat..its like mirror
kesian my atos bila pikir balik

this is my current fav shades..
picture taken by the a frenz of the group

me & the D-80
i wannna it !!!!soon!!

saya musti CRUZGENIC 45..MUSTI ANOX WANNA BE

am at school...
esok ada cerap..
no feeling at all..buhsan

see the principal today
to sign an akujanji..
weh..lots of rules..
& he mentioned that it has been a while he hasnt see me
well.i was around but under radar
hheheheh

nothing much happen yg best
slow..boring typical day for me

ive so much lurve..fun.HAPPINESS during the cuti!

dinda & me..doing the pout session
at our behind is the big teddy choc
the crowd begin taken capture w it once we done our pose
such an icon lah me & dinda

i really..desperately IN NEED to lose like 10 kg more
to be 45 kg!!!..to get rid of the fat
in between..it was mum's birthday on sunday
bought her pressie that i also bought for myself too..
was the best bargain ever!

this capture was taken by my others members of photo group..
i lurve my new shades!
its like my sun blocks things~!

i took a leave from my work just to attend the party!
it was indeed a worthy cuti & i had lots & lots of Fun!!

testing