live simply,laugh often,love deeply

im an extrovert person.i can be kind & generous yet can turn to evil & revenge person if anyone dare to fool me around.i love tazmanian devil character & value my ATOS,my NIKON,my NOKIA ,my SONY radio,my hard-long earn toys & my WARDOBE.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

its not a bad day..
just ive a stomach rumble this morning..i was a bit late 4 d morning class
then..non stop class..
then the un working LCD
then cant use the tygn room as it was pre occupied
i had 2 bear the sindiran of the kj..
then meting at 3:15PM..

GOOD NEWS...
am off 2 KL for meeting
be it 2day @ 2 night@ early morning

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i dislike the KJ as i wanted 2 cry of hateness
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i still hated the kj

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few more works n am done
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

i miss my self the most...

i miss the smile..
i need 2 break free

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Live, laugh and love



The couples, I wish you both happiness and a wonderful relationship.

Singletons, I wish you'd find the ideal partner and great start to finish.

Broken hearts, I wish you'd smile again and healed by someone soon!


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hi..happy V day!

--es=s0

i was jump w joy
i forget it was those v day thing
ive erase it frm my mind as it hurt..
am i used 2 not celebrate it @ wat so ever


so dearie..
do u like me? @ we just frenz

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Monday, February 16, 2009

me n my leg..i lurve the candid!
like so kurus the leg..even am not lg..hehehehe
kurus..kurus...slim..slim!

the day was so beautiful..
the sky was so blue..
i didnt gayat this time around..
yay for me!


happy me!

finally my wanted dress
my own che-ongsam
retail price: rm 45.90
but it was bargain=rm 13.70
i didnt want 2 buy it at 1st but i did..hehehehe
another wardrobe been added

this is me..ive done/still crying
i cried so bad..so hard
it was all the terpendam feeling..
i still wanna cry till today

Friday, February 13, 2009

t-a-g thing

by nana d cousin..about myself
i think those who had read my writing so far
can read my character..
well..as i cant sleep.

my "main tulis wout counting" randoms things about me..yes me!

  • the car that me currently drive was a dream car when i was 24.it will forever be my 1st car n my "ny-awa".yeah..i fall in lurve w it cuteness..i can feel the a-tos n me r meant for each others.(others dream:owning a 4 wheel drive n mits-ubish-i designed car=la-ncer/evo)
  • if am dieting/strictly wanna lose weight..i can just look at the food.."tgk aje..tgk aje"..after few minutes looking at the food .. i can let go the feeling of eating it.this only can happen if am hvg a strong will power/mind
  • sometimes stuff that i bought at the bargain price much more tahan than the pricey one
  • i used 2 hated pink..but now its like the color that ive had in my wardrobe
  • i like stuff w ret-ro,clas-sic n vint-age(newly discover)
  • color that i lack=blue n white
  • for a long term(stay in house)..i dun like sharing a room..as i appreciate my privacy-my stuff r so many n if i put the things in a certain place..i wanna it 2 be there.
  • i dun know why i cant keep my hair long..ive reason 2 cut it short
  • me used 2 think 2 bald the hair...(yeah..lunatic act !)
  • i can save my moolah as well as spending it wisely n crazily
  • me believe me a creative person
  • ive issue w people who hang up phone
  • ive issue w commitment i think
  • sometimes i act out of thinking..by guts..main redah..sometimes...
  • i prefer 2 hv my own toilet bowel..hahahaha...as i used..i clean it.the current one that am using (in my room at camp) solely belong 2 me...
  • me is a penyimpan perasaan.i do shouted the anger but sometimes/most of it..i keep it n when it cant be tahan..i cry..silly i know
  • i can be nice n i also can be evil..
  • i will not forget people who hurt me
  • ive still hv a bar-bie doll collection
  • i lurve tassie-tazman-ian character frm loo-ney tunes
  • w bad experience in life i went thru..ive learn..(suck lurve story,financially wise..stabbing friendship n value of family)
  • i lurve food..i do..so stop worrying that i be an anox..i will not..i know
  • i wanna lose weight..(this is not random)
  • i used 2 lack self confident..but i learn 2 cope w life..n i think am much stronger than before
  • i talk w my gadget n my car..(like hvg a rela-tionship w them as i value them so much)
  • i used 2 wish i was much taller person..fairer..richer..but as i mature w age..am satisfied w my physicall..am not short but petite..am not black yet tan n if i were born rich..i think i be a spoil brat
  • i cant /dislike play net-ball.
  • i dislike the mentah egg yolk
  • i consider myself as hvg high E-Q
  • i used 2 wish that if i get married one day i wanna wear black color outfit as it can make me slimmer..i still wish for it
  • i lack of confident singing in public(single/duo)
  • i dun like ka-ra-oake
  • i listen 2 ik-im/hit-z/others english channel at certain hour/time
  • alle-y-cat used n still my fav band/singer/song

You define your own life. Don't let other people write your script.

a happy me!
picture taken last year..

my another crave nowadays..
making my own scarf
i discover 2 make my scarf using a metalic thread
pro n good sides:
a.turn the old scarf 2 new
b.unique n hand made
c.self satisfaction n proudly handmade

i lurve the ribbon n the simplicity of the dress..
lose weight n tone ur body edd!

frm net:Livingstrong Healthy Tips To Lose Weight



1. Calculate how many calories you have to eat to maintain your present weight. Reduce your daily calorie intake by 500 off the total you got. Calculate your calories every week after you weight yourself.(ALERT ON THE FOOD INTAKE)


2. Exercise at least 50 minutes 5 times a week. But the exercise has to be cardiovascular maintaining your heart beat between 80 to 85 % for at least 20 minutes.(DUN BE LAZY!KURUS2)

3. Avoid greasy food and fast food. Remember that we can eat everything BUT in moderation. Specially if you exercise you need to eat some carbohydrates for energy. But don't over do it -eating excessive amount of carbs- because they have tons of calories.

4. Be positive. Make yourself feel good. Try to be positive and encourage yourself every day. Picture yourself how you really want to look physically. Picture yourself wearing those tight pants you haven't worn in years, that sexy t-shirt that shows your shoulders. Picture your face without big cheeks and without that flabby double chin that has embarrassed you for so long. Picture yourself smiling to your friends, family, clients, co-workers with a thin face and bright smile.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

the reason i posted the pic coz


i miss my long
hair
i miss my smile
i miss my sparkling eyes
i miss my happy me
i miss myself



in between..am hvg my menstrual flow..

i wanna cry
i wanna kemas n make my room bersih
i wanna take leave
i wanna book a vacation
i wanna see a movie
i wanna to lose 10kg
i wanna hear ess-o voice

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dear sob: aku kat kerja..hari nie ot
kurus2 must!:wah..bagus2 ..kaya cepat2
dear sob: -_ -(dia tersengih2)
kurus2 must!:kau cukup 20K pinang aku ok!
dear sob: (fainted)

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morning dear,sory i demam dah 3 hari....

i just lurve the word morning n dear..hehehhe
y lah he cant open his heart for me..

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i miss myself the most..
nangis lah cepat

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ikut hati..i book the tiket
but i'll settle thing one by one

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i think if am tense/stress w work i wouldnt make muka
so just ignore aje kay!

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the airfare gila murah
try 2 book it on my desired date but it tak dpt harga murah
bukan desired date dapat murah..
imagine rm28.50 for a single trip 2 sa-bah
bloody cheap!

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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Love yourself and then learn to extend that love to others in every encounter.

i lurve my fe-do-ra hat!

look like fierce one..but after looking it lama2..like so cute..hehehhe
"gabby..besar besok..we can share bj kay!"

my little gabby in my arm inside my car!!

i miss sa-bah trip so much
so much that i cry..
i cry just 2 think of beautiful n how happy i was there
i cry coz i dun know when i be able 2 go there n
spend a happy time there
i cry as am afraid i wont be able 2 save enough moolah 2 fulfill my dream 2 climb the mountain
i cry coz i miss the speak the dialek
i cry coz i miss the place so much as its has been my home for the entire life

am her big sister!!

i posted this coz:
I BOUGHT HER THE 2 PIECES DRESS WHICH I LURVE SO MUCH ESPECIALLY THE SKIRT
(U WONT BELIEVE HOW MUCH I ABLE 2 GET THIS AT INCREDIBLE PRICE)

I LURVE THE WAY SHE POSE..MUCH LIKE A SWEET CANDID

this is my angel..
i.LUV.HER!
I .MISS. HER
(p/s:her mum pun tak blogkan my angel-twin...do mk a blog solemly for her..)

a tuesday rambling

2 lurve n 2 hv it!!!
the black can goes 2 many bj but the red is stylish!!!

me in 2008..

my ikon 2 lose weight..
ada iras2 as above tak?
must lose weight!


stuff that i google..
i found the attire n the model really gorgeous!
its resemble the power of a woman!
NOW LOSE WEIGHT GAL!!
SO THAT U CAN GET RID THE FAT TUMMY N BIG THIGH
MUST KURUS!!!!

BEing a shoperholic

d past day i been visiting website like bj/dress(those fashion nye website)
omg..the bj r so fabolous that i WANT TO HV IT ALL AS MY WARDROBE
but i cant as KENA BERJIMAT N IVE HVNT REACH THE REQUIRED WEIGHT

so wat ive 2 do now was 2 MODIFIED,MIX N MATCH THE WARDROBE


am writing these down as i need 2 vent out the frustation not being able 2 shop..


just tgk http://www2.victoriassecret.com/collection ..

gila lawa all the boot/pump/dress n all the dress
n the gal..omg...so sexy..sleek n gorgeous!!!!!

am training myself 2 tgk aje..try aje..tgk aje..
set my mind saying that "as i dun lose teh weight i want..i cant shop"
ive 2 berjimat cermat
WEAR MY BAJU YG SGT BYK TUE
DUN BELI AJE..WEAR IT!

dear whosever hv crush/admire/falling in lurve w me!!
splurge me w those nice dress/shoe @ gadget
wout any hidden motives..
I NEED 2 SAVE MY MONEY..N BERJIMAT CERMAT!

a letter 2 mr e---s---s--o


stuff that i kamika-ze do!
it suppose 2 be a 2008 entry but i was way bz toward end of the year.

i make a card for mr es--so n confess my feeling
wat a brave act dun u think
the reason y coz i dun want to syok sendiri
at least the person know n if the person rejected saying like
"actually i already hv a gf"
its ok..no prob(seriously boleh selamba aje!)
as at least i know n i dun disturb others right
n the outcome of today..
nothing happen till now...
i treated him as a frenz and so does him i think
yes..i like the person..no deny..
but its better 2 be frenz than not kan
as i think he is a good person/frenz 2 be with
(with the exeption he didnt keep the promise 2 call..which me immune 2 it)


Friday, February 06, 2009

a brand new day!

its friday..TQ god!
me think me hv been better!
2days must work
n go work early kay!

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i wake up morning..yay!!!!

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i miss the person..
last talk was 7 days a go..OMG..
it was unexpected
the person sound so tense..
yet calming 2 my ears..
hey!!!!i miss u..dun u know?

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the past days being eating the "no..no things"like nasi n soft drink
god..please help me..
the weight like dun want to go down..y oh y..
hated the tight look n the bum...seriously sexy..n much revealing
must LOSE weight!!!

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ive been thinking a lot lately
about the future..
the career..the "to grow old w someone"..the community service..


the career..
I WANNA BE SOME BODY GREAT FOR THE COMPANY..
SHOW MY SKILL N TALENT!!
for a start,..jgn tangguh kerja..N be Extra RAjin

"to grow old with someone"
recently @ "dr dulu till now"
am scare of the "M "things..
not that am afraid of commitment
but wat lies sorrowly under it
like "will i be happy ever after.."
"will i met the future be that i know know i wanna spend my life with"
"will i get wat i wanna in life"
seriously it an ISSUe
bless those who managed 2 get married..
2 finally met the loved one..
nyself might be coz i dun fall in lurve n retrieve the same lurve..
i know god love me so much..
i have a strong believe in that


on a lighter note
a frenz of mine told me that based on wat she view me
the ma-lay that i like normally
  • w a jendul dahi(she meant kuas dahi)
  • dress up person
  • etc(i forget )
but wat she see is like betul kot based on people i admire/like
hahahahahaha
life is such unexpected..

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i dislike my immediate boss!

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i wanna to dress up!!
but i need 2 lose weight 1st!
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i wanna buy more fabric n make more working 's attire
(yes people..the bj kurung..pathetic i know..but somehow i think i liked it..the bj i meant)

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I NEED 2 IKAT PERUT
AVOIDED NASI N DIET LAH!!!

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SOME HOW I MISS A HUG!

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i hope he miss me..
but i know he wont
as i know he is a workholic person
n somehow i feel so tiny n how on earth i be frenz w this fella
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i miss doing shoot out
i miss being me

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i miss home..

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i miss my niece n newphew
i think they r an adorable living creatures
1st they dun crancky
n if do..i gave them back 2 their parent..hahahaha..
lazy me

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am going home 2day..i hope!

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being me..by me..!

taken by me..(a self timer) using my son-Y
i just lurve the outcome!


2 lose more weight!!!!!
i cant be fat..i wont..n i will not be fat!!!
i MUST LOSE WEIGHT!!!
AS I NEED 2 FIT 2 MY CLOTH..MY WARDROBE..

n i lurve me hair!!
MY SILky black hair!

lurve at the 1st sight!

yes..it was lurve!
i think coz of d design i wanna the most!
the pea-cock thing..n the color..its pinkish-purplish..

how not 2 lurve..

the last fabric i fall in lurve will cost me almost rm 1K
with d same design..slightly a better material n i think coz of the quality n names
like buying a shoes w the same frm jimmy choo n a bo-nia ones
(just ignore the similirity that ive try to make-i dun own any of both branded shoes-bo-nia d design like very mature lady while the J-c i cant really afford-better 2 spend on gadget thing)
the best thing about the above dress was it way cheaper..
its rm 250!
i GONNA save a lot!

yes rm 250 is still expensive but then the reason Y i say it still within the budget?

  • its tailor made 2 my shape
  • trust me..the design its self is worth the price as ive seen the same design but much2 more expensive..(the pea-cock design is the "sell fast"design especially if the color is black)
  • i know the tailor n so far am happy w the sewing(i lurve 2 build up good relationship w people)
  • costing actually cheap(do plus w the cost"nak carik kain w the same design n etc") as i just order n it will be ready as long as ive the money(the tailor can made my bj as fast as 3 day if i wanna it 2 be fast @ a week
  • the tailor can get me the color i wanna
  • i lurve the design..n so far i think its the cheapest(real keba-ya Nyo-ya n frm me-la-ka ..)
so wat stopping me 2 hv these lovely fabric?
well the cost..rm 250
actually its a reasonable price i think
but w the current economy n my pledge 2 SAVE moolah
2 go for travel n save moolah for raining season..
rm 250 is a bit valueable for me
i can do a lot of stuff w it
for example..go for a gateway holiday
book me a flight 2 ase-an country
pay the bill-phone,net,insurance,loan etc
increase my saving
gave 2 my mum n daD
get me an gold stuff(earring etc)
SAVE THE MONEY!
pay for the upah bj
buy my supplement
save MONEY 2 buy gadget

wat should i do?
4 a start
..u guys can donate it 2 me..the moolah i think..hehehehe

i would lurve u guys so much..(i already do...but it WOULD LURVE U EVEN more)
@ i can REWARD MYSELF WHEN I GET MY WEIGHT BEING 45KG!!!!!!(MUST..CRUZ!!)
@ SAVE MONEY SIKIT2
@ AS A BJ RAYA-SO THAT I CAN SAVE MONEY
@ STOP SHOPPING OTHERS N USED THE LEFTOVER 2 BUY THIS
@STRAVE MYSELF!!

LOTS of option there..
will see how..
but 1st n foremost
I MUST LOSE WEIGHT!!
AM FREAKING HEAVY N FAT!!
HATE MYSELF FOR THESE

SO TO MYSELF
U MUST LOSE WEIGHT!!!!
KURUS..SLIM..ANOX-EIA
MUST..MUST..MUST!!

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

how i lurve sky!

only in camp!

taken frm a road at my house
i lurve h.lgt!hehehehe

lose weight more !

stuff i did over holiday
w some glue..hey its an artwork!

still not well..
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school was teribble boring
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am coming home this friday..
i cant take it anymore

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its rece-ssion
kena berjimat cermat

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

am still alive
yet today i was sick!

need 2 change..
need 2 be strong
need 2 work hard