today was the day where the whole school hv the class at padang
yeah its the su-kan things..
wohooooo..its was a hot day..
yet..am feel good..feel relieved..
managed to get good picture..
talk later..

i hear a tunder..& i hope its rain..(its raining..THANK YOU GOD!!)

work..work..work..
wed got pratik-um
i hvnt updated the filing-capital L

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went to treat myself w fat food
was in queue & chat w a woman behind me
she bring along her twin.. & we talk
she was nice & i lurve her kid(good tak mengada-i hated kids mengada)
i treat the kids w ice cream
as their happy am also happy
& the next thing that i would not forget:

"sekolah kat mana?-means am look very young"

"moga nanti adik pun dapat anak kembar-amen"

& to the prove that the world is small
the woman w the twin was my fellow frenz's teacher
when she was in lower secondary school
she said that she was the nicest person..
this among the things that makes my day
(masih ada org yang baik dalam hidup nie rupanya)

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twin:ngan eida..jalan2
mum:kata 30..kawin..la nie dah nak 30..

me:am not yet 30..am feel like am 15 years old
am cant afford to failure in relationship
am cant affort to fall in a wrong person
there aint any living decent guys that would fall into me
am still searching for my real happiness..
& i know everything that GOD plan is for my own good
till then mum..am not worry at all..
am happy with the world am in..really am do
am expecting soon 2 niece/newphew & nana's one
ive 4 angkat bro/sis which i lurve deeply
ive the cousin2 baby
& basically am surrounded w people who wanna me to be happy
in this life..who actually care & lurve me

to jum..i know how deep is the cut..

ya ALLAH..
i pray that today gonna be a good day
i pray to U that very things that i do
will go smooth
i pray that i be able to make somebody life easier & happier
i pray to be protected from evil & sins
i pray to for U to always shower me w uncondition hidayah
& my precious & loved will always under your care
i pray that i be able to be a human..a good muslim human
do bless my day..

amen..

wei said:choice is in my hand...i will be cruel

i wear my usual scarf w the tocang alike
then
"nie salah nie pakai tdg.."

i was like in my hati:

"wat the f-uc-k..its malam ok..
& am wearing a decent clothes"

buhsan people so sempit minded

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1 msg:

"balik nanti buy xxxxxx.."
--if aku balik lewat...@ aku tak balik?
got car..keluar sendiri..

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i hated when am out alone
as i need time all by myself
question like:
"kat mana?balik bila?"

--i go as i wish..now..if i choose to pick up no
no not in the list i do ignore

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i hated people forced me to eat

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i hated people msg/cal watever
am sitting quietly in my room doing my work
& forced me to go stop doing my work

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it was weekend
& i hated people said:
"arghhhh..byk kerja kuat2"
--i was trying to do my work diam2

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i hated m-i-s-s call for the reason
nak save & u know i will call back
--i ignore the call which not important
wanna to ask favor-call & talk

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when am here am trying to do my work
sbb kerja tak siap..
i sacrife my precious kl-happy life
as i wanna finish my work
so let me do my work

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am feel much better
now ive work to do

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i will go out & hv fun w myself
only w myself here as people here
dun know how to hv fun
i will not answer miss call
i will switch off my phone
out quitely & switch off phone

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i mad w myself
as my work is pending
marah diri sendiri
am suppose siapkan kerja saya

work was hectic & lots of dirty stuff
i wish i can b a skinnier person
i wish i can be 10 kg lighter
i wish i can be anox & skinner
ok..am mentally & physically need to be skinny
need to fit..need to be cruzgenic

i do miss home..
i do miss the ronggeng
REPEATED
i miss my KL night life..

yesterday was a good day..
i cabut as awal as possible..
& make payment
& went for a movie..it was a good one
later i told..as i encounter such a well manner & very good looking guys..
hehehheheheh
its just make my day
& i grin & happy!

i lurve the red season!

its a hidden talent i got from staying in the camp
learning,observing & be frenz w them..
make u learn a new soft-skill.
trust me..its going to benefit u in future

lurve the amazing skyline
& a new trick that we learn that day

To stay happy and pretty!
to Be less spendrift and save up more.
Picking up new skills along the way. Read more.!

my vows..!

amazing @ a freaky edd as she didnt go back during the 4 days cuti
the reason is that she is broke,lack of moolah
so stay here quietly,she too hv a lots of pending work as she need to accomplish it as she dun wanna to be stress the next following week..
she is badly need a vacation
where she dun wanna to get tired & can finish her work
its sunday people....

she still hv lots of work to do so..
yet she happy & unstress..
she has been in the room since morning
& hvnt put her feet at the ground
nor smell the outside air
nor see the blue sky
all she done is trying to clean her room,send email,baca buku
& try to finish her pending work
in between,
while she doing her organizing scarf,
she count her scarf the kemas,hanging & organize scarf
that she has are 70 pcs
excluded the one that need to be send tailoring,
at the 2nd home,at the parent home & some random places..
she think that she own more than 200+ scarf..
OMG...
& she remember her nudge..
that too has a long list of scarf
& she used to tease her back then..
& now..she herself hv a lots too..
am superduper rich...wohoooooooooooo
.. my pray is that..
am more consistent in wearing one..
proud w my h-i-j-ab..& try to be a slight better person..

oh ya..the past few days ..
ive watch this site
that hv a good video regarding the view of mus-lim in the U-s..
its really enlighten
& i feel that am bless being mus-lim & a proud one..
& i really 2 think their a good film-maker in future..

dinda came by the cuti & we went touring the historic place..
we hv so much fun & meet
& discover lots of good people,
experience new stuff & i feel so much lighter
(in term of work load despite of my work hvnt siap)
capture lots of good things..& eat home cooking & cheap but yummy stuff (remember we on a tight budget)

its feel good (this gal always be view by other as tourist)
& honestly i feel an inner happinest
as i can do watever i wanna do in this blessful country..
(u know how typical the local when they see a local doing rare things to their view,yet since am so good in becoming like others..the treatment r totally different)..

am need to remind myself constantly
hat i need to save & budget..
the sea..the spa..the relaxing beach is waiting for me in july..

oh ya..i need to put this also
IVE RIDE THE 2 TINGKAT BUS HERE
it was an open floor & the view is really nice
we took the ride after maghrib
so the sky & the wind was really fantastic
& we met great people in the ride
i told dinda that the fare can top up the oil tank
to run from the camp to town back & forth
but it was worth it as the a new experience for me
& i always wanna to ride one..
& said IVE DONE THAT

dad call & i tell him am on the ride..
& he too was really eager to ride it if he in town
i guess its run in the genes..
(gosh..i lurve my family!)

gosh such a long entry..
enjoy reading this..
& yeah..as usual we took lots of great capture..
& all the crazy act included..
happy great (M) day!!!
i lurve my job!

this dress is more than 30 years old & its belong to my mum..

& now ive photograph it..wear it..
& its fit..even i think i out to lose like 5 kg more..
& wat i lurve it the best..
its pinkish-a shade of pink that i lurve..
it has a good lining which cool the skin..
& its fit me!

so..i must lose weight..
must cruz45!

so many things happen lately since the last entry
mostly about work..
& how happy & relieved am i its cuti & going to be a long holiday

was in the phone w wei..
we talk & i so motivated & really relieved when talk w wei
y lah si wei ni lembap..

he mentioned:

"aku dah gemuk dah sekarang..musti kau tak nak jumpa aku"

& i said;

"wei..aku terima kau seadanya."
hehehehheheh

yeah..he might be plump..be he look cute..dun he jum.?

i miss my two guys..my two best guys frenz..

jum if u reading this,me & sob discuss,
once kau dapat gaji,treat lah kami seafood ok
we will come & visit u there..