is school day..& monday..how both match..
malas aaaa..
kelas till petang lak.
ada assembly lak lepas tue..
lazy..lazy..lazy
tak kira..me lari gak gi byr my billing

i called mum on friday..& said i wanna go back..
she said tak yah & go work on saturday..
i was so sad & regret that i told her..& just make my way home...
i just wanna leave everything behind..
as am so tired of the camp things..

on sat..i was too weak to go for class...
& i decided MC..& took my rest..
later that evening i ran to a frenz house..
away from the hustle bustle of the place..
she entertain me & bring me around..
i shop..find good bargain..& hv great night rest
& today..spent time with her again..
its was a relaxing day..

i hated that it will be monday tommorow..
but no work..no money..

today will b the last of the mentally-phyically torture..
restless..& a whole new experience for me..
& the kids....arghhhhhh..
killing me softly..& i hated..i hated

there was a dinner which ive to attend
& i did enjoy myself
finally good looking guys at last..

only few hour to last..
i miss myself

old post since my Dd my Dd went for a treatment

i remember i was excited & happy to go to this place..
to be away..& be just me..

tan..yet i remember i was happy for a while

skinny..skinny..skinny let's lose weight be firm..! get ur life back!

i see myself a faked smile..y oh ya

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• i miss my Dd..still ive my neeeeekon 2..
• darling a-tos is a mess..pity my dear..
• ive so many clothes..be thankful
• need to push myself to build my stamina back
• i need to EXERCISE regularly
• i need to stop eating
• i need 2 be skinny
• i need to be less sleepy
• i need to be cheerful & happy
• i wanna be skinny
• hvnt take nice capture lately
• trying to be happy on my daily life
• pushing myself to EXERCISE
• y am so lazy..
• i need to slap myself,wake up & make a coming back!
• i need TO READ A LOT,less slept & MORE EXERCISE!
• eat less..eat healthy & fasting!
• drink lots of h20
  

i miss myself the most..i dun know..
i dun even know myself..am losing myself..
i need to be away..

room was a bit better
am a bit better also...
stay in the room..happy as a bunny..

i need to lose weight..& control my food in take

friday

hectic time table..
mengada kids
movie
& news undies

saturday

blissful sleep
lousy kids..
sat lagi gi this k-y-s schol
hvnt bathed yet
am hungry

ai-dan..

monday!!!!!its went like hell..
i was so restless..no energy..
i was crying out myself outta bed..
i dun hv weekend..i dun hv a life..
spend the 2 precious day w

• program that involved brat that i dun related to at all..hv to b there unwillingly..on the brighter side..i sleep outside the camp..& the view when u wakeup..is so differ..the air ..the lake..so its even..
• on the bus & off it..reach camp at late night..i desperately need rest

today was awful..
w the stupid case..& good things is i skip the event
when to jog..& discover a sa-u-na place..

try to convience myself that ive a beautiful life

schedule is crazy like hell..
2 weeks more till this end..& esok ada praktikum..
die2 like this...

dear GOD..gave me strength to face all this..amen