the belated post on my dearest fizan wed..

belated post..
dear..u simply gorgoeus

ok..we a bit crazy lah..hehehheh

the photoman was copying my style of taking selfcapture
i told him that..
since no one to take our capture..
we must take ourself lah..
& we did..he learned well..
i lurve the scard am wearing..
its east-in-dia by the way & was 50% on the rack..
me & dinda buy the same garment
i hardly use it & but since i know to wear it with the right clothes..
its simply a bargain

lately am feeling into....

check out my hairband
i dun really fancy white..
but this whitey hairband was my lurve at the 1st sight
the original price was rm 30 then slash to rm 15
& with the voucher that i have..i only need to pay rm 5..awesome isnt
it was the best ever bargain i had on that day
& truely i feel sayang to cut my hair due to this hairband
& i kinda lurve the pattern of the hair right now
for the shampoo & conditioner am using a different brand
& just lurve the smile & outcome
the problem is the kel/em/um/ur that keep growing if i dun watch the hair..arghhhhh
but truely i just lurve hairband nowadays..
& i think the pattern that suit me is the small one..

i need to remind myself constantly that he just flirting & so does me
but seriously he has such cutely sexily voice..heheheh
& i lurve the way he dress..hahahhahah
he is just a person that make me happy..that is..

i lurve gadget & accessories..i need to remember how happy am !

am searching my happy capture..
& y i pick up this is because..i sincerely SMILE!
my lipstick still shining glossy
& i just lurve how i dress the scarf

i just lurve the color..yellow & green.
& I LOOK SO SWEET & DEMURE
the background was taken at kedai jahit bj in town..
there over more than 5 kedai jahit & all at affordable price
for bj keb-aya @ all those fashion bj
I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT..I DO..LOSE WEIGHT I MUST

i shall own the big lense ...with god will..amen
dun u just lurve my big earring..very classical isnt
& did i mentioned about my lovely scarf..it just rm 10..kinda a bargain..

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y i must lazy..kenapa saya malas..
saya patut bersyukur..i should be thankful..

seriously..i dun know wat to present to the kids regarding the political in msia nowadays..
macam tak de isu lain..
being a poli-tical student,i think all that happen is rubish issue..
arghhhhhh

today ada class..gila..gila..
positive thinking..i lurve my class..

class in 30 min..i dun know wat i should teach..buhsan..
gila buhsan!
sepatutnya tak patut ada class..but tukar time table nye pasal..

i dislike to curse
not in my daily life @ my writings
but sometimes i do..due to the angry beyond control..

i hated lembik perempuan
i hated perempuan yang penakut
(sekali dua boleh lah to to totally rely on me..buhsan!)

i MISS my family i do
was on the phone w dad..& he mentioned me to spend wisely
he always did & he knows her daughter well
& its true..
I NEED TO SAVE & berfikir & really thoughtful on the expenditure

i hated debt
i hated CC
arghhhhhh

i need to be happy after this..

apa lagi aku tak puas hati

aku tak suka org yang dok kongsi line ngan aku
call me..at night..
i did suggest the person to get his own..
but he dun want hassle of getting the line & all..
& he ask me to upgrade which i mentioned i dun want..

its an easy solution..
tomorrow the tecnical will check upon the speed..
hope it can settle the stuff lah..

seriously..i hated monday..i hated..& i hated..
i didnt go back on weekend..
i didnt know wat happen..i just dun go back..
work is piling up..& alhamdulliah i managed to get the laundry done..
then lipat & kemas..then room was a bit better..

i need to get back my life on track..
DIET & EXERCISE..
PUNCTUAL..RAJIN..
SOLAT..MENGAJI..
IKAT PERUT ...IKAT PERUT..IKAT PERUT

nowadays..the only things that make me happy..
the little gabby..the baby amir-as their so suci & i can bully them..
(mak diaorg tak marahnye..bapak diorg lagi lah)

then the mr ess-o .hehhehe
i know (we)-me & him..flirting around..hahahha
but seriously..he had raise the self esteem of mine
& i feel fabulous..gorgoeous..& i really hope he invited me out
(last time it was me..hahahah)
"do i look like am so desperate ke?"

i think i lack of something in my life..
i am so LAZY nowadays..
y oh y?

bj to lipat..
am hungry
am fat..mau kurus..
benci nak kena jaga post..mampus aaaaa
i need to refinancialize

at camps..enjoying the saturday..
really?

i am getting fatter..
arghhhhhhh

feel like blogging & tell the world that i bored w life
but i know i should be thankful
am fabulous..goodheart..intelligent..witty
ive everything in a human..
ive lurve..ive do hv life

lately the rented broady always ask me to reset the modem
which at 1st no prob at all
but when it kacaubilau the life..
arghhhhhhh..

lately the house i stay became dull
too much people stay in?

lately am became so lazy..hated..hated
lately am became so fat..

am now at schooll..
seriously..

last week was hectic..
there was the 25th years celebration in the camp
even i dun really a big AJK ,but it still tiring weak
am so loooooking for long rest where i can sleep &
clean & update my room & to surf wout disturbance..
i miss myself...

yet ive a great 25th years celebration
ive met lots of new faces..& learn new skill
i learn to be proud of the place am working with

not to mentioned
damn i ate a lot
am freaking heavy & fat
& i HATED myself..so hidious ok
now to really strictly DIET!!!!1

i thank YOU GOD for the air that i breath & for the wisdom u gave

the place where i jog to get rid of the fat
yeah w those camp people..
but whose cares..
i wanna to get RID of the fat so badly
i must be 10kg lighter..

loooooooook!
wat a BIG arms i have my book look freaking huge!
arghhhhhhhhh must be skinny

ive DONE it.. i feel so goooood & humble & noble.. i feel HUMAN!

there are rain & blue sky in my day...i thankful..

me & my darling warden aza:

fa-riz...gosh..he sound sooooooo gorgoues on the phone
its not sexy..its gorgoeus..hahahahha

my darling warden aza: kahakaha.,angau ara..

hahahahah..the best thing happen at me during dip edu..heheheh
si tuan bunga tue malapetaka..
but everything ada baik buruk dia kan...i would not met si fariz at 1st place kot..
if the petrol didnt hikes..& i didnt go to the lousy function w tuan bunga

yesterday msg w the mr Es-so..so funny his msg that i grinned when thinking of the cute word

"helo adie,i ok2 aje...last week i work 4 7 days & 2day msk 9 hari,x rehat2 lagi.
Nasib baik lah i bujang lg :)"

hehehehhehe

i lurve the part of him being a workaholic person
& i its freaking funny about the status thing...hehehheheh

oh ya in between..did i told the tuan bunga GF called me
i was scared at 1st
"mati aku..kena serang"

even i know me hvnt done wrong

but at the end..me & iza(the GF) became close sisterhood
i went & advise her on so many things in life
the tuan bunga is like any others people that
always take things for granted..
man..boys..how they r stupid

this make me ponder..
wat will the future hold for me
i THANk god for giving me the chance to treasure the LIFE
to be HAPPY,content & VAlue it
alhamdullilah


now..MISSION

• to climb a mountain
• to be punctual to work
• to LOSE WEIGHT
• TO BE SKINNY
• to be ANOXeria
• to be GORGOEUS
• to be FABULOUS
• TO BE TIN..FIT
• to control my expenditure
• to SAVE MONEY & MAKE MOOLAH
• To be EXCEL in my WORK
  

even if ive strave to death to achieve this

had a tough day w the KJ today..
she kill me at the back so many times..
wat to do..
but god is fair...


IVe donate a bloooooood
wohoooooo
amen..TQ god for giving me the strength & courage

i appreciate the privacy!

i DESPERATELY NEED TO BE SKINNY..
EVEN IF IVE TO BE AN ANOX PERSON
I NEED TO BE 45KG!
I NEED TO LOSE THE 10KG!
I CANT BE FAT..I CANT EFFORT TO BE FAT!

things that make me so happy at my place
is there net line-port behind my table..
in fact its in my compound area...wohooooooo
THANK YOU god!
amen!
its never feel so good to hv a net line in my place..
consider it as already mine

today hv to work till 5pm..
but w the net access 24 hour pun me willingly

in betweeen,the weekend was good..Thank you god!
gosh ..i ate much & weight now is freaaking scary
am officially 56kg
am look so hidious..lots of fat..& i hated myself for being so bloody fat
arghhhhhhhh
musti lose weight & kurus...must..must..must!

• was not well & stay at room.it was a mess..arghhhh
  

• tonight must settled up my r.p.h

• ive TONS of bj..scraf & pants..

• i NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!

• I am hungry for fresh cook vege

my protege in making....

Little gab..little umairah..my little niece

I miss her..picture will tell everything..

She is my fresh & blood..

She is my jewel..my angel..

She is my stress release machine type human…

She is my cutenest model

She going to be my Dd best fav capture..

Oh..she is going to be my crime in partner..hahahhahahaha

She will call me kakak that for sure..

& writing this make miss her so much..

I still remember her smoothest cheek..the sleeply look..the small feet..

The black silky hair(I think the black shining hair is in her genes)

She is a behave baby. & I lurve behave baby..

I dun mind dukung her for hours & trust me..

I did that already!

So far..i hvnt change her diaper..but my contribution to her is

Taking photo of her getting DIAPER’s Change..

She going to Thank me a lot & lurve me abundant in Future..

Hehehhehehehe

I miss her..i miss to cuddle her..

She is my ultimate baby lurve..

someone mentioned me as 25..same as him
couldnt be happier..
its was nothing special relationship..
but he is indeed a gorgoeus fella

it heal my low self esteem..am happy again!

went for awesome date yesterday..
he is rocking good looking ..
hehehhehe pity him that i bring a frenz..
i lurve gorgeous people!

finally using the net by wireless at class lecture..
bad things happen yesterday & today..
i was numb..!

things has to be change..
especially the financially
kena berjimat cermat yeah!