i cry..i laugh

i watch ps--i l-u-rve u!
i cry..i was touch..
i lurve the music..i lurve the wardrobe
i LURVE the shoes..n the fascinating view
i lurve ire-land
i lurve the guy he in lurve with
i cry..

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i watch the latest movie-ta-lent time
i cry..
it was way much better..
the script r so addicted..
i cry..i laugh..

"u talk too much..i cant understand"
"i talk?..u must be crazy..(in a sign language)"

--verdict--
hillirious..as d main actor was deaf...

"i promise u that i will always there for u..
will u promise me that u will not leave me..(in a sign language)

--verdict--
i cry..so sweet ..

"i can forget her if u wanna me ..but do teach my heart how to do so..
as i dun know(sign language)"

--verdict--
i cry this the most..full of penghayatan..

"how we want to know that we in lurve?(in sign language)"

--verdict--
hilirious coz of the act..but how do we wanna to know that we in lurve?

all the song..so nice...must get it!

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lighter notes:

new scarf....lurve it
send 5 fabric 2 the east coast for cheap/affordable tailoring
ate a lot the past day
none exercise..bad..bad..bad..must change!
ive 2 drive esok..n still writing these

craveness..idea..new look..

I JUST LURVE THE TEXTURE IF THE SCARF
IT WAS ACTUALLY A segi4 scarf..
BUT SINCE I RARELY WEAR IT..I CUT IT INTO HALF..
JAHIT TEPI USING A METALIC THREAD..
AND ASK MY tailor 2 sew a bit for me..
and it turn out lovely
even i didnt involved in sewing process..(i cut only d fabric)
yet am so proud of my own scarf!

at 1u..am trying a pieces by za-ra..
it was an outstanding wardrobe if it was cheap..
if only it was rm 10..i buy..but it cost more than rm 10

another my masterpieces..

tommorow will be another day

today going 2 be d last day of holiday
sad..yes..absolutely...
honestly..the cuti that i had is like
cuti not working..
i do hv some fun there n here..
but i wish it could be longer..
i spend most of the time home...
yeah..home..sleep..hehehehe
n the project am supposely 2 make..
i didnt do at all..hahahaha...


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anyway..i found out:

a place where promotion of develop photo for rm 29 nett for 100 pcs.VERDICT:cheap!!ive try 100 pcs at 1st n mostly my convo's photo n my niece...the pri-nce..he is so adorable..
he is different frm the last time i see him..(missing him while writing these)

a nice mirror n bought it

that ive so many bj..that i told myself that i need 2 stop buying..n so far..during d cuti n trip to mall i hvnt buy any..hope i can stay w this rules..

ive know that ive so many scarf at home..all of it so lovely..

ive so many bj at home as well...

i MUST LOSE WEIGHT SO BADLY!!!

d vitamin that i took hv increase it price frm 2.75 to 2.95.yes..mahalnye!!!!marahnye saya

I NEED 2 DIET..N REALLY DIETING N EXERCISE

my bro can take photo gak..not bad

I WILL SAVE MONEY..SO THAT I CAN AFFORD 2 BUY STUFF!!!!!SAVE MOOLAH..JIMAT CERMAT

I ATE FOR d 1st time d fish-n-co..as cousie always promote in her writting..so nice..sedap..n the drink..as usual..i LURVE FREE FLOW ITEM...d drink(sory forget d name) is so nice..u kinda addicted 2 it..but next time i wanna try the gra-pe fruit things..

i lurve accessories..i almost bought this pinkish BIG braclet but i told myself berjimat n i wanna 2 hv this pant..it was on sale n nade frm a good material but i didnt as berjimat n sedar diri..(god know how much i wanna so badly the item)

i recall a jacket..it was like a vint-age one..i remember i did try it..but i couldnt recall..where..n wat..

i was in a mall where i was hoping i would find this dress..(black flower vi-ntage)..but i didnt

am thankful that i did some shopping early the month as the bargain was no longer available..
thank god..

i did receive a rm 60 shopping voucher n i finished it as am afraid i might lost it n forget..thank god ternampak the voucher yg rm 20..

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i wrote a lot a bout ess-o
how i like him n miss him
but yesterday i was totally mad..
not that he-me fight.. @ i see bad thing about him
but i realize something
that he never ask me where i stay @ wat..
he never ask my little detail..
it hurt n when i think back..
this is not going anyway..
its just d flirt..just a mere of frenz..
stupid person..stupid person
him..(not me..am a brave person)
i need 2 face the reality..
he make me smile..calm..but..he is just a passerby..
unlike sob..
he pick up my call even he asleep..
even he need 2 work the next day..
n even i invited him for a drink
he declined nicely..n i understand..
i need 2 get rid es-so frm the nerve system
even am missing him..(stupid..stupid..person )

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not that all..
this koa-la person...
arghhhhhhhh
am mad ..angry..
as i ask the person nicely for a drink,teman me makan
as i wanna to makan at this place(i lurve the food there)
but the stupid person declined n make some excuse..
arghhhhhhh..
am so mad i told the person
that i dun care if dun call..@ so bz work..
but this is too much..
time for revenge...
u hv evoke this pettite- wanna -be cruz45- so badly gal-hidden angry
u see lah nanti!!!!

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• i realize am a vin-tage lover
• am a person who likes 2 try fashion(perasan diri)
• i dun suit the go-thi-c style..as i dun know how 2 style it

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i can stop buying shoes..bag..and am trying now bj(wardrobe)

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i lurve cekak(hair accessories)
i lurve earing

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when she happy..

praise 2 d Almighty
some people r bless 2 see this everyday..
and
AM AMONG THE BLESSFUL PEOPLE

SHE Lurve herself
sometimes she amazed w herself
how this lunatic of person..
is so nice..exist..and being loved by others..
she has everything she want(so far)
she not a millionaire...she work hard for that..
she had high aims..and some crazy dreamz..
which she believe she can achieve..
she happy that she bring happiness 2 others..
and she been loved by others..
she is always THANKFUL FOR WAT SHE HAS IN LIFE..
her must do list..
LOSE WEIGHT
LOSE WEIGHT
LEAN N FIT BODY
HV A SUCCESSFUL CAREER..
TRAVEL ABROAD
LOTS OF SAVING
CLEAR DEBT
a new gadget perhaps
MAKE GOOD changes in her life..n benefit 2 d society

people!!!..seeeeeee!
i cook!!
i was craving for fish..tala-pia one 2 be exact
so there i was in night market ..

"berapa sekilo"
"rm 4".."ok..sekilo..potongkan"
"sory lah dik..takde hari nie"
"mati lah aku"

so at home..
me and 8 pieces of fish..
i almost cry cutting d fish
teringat home..ikan semua yg dah potong
so i told my housemate

"if am getting married..the future 2 be must know
2 cut poultry..hehehehe"

it was a hardwork..but if i dun do it..sapa nak buat kan..
n i wanna so badly 2 eat fish..

at the end..
i had my finger luka2 sikit..
and a yummy fish..

my new love wardrobe..
i always wanna the pattern..a corset..
and yay!!!it was at a bargain price..happy as a bunny!

fish..that i siang..wash..cook and ate..

1 minggu cuti plan(so far)

monday-balik KL..light n easy program

tue-light n easy program,buy flower 4 convo..some photoshoot for myself perhaps

wed..convo

thurs-light n easy

friday-lighgt n easy

sat-ada birthday party anak kawan kat se-re-m-ban

sunday-kenduri at KL..etc..balik camp

monday-kerja

(light n easy..depends on mood n money,,hehehehehe)

smlm gi kenduri..ada org kata sy dah gemuk..alahai..manyak tension..

she has all night long..

its cuti..ye people..its cuti...
smiling..happy..bahagia indahnye!

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yet am still at camp..
why..
coz am wanna enjoy d day..
enjoying life at the slow pace

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sunday activity:

wake up late..
attend wed at m-uar..
1st time being there
went back..
n night send frenz at central..
n end d night

monday activity:
wake up late..
rasa aman sgt2..
lipat kemas bj
OMG..so many bj..
hook 2 net..

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i'd wrote so many times that ive so many bj..
yeah..ive a lot
i dunno why am keep buying stuff..
td i was thinking
ive 2 stop the crave of buying any bj..
no matter how cheap it is..can i?
i can i think..just self disipline..n sedar diri..
realize that i nEED 2 SAVE MOOLAH
Realize THAT IVE SO MANY BJ THAT I DIDNT WEAR..
are gal like this?
as i buy clothes as they r freaking cheap..
as i i dun hv the pattern yet
as i need 2 hv it
as i rather spend my moolah on something that can be seen rather than
eating/stupid stuff
previously ive crave of buying toys..shoes..bags..
then i stop..sedar diri..so now i recycle the old stuff..
as ive a lot from previously
but the problem is that i wanna bj/wardrobe so badly..
ive lots of scarf..i realize that..but when the time came..
i said 2 myself..i dun hv tudung..scarf..
am so angry w myself..so teruk i felt..but the need 2 get the new stuff..
2 add to the collection will ease the pain away..(like reward for byk kerja)
I NEED 2 REALLY2 SAVE..
N STOP BUYING..
I CAN..KENA GAK AS I NEED 2 SAVE..

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on wed will be the convo day
i plan 2 buy/designed my own bouquet of flower-berjimat cermat!
bj dah ada(as ive lots of bj kurung/sopan)
n tudung(ive too many that each scarf is a new item)

i pray that i be able 2 wear scarf heartedly.(AMEN).
i lurve my collection of scarf..
(see saya matang sesuai usia)

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i think its weird..
that i wanna my hair 2 go long..
i lurve my current hair
why..as
its not so thick..tebal..
n d current syampoo that i used is working well w my head..
seriously..takde scalp..tak gatal..
i can even not wash d hair for a week n its work wonder..hehehehe

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i miss myself..

the camp w crowded w people..stu/dent//people..etc..
there official ceremony was cool..i lurve the speech by the vv-ip
broaden up the know-nledge n upgrade my spirit
i pray that ive enough strength,moolah 2 further n upgrade myself
2 be a better person..in life..amen

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1 days more 2 school holiday..yay!

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I BADLY NEED 2 LOSE WEIGHT
MUST KURUS..KURUS..KURUS..
must..must..
be skinny..be lean..
jgn malas nak senaman..exercise

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i was thinking of me being happy..but how?
i lurve taking photo..its makes me happy
i lurve 2 jog..exercise..it makes me feel good
i lurve 2 window shop..it makes me completed(broke as well)
i lurve 2 ga..ga..over good looking guy..and gal(hehehe)
i lurve 2 swim..n anything watery
i lurve 2 write
i lurve 2 so something creative
i lurve 2 smile..n laugh..but its being hard for me nowadays.
i miss hug from family n frenz
i miss 2 talk..

its so hard..
y...
emotional collide..

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i need a hug
i need 2 laugh
i need 2 be far away
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i need 2 hv something new..
mmmmmmmmm

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i need 2 make myself happy?how?
hari nie nak kena jog i think..
y lah am so lazy..

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between d team win 3rd place
in the scien-ce thing..hapy..n proud!!
ive a dream/target
that i would want my team 2 win..score something for this match
a year ago..alhamdullilah..
its granted..
am so thankful
as am grown up..
i realize that god will not gave it d easier way..
but ive 2 earned it..
and thousand kesyukuran..

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when people talk about marriage..
i dun hv feeling
i just hated people who said that
"kau memilih sgt"

nak aje jawab

"kau sibuk pasal..so wat..of course lah..sukahati aku lah..
nak bg 10K ke?.."

ive million of things i wanna do for myself..
but marriage i can see the last..
not i rejected faith..but..ive firm believe 2 jodoh..
i believe HIM had made a path for me..

i see myself discovering new places..experience
earned lots of mooooooolah so that i can do lots of good thing w it
secure myself w good job..
lurve wat am doing
do good w society
make my parent happy..
loved by family n frenz..

i pray for external happiness...amen..

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losing d fat..lose weight..kurus..fit..slim..skinny

go shopping when U not hungry

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Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching

d place where i took d bj..
mine is the blue in color..
tell u..i never know how 2 wear this
as i never wear one when am taking my deg-ree..
basically its a new experience 4 me

can u believe i was here few a hours back
(twin..sale tak best..biasa aje..)

musti kurus..musti kurus..
now lets fasting..ikat perut..
hated 2 see myself

just a glimpse of how many my scarf are..
this is just a few...
how arrange my million quantity scarf
well..for the square one..
i hang using hanger one each..
(the hanger is the small size one)
so easily for me 2 mix n match..
for the long one..
i hang using the round shape from i-k-e/a..
its cost rm25..
some me lipat n put in wardrobe
some w the aw-ning..i hang it
sometimes i wonder bila lah masa i buy all this scarf
sometimes i wonder why i still not wearing scarf heartly
sometimes i wonder why i still shop for a new scarf
sometimes i wonder..r there still place 2 hang.display my scarf
sometimes i wonder..r there people like me(yeah..i think ada)
sometimes i feel scared about myself..hvg a lots of stuff(materialy)
sometimes i wonder how much money can i save if sale all these scarf w the original price..(do bear..some of my scarf..i rarely wear/never wear at all..n others few me donate/present -all pieces r so lovely)

honestly..
ive abundant of BLACK,RED N PINK SCARF
i think ive all kind of scarf(include d ba-wal thing even i dun wear one..)
i lurve wearing scarf..i do..i pray i would wear it heartedly..(i know all the do n dun..i hated people preach me macamlah saya nie teruk sgt.i believe..i will wear it heartedly..i pray for that..amen)
i lack of white scarf..as its hassle 2 care n i dun look good in white..
i dun wear the normal inner 2 cover d hair instead
i wear this look alike NET..(its good for air circulation)
and a spand-ex swimming cap
(dun laugh...but its true..i think ive its more than 3 years now n its still in a good condition..tak smelling(even lama tak basuh)..sgt melekat w head n the best is ME save a LOT on buying those inner wear as d current am wearing is the one that i lurve 2 use)

latest creative hand...
noted the pinky bead..
am proud of myself

mr ess-o:"fuh..mcm g-i-j/an-e

i just lurve the kinda wardrobe
as i think i look confident n my body in shape/fit
I MUST lose weight...kurus..tak mau fat..SKINNY..ANOX..

i must lose weight as i dun want 2 be fat..arghhhh

1stly am gaining weight
like seriously gaining
i can see the extra fat..so hidious of me
dear myself..
tak mau gemuk..tak mau fat..
so hidious..
i guess its the way o life
eat..lack of exercise
hated..hated..hated..
MUST CHANGE!
MUSTI KURUS..MUSTI SLIM
TAK MAHU FAT
NEED 2 LOOSE ALL THE FAT..
ARGHHHHHHHHHH

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JUST CAme back frm taking the jubah..
yeah..am will hv the con-vo on the 18/3
was happy..but not so excited..
d dewan was small...
i think that y i was not really excited..
but i like d environment..
so the oldies..

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MUST KURUS
MUST KURUS
AM SO AFraid 2 weight myself..

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You will never find time for anything. If you want time, you must make it.


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am still camp..
doing cleaning..kemas..n laziness..
am happy in my own world..

isnt this sweet

am watching s-i-t-c..
why people like aid-an didnt exist..

• my team win the 1st place for all the categories..am proud n happy!
• service atos=rm113....
• i was not motivated 2 shop as was tired n miss my room
• i hvnt bath till now from morning
• i do hv clean bj that hvnt di lipat n hang
• i do hv dirty bj that hvnt wash
• i think i go back on monday @ late sunday
• am lazy
• am think am fat
• I MUST SERIOUSLY BeRDIET N POSA
• AND BERSENAM...EXERCISE!
• deep inside i wanna so badly 2 buy fabric n sent for tailor made
• i need 2 make my scarf
• yesterday i printed lots of color pic as am missing myself
• i wear a nice bj today at the event
• I MUST LOSE WEIGHT
• I MISS es-sso's voice..stupid person lah!
  

awake..
lazy..
feeling fat..must kuruskan diri!

dearie twinie
i told her that i wanna 2 hv this kind of scarf..
n will gave 2 her if i dun like..hehehehe
i hope..ive enough/berlebih moolah..
i can bought it.

youngest bro n youngest sister..
he can fit into my t-shirt
basically if i wanna 2 buy him bj..i just ukur/test it w myself..
notice the yellow t-shirt that i wear..
its meant for 11-12 years old kids..(i lurve the fact i can wear kids clothes coz the design is so funky n am so young at heart)
n it was so cheap(rm 5 for a collar short)

she has the nicest smile of all..
i dun like when she get cranky..
i think i can campak kids into drain if they act badly(hehehehe)

i cant find this elsewhere others than this place..
lurve it...so yummycruz!!!

brothers..bonding of lurve..
see the striking bj that the kds wear.
i bought for them..
it was on bargain..
so i bought..bila lagi nak belikan..
bg awal2 ..as raya pun nak dekat..(hehehehe)
i wanna buy different color so that the sibling can share it..
but i lurve the borianess by them
i bought for prince haikal the pinkish purple same as the big uncle..
plus..ive lots of pinkish bj..

it was a bargain..but i didnt buy..
i said 2 myself..
"tak yah beli..kau bukan pakai"
but it was a vintage design like the one nicole wear in the movie..
it fit nicely..
it was on sale..

to think back..napa lah i didnt buy it

i ended buying this..
i lurve this sopan bj as for it material n vibrant color..
it was on sale/bargain as well
still i would lurve 2 hv the above dress
i wish..the dress still available..
i miss my dress..
i miss my skirt
i miss 2 wear nicey pretty wear..
i wanna go on a date..

how not to love her..
she nicer when she well fed..n know me
i just dun know
why babies that related to me will cry at early minutes they see me..
its like they see a monster..
mmmmmmmmmm..