life has its ups and downs.. smiles and frowns..

it is my 1st time eat 2 this seafood things at kanda bio new house..
(i a big fan of seafood )
it is yummylicious..
worth every journey & tiredness to her place

i just lurve the view from the top..
u can see the whole area from this top..
civil can only climb the hill if allowed/get permission
& this hill doesnt look so high as its seem too

the bag i carry is about the weight of my abby dell
i alwalys wonder about the bag things & finally i managed to try/to hold it..

hvg fun w kids...

i will revenge soon...

am writing from the teacher's lodge
only hv 1 class 2day..yeppie...
oh ya..on monday bring kid 2 this jungle..& i managed to conquer this hill..yeyeyye
it was really an enjoyable experience as i always wonder from down here wat its like 2 be up there..will post the capture later..@ see lah my photo host

lots of thing to jot down but so little rest..sooooo tired..so sleepy..

i miss my mum & my dad...& i miss my mall..

hv to type work..perah the brain..cant sleep..
please body.. cope w this stress..
i need to submit it tomoorow..
die..die..padan muka

mum & dad & fir & dani came to visit yesterday..
it was really short trip & i managed to bring them jalan2 a bit
wish i had MORE energy..more time
wish that i settled my work earlier
wish that i didnt promise the kids
wish that i can settle this stuff asap..
arghhhhh

in between managed to capture lots of pic..
& me likey it all

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learn & life:

-drive:ignore call & msg..focus..must change bad habit
-settled ur work
-plan & plan
-rajin2..dun be lazy

see how ive turned bulat & gained weight..
arghhhhhhhhhh
must lose weight..MUST!!!
& between..dun i look adorable cute..me aaaa not the kids
ada ceta lawak..
later me update..tak sempat 2 do so..

i was bz yesterday..& relax yesterday..
too bad didnt go for jog as hv programme w the kids..
ive to stop eating FOC food at dewan makan as it make me fat..huarghhhh
i look so fat..i feel so fat..& i dun bluff
my face look so bulat..
flabby..got tummy..arghhhhh
so need to NOT EAT NASI..
MUST FASTING
MUST MORE EXERCISE
H20..no snacking..NO makan MALAM

my self restriction:
no peanut butter
no waffle
no NASI!!!!
h20 ONLY & must be many

oh ya...i cheat yesterday..
eat froed squid yesterday..(this stuff cant yet make restriction)

wat 2 eat & be conscious about the food consume..arghhh wat had happen 2 me

this is the peanut jam that i mentioned earlier..
full of fat..not good for diet..but damn ..yummylicious..
enough of consuming this like waffle also..
so not good for diet & losing weight

to the gals that i know..
this post is 4 u gals..
beach..sand..sunset..
ari nie officially 23 days aku tak balik KL..
am so impressed w myself

i feel fat..
i know am getting tan
arghhhhhh..need to lose weight..
need to be cruz45
note:i like this capture as i look so decent..& it capture all my fav stuff..
i so needly to have i-k-ea- stuff=food..& shop..& wat best i heard its on sale..

r u tempted w this capture?
this is among my fav snacking
i lurve anything choc(current:the pudding things..brownies-nana's (my cousie make chewy..yummylicious one ..& always FOC lah)& SR(myr4)
wheatmeal biscuit(the jacob one)..the jacob bites series..
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• Sebiji roti canai mengandungi kalori sama dengan 5 KM berjogging.

darn..5 KM tue..thank god am not a fan of it

• Nasi lemak pulak kandungan santannya tinggi. So cholesterolnya tinggi
  

3 days in a row makan nasi as FOC..darn..must control & bot 2 eat nasi..nasi make me fat..huarghhhhhh

currently eat student food also..that Y lah FOC..
arghhh kena plan balik diet..

monday-managed to get 1 hour jog(i ate nasi during lunch)

tuesday-tired..i slept(i eat nasi gak..arghhhhh)

wed- jog about 1 hour..eat a lot too..
breakfast-bihun goreng & chicken wing
lunch-2 spoon of nasi,chicken wing & 2 spoon of kicap sayur & a pear
dinner-i cheat on snacking(i assume i ate like a plate of nasi ..arghhhh..guilty..guilty)

when my life need a bit of spice..its been more than 20 days wout KL air

my darling jum ask me to post this capture..hehehhehe..
isnt that guy is charming..

that me..& my bum..
do u notice if i didnt tell u so..
arghhhh..am gaining..am fat..huarghhhhhh
today..went jog..thank god..finally..
now kena consistent..& jgn malas..
i wanna to lose 10kg..
I MUST!
i wanna weight 45 kg only..
I MUST!
fat..fat go away..
leaa..fit..crugenic i muST!

its amazing how i survive my weekend here..

arghhhhh..am hidious..am fat..
face getting lousy..i feel flabby..
muka like kembang..
am look like so tak bersemangat..arghhhhhh

i was told yesterday by a same batch of educator here that am sort of berisi..
unlike last time where i am dead skinny..yet he said that i look better now
but me myself think/feel that i prefer those skinny..look..body..
when i think back..the past week has been lousy..fat food..arghhh..
no choice,lazy,no time,super hungary,need energy..that Y..
plus w the lack of EXERCISe..arghhh..i used to jog..JOG To lose weight..arghhh
napa susah nak lose weight..napa cant just the extra fat dissapear

the 2 reason 2 REGULARY exercise is because:
-building stamina
-nak lose weight..burn those fat must exercise..
arghhhhhhh..

in between..how i spent my weekend?..
got training w the people of the camp here..
jungle..night walking..& yeah..menembak..holding those riffle..
not easy task i tell u..especially if u really tired..but i really enjoy it..
chance of life time..

others..duty warden & makan at pantai(fried squid & baked kerang)
spend time tidur late..wake up late..eat hostel's food & basically i spend my weekend peacefully here..& u know wat esok sekolah...ive no life..SAVE ME!

this is because..ada kerja kena buat..paperworks & preparation 4 class..
(hard 2 work w witty people here..ada aje observation & all)

2 dinda..sorry 2 hear that u sick..but look at the bright side..
i believe u lose kilos..isnt that amazing..
i wanna to lose those kilos..i hated myself when am fat..arghhh.

now i wanna pray that broady will be a good net..please ya broady..

arghhhh..i need to go to school w a happy heart..

dun have no mood to go to work
i wanna to lazy around..
a book 2 send..duty at post..report..
must not be lazy this 4 days..
oh yeah..must clean room

to my twin..in casehe reading this

"ida bayangkan aku yg garang and nak marah kau jer kalau keluar ngan kau.. hahahhahaha padan muka aku kan sbb bila aku keluar ngan zahari aku lak kena marahh...

hahahahhahahahhaha.. time2 tue... teringat kat kau... feeling kau kena marah ngan aku.. hehehhehe.. walaupun begitu, aku tetap sayang kau.. you are my best buddy u know."

huhuhuhu..aku dah biasa dah kena bebelan kau..so tu pasal tuhan balas bg laki yg sayang kat kau..macam kau sayang kat aku..bebel tu tanda sayang..but i know..life would be a dull moment wout me..

here goes..
3 days straight sunny day..BRIGHT sunny day..
but i didnt wash & sidai my laundry due to the unpredictable weather..
a bit tense the past w unsettled work..arghhhh

i lose control..y oh y..i just wanna to lose weight..that all

i remember it was a very fine weather yesterday..
blue & bright sky..no sign of raining
i finish class early..& managed to get early sleep
& i remember wake up very early this 2 days..
sleep also early..wake up also must early lah
am being a good gal here..

gosh am think am getting fat..
boob r like big..i can feel the extra layer of fat at the stomach things
dun want to be fat..arghhhh..

help..my broady & me need help..i cant live wout my broady

its been 12 days.. & i still alive here
i try to not think about home much as i know am going to be sad over it..

Gosh am being so patient w broady..
its being ups & down 4 today..yesterday..
please..do any of u guys know wat to do w the lousyness...
ive called the broady people..& were guided:
-disable firewall,p2p,change dns no..

others tips that i can do to deal w broady..
i just wanna my broady back like it use to..

arghhhh am sleepy ..am lazy..

i MISS myself FOREMOst
i feel that am losing my HAppy & positive of edd
DARN..i feel terrible fat..bloated..hidious..arghhhhhh
am piles w work..duty..responsibility..which never end
PADAN MUKA SAYA!!!!
looking to all my picture make me realize that wat a HAPPY..energetic..colorful life that ive
besides the financial prob..(arghh..debt..debt to clear & SAVING to MUST DO)
im such a lucky gal..aint i?
gal..guys..i bet u must miss me the most!!
oh ya..i not yet hvg the missing KL mall ..as am stuck w pending work..
ati tarak senang..duit tarak ada..(sbb nak berjimat cermat-nak bg ati terubat. Remember that i purchase 9 pants last month & i must not gain any kilos in order to fit in it..MUST LOSE WEIGHT!!!!)
didnt take many/none crazy capture..
arghhhh..i dun want myself to be the typical people..
i like being different..ienjoy being myself..
hope broady will be a good net today..tomorrow & all year..
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wat i ate yesterday..
cereal & low fat milk 4 breakfast
coffee & lots of coffee & of course h20 all day long
keautiew kerang 4 lunch
mini orange & peanut bread 4 snack(didnt count how many)
notes:to burn those calori must EXERCISE!!!!faham!!

had a homemade mee kungfu by mumy wir's hubby yesterday
it was the best ever one that i ate..
i not fond of any egg things & certainly i rarely order such dish when i dining out
but tell u..it is so yummy & till this morning i thing it is the best meal ive had in this week(pathetic i know)
basically this week got 2 FOC makan2..all those nasik stuff..
i was tak larat to drive myself to mall..all i need i my comfort bed & wanna to settle the work asap
arghhhh

net is stil lousy..
i didnt hv mood to call those people yet
as need to settle my work 1st
now at the moment

frequent disconnection is wat the hell am facing at the very moment w broady
had call the help line & were guided step by step
arrrrghhhhh..
so leceh..so hassle..
i just need my fast broady..my functional phone & more time to so my work..
please..please broady..heal faster!
i just wanna u to be at wat u r meant 2 be..

true..if we lurve the to do wat we liked most..
we going to enjoy the endless pain & burden that come w it..
arghhhhh..i dislike doing this bloody report..
ive been piles w byk jwtn ketua that i feel so hopeless at the end of the day..
arghhh...i just hv to be patient w this if i wanna stay sane..

arghh so many things to do..so little time
had my period today..yet still going strong.
had this big makan at the R-i-vier-a hotel..
had this spot check upon student & i managed to get feew who doesnt go to 3pm class

arghhhh..net was still lousy..ups & down..
huarghhh..

new way to wear scarf!

this is the placewhere ive the nicey bakso..look hidious outside..but it was clean inside..
ive to across the road..as i park my atos opposite of it
i think the place kinda sell good food as lots of people where buying food there
yeah..food discovery!!

net was up & down..
how i wish that it recover asap..
others stuff that i wish 4:
-i wanna long weekend so i can do all the pending work
-behave student
-myself jgn malas2..jgn wat kerja tangguh 2
-myself wat good plan/stuff 4 my work

gosh..i really wish..that time can be expand @ being stop so that i do all the report..padan muka saya..hish.hish..hish!!!!

so hv to be very patient..
in between,room spring cleaning 40% done
well..kena dok betul2..buang unwanted/unneeded stuff
gosh..ive lots of stuff that i actualy like/sayang that i keep it store..
& i keep buying lots of new stuff..
gosh..am so terrible 2 w filing & kerja yg bertimbun..

o7-saving..berjimat cermat..myr wise

if u check my jan 06 entry..u realize that ive the same hair cut..different is better..
just 2 review..

gadget u need to hv for 2006:

a laptop..done..bulan 4 abih byr..
a camcorder.--dun think i wanna it anymore..ive bought others stuff..new digicam..new mp3..
a pro account...finally..its cost me less than myr100
a passport..must buat gak..

this is the list ive done on my birthday..u see..i always..listed stuff..at least i can budget stuff..mmmmm..budget?

a DSLR

MOOLAH..ME wanna to get myself passport

shop voucher-not food..SHOOPING

2A & 3 A RECHARGABLE battery

2D2N AT M/A/RR/IOT HOTEL,pTRYA

512 SD card

i NEED TO HV NEW GLASSES I THINK

BRAND NEW D/E/L/L DESKTOP

BRAND NEW BIKE-IN my attempt to save petrol & berjimat cermat

branded-good earphone.bring me shop & i get one that i like

MOOLAH>>

yesterday..the all brat plg senior wat illegal stay up..
so hv to ambush them..
balik at 2am then tidur..
plan today wake up as early as possible & start religious ritual..jog..clean..but fail..
still wake up early & start cleaning..
managed to clear my so called kitchen(remember my room is a studio apartment feel alike)
5% progress..lots 2 be done..
managed to go the the myr 1 pasar(though not many choice..but there item that i wanna)

i bought:
okra-2packet=myr2
bottle pea-1pckt=myr1
red chilies-1pckt=myr1
tempe-2pckt=myr2

total:myr 6

healthy food-fasting-eat 1 time a day-lots of h20->protein-less /lack of oil/red meat/junk food
EXERCISE
LOTS OF READING
no stress..
HAPPY
JGN Tangguh kerja
JIMAT DUIT>>>NAK TRAVEL..BYR UTANG..SAVING!!!!!

gave zakat,menambah harta..menjadi kaya..tak buat dosa..dapat pahala

trying new ways to wear tudung.i found out that i need to get the right material to wear it nicely& to MUST be less than 50kg..
gosh..i feel bad to myself as i didnt lose the weight that i want..
Y oh y..napa susah to lose the kilos..
i hated to see me flabby..fat..big arm & tight..
i wanna a flat tummy.lean tight & arms..& i so wanna to be weight as 45 kg..
HV to work HARD then..

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alhamdulliah..phone line already being fix..speedy broady finally ok..
now i can smile ear to ear & my life here seem meaningfull..hoyaaaaah
wat i do smlm..well..punch in..& out..
ada mkn2..eat nasi..& finally get sleep from 2pm till 430pm(how i waited for the good rest)
then went 4 jog till 7pm..pray..rehat..gi buy grocieries & sleep at 1030pm...early isnt..

& today wake up early coz of the knocking of kids..
a gal was bleeding kat mulut pasal jatuh bili air..poor her...she a good kid..
bring her to get treatment(worst..she lost her teeth & kena buat fake teeth)
reach room around 10am..settle the poor little gal(she is really small & petite-half size of me & tinggi bwh my shoulder..just imagine)

in between stuff i ate:

nasi ayam-free one
2 spoon of meaty serunding-FOC
a plam size of steam sweet potato-curtesy of mummy wir
i bought cereal & choc milk-its Ma-ri-gold- as advice by cousie..-DIET WE MUST..so ari2..breakfast..no oily stuff..makan cereal..the choc milky wasnt taste bad..its was ok..& keeping in mind that am drinking a future supply of calcium )
LOTS OF H20-hot coffee..

am settleing laundry..machine wash 60% done..hand wash..later..
its a very good weather today..

& as 4 2day..am plan to go to bookstore..get free reading.. & buy a book...

wanna to be in size 00..wanna to weight only 45 kg..must..MUST!!

connection can ok a bit when night fall..midnight & above the precise time
i so wanna to put up pic..
if mr hitachi reading this..how was ur vacation?i ENVY u!!!
next time ajak ok..
need to remind myself that SAVE MONEY for making passport...i been a bit broke toward end of 2006..yet still managed to hv 9 NEW pant..incredicle isnt
& this morning i managed to catch a glimpse of advertisement in tv & its seem that i THINKthere be a really good bargain happen in 2007..gosh..save money..save money

• gold jewellry-perhaps a good watch-a pc
  
• expert/pro digi cam
• passport
• travel
• MUST SAVE!!!!!
• LOSE WEIGHT!!dun want to be fat

my both 2 room at here is still a MESS..piles of paper to be sort
i really hope no interuption in the weekend as i appreciate a good rest..really pray 4 that

my needed superduper net was been lousy the past day..
this is wat they claim due to the effect of the current massive earthquake
am still HV my patient..

thank god today was a bit ok..
work,assembly,met up,meeting from 8am till 1pm..
so many info..so many dateline..so many work..
then rest till 230pm,follow by meeting again that ended at 520pm.
i cant really wait for friday to come..
i just wanna rest..do cleaning..organizing & time 4 myself..

korang di manakah kah korang..
kenapa menyepi..
bak kata aussie cousie
"weih nak entertaiment.I have no life here.. I need korangnya story to keep me sane."

twin:where ur dietery stuff
nana:ur sacrsactic motivation
nonu:please..please...the all wanted yellow vitamin

am at camp..sekolah..huarghhhhhh
yeah..the all the new stuff that i bought couldnt recover the sad feeling..
its not the missing thing yet..
its about hv to deal w those people..to work..to think..huarghh
i know this is not good as i keep complain although i DO sometimes admire the work...
am tired today..as its the 1st day where brats regist..20 min more there be a meeting..arghhhhhhh

arghhhhhh..the FUn has just began!!

"eh..sudah 2007..."

its 2007..gosh..so fast gone 2006 that i didnt realize its coming
to think back ..ok..there r some high ambition that i managed to fulfill..
bless to the AL-Mighty god..am fully content

ok..am 27 going to be 28 end of the year..
am lurve & hated my career at the same time..
am hv my own career..moolah..& cuti w gaji
am blessful w loving family & great friend..
am single..not attach & really happy for that
am hv my great NEEKON..my reliable A-T-os..
should bersyukur banyak2 paham..

as usually..LOSE WEIGHT..MUST2..
50kg..47kg..45kg..40kg
till the day will come..