am writing from class..
ada wireless..super cool!!!!
so far study was good..class was pack yet still ok..
its way much better than stressful day at camp
plus.so much near to home
hehehhehehe

i went to see darling jum yesterday
& as usual..talk..borak & all
& now he know my feeling(heheheh)toward wei..
[i still lurve u jum..tak kurang lebih]

life went smooth..so far..
alhamdullilah

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my life seem hectic..
not enough time to jalan2 & window...& browse
but am home..that the most important

i need to go swimming..yeyeyyeye

am searching for the meaning of life..

another flower that i likes also..
see..am HAPPY

& i better start seriously consious about the weight
am freaking fat..see all the extra fat around the waist & tight..arghhhh

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my schedule for weekday:
830am till 7pm-class,study,lecture-
8 hours per day for the next 14 days..hooorah!!

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my marah:
an issue ari tue at camp
small matter jadik big matter coz of damn kepoh people..
arghhh
eh..two by the way..
i dun know lah who the culprit but lesson learn then
just a note to myself

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am need to LOSE weight!

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am thankful to god..for this great day & happy feeling

its cuti..& am happy..

was kinda bz & my schedule was really pack..
but still am happy..no stress..hoooorah..

am back to study for the 2 week..
& am still happy..
am such a good gal..heheheh

& today was

• wedding of cousie..
• registration & briefing
• jog at tmn,mini konsert(its free ya!!) & shooting for jumping shoot-thanks dinda..i begin to lurve ca/non-(my analog camera was ca/non & its still in perfect condition..lurve it-its bulky when i look at its nowadays & yet its still my byk berjasa stuff-)
• eat a lot nasi..eat byk...arghhh..tak mau jadik fat..mau lose weight..mau cruz45
  

lurve to write more..see ya soon..

****NOTE to myself

• lose weight..MUST!!!!
  

arghh..ada satu lagi makhluk sini buat kerja like so teruk..
arghhhh..

now kena /must habiskan menanda.
must..must..must

isnt this lovely?
i just lurve sky..& the sky here never failed my liking!

i feel like i wanna a new camera..
huarghhh..

& more moolah..

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no mood today..& pretty bored...
huarghhhh

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i was searching high & low for my fav cardigan..
it went missing went i susun balik the my wardrobe
(dad/mom angkut the bj that me hang,masuk dalam almari masa the bro engagement)
till now tak jumpa..i remember seing it hang w the rest of others cardigan..but tak ade..
mmmm..my fav one..kat bilik tak ada
huarghhh..i lurve the cardigan..
fit me well & tak panas..
think..think..
balik lagi after nie..must search!

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i really need to sort my notes..my bj..
my stuff..there is plenty of it.
huarghhhh

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how i wish..esok cuti..

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i like the capture..as normally most of her capture..will turn out blur..
she kinda nice that day..
i bought her new shoe(cost me only myr 3.90,yet cute & fit her nicely)
once she woke up..i wear it for her..& she jalan2 w it..just lovely..

i spend half on the day w my beloved atos for a major service..
from 9 am till 3pm...6 hours ..there you go!!
just for u baby..now be good..
kena save moolah to pay ur tax this september..
baby..u cost more that i eat per month..

the amount of jeans that i try..& ended buying one only.. kena berjimat lah!

my cutie hair.. lurve it!!! & do u see my shirt..its pingu capture..hooorah!! & its only myr 18..& pdi..& its "s " size..heheheh

only myr 2.80.. rich w choc..& sweet..& yummy & diet stuff lurve the stuff!

the wheather is so hot today that i ve rush to take a shower & the fan at a full blast!

weekends was home sweet home as i need to service my beloved atos..
cost me myr 700 for the service..
myr 700 is a HUGe one..
i could do many things w it...
such as book myself a vacation
cuti2..jalan2..
pay the car instalment..buy a new cam..
SAVING!!!!
passport..nicey spa treatment
but for atos to run well ..its was meant to be..

gosh..i miss my room..my comfort room..
where ive my reliable net..my abby dell..& my very own place
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noted:while typing this..am very hungry..
just finish eating a cheeeese burger..yum..yum..
i intend to clean my room..sort the bj..& siapkan my work..
so berjaga lah saya if boleh today..

& yeah..bought myself a pair of jeans..(using voucher & paid only myr 24.50-its pdi ya!)
& a bargain workout bj(myr 9.90)

eat good & yummy food

& met old friend(who tahan me masa me tgh jalan2)
who said i hvnt change much..
& i asked:

"dun i look differ?& u still recognise me?"

"well..u look just the same..that makes u look young"

hehehhehe

& a lama tak jumpa kawan

"nice hair (i kinda like my hair..its short & make me such a cutie)"
~hehehehe..compliment myself..hehehe

"u look cute.."

& cant help myself smiling just to recall it..hehehhe

& u know wat..
Excersicing reduces stress!!...
& true..i make myself to jog once at home..
as i feel my body need to touch the grow..
smell the air..& see people..hehehe..
oooohhh..i miss my santuanary..
now hv to make myself rajin balik here..
to jog evening ..
i need to work out..
losing weight..be happy about myself & de-stress..

oh ya..my very berry fav puding naik harga..
dr myr1.79 to myr 2.99..
mahal tue naiknye..i ended didnt buy it...

now..am plan to diet here at camp..
jimat duit..ikat perut..
must tidak berbelanja..

its hard..but i shall try..mmmmmm

pick wisely..& u be happy

i feel like to go to pen-ang & go jalan2..
i feel like wearing my dress..
i feel like walking on beach..i can even feel the touch of the sand
i feel like to go to camera shop & buy the one i always one

am torn between to buy
-s/o/n/y-still banyak design to choose
-a c/a/n/on-spoil by choice
- a dslr.its either n-i-kon 40x @ d80 @ a pen-tax(tgh ada offer)

mmmmmmm

i wanna to smell & touch & posing w fresh flower..

i miss myself dearly..

i post this captured as i miss the beach..the wind so much
am so bloody tired..stress..blur..mad at myself..lazy..pemalas..
that i didnt go to the beach to take a breath of fresh air & the lovely sunset..
i just dun know wat has happen to me..

i feel to be in bali @ phucket @ cheapest pun..sipadan ke,PpTkgrk ke @ perhentian..
guling2 atas pasir..the wind..
arghhhh..i can just feel the tranquility..the grinning...the relaxing moment
cam nak book the ticket & just go..

as am hvg this flow..
boobs is big ..tummy bloated & hidous..
the feeling of fat & ugly
& luckly the acne was not that bad as previous..

i feel to cut my hair..
but at the same time i wanna hv this long curly nicey goddness look hair
(dun know how to tell the exact work & lazy to put capture..but that hairlah)
but i know that with the coming heat & tense that id be facing..
shorter hair will make me happy..

& i realize that being a single..not attached
i rarely had my pms..& its really a great one
(that great coz others than that, ive suffer the back pain..the bloated tummy..the endless pain..)

i wanna to go on jalan2..
(i really miss penang)
but i really need to lose weight 1st..

i wanna a hug..
& i really need a massage..
back pain..legs..i work too hard

gosh..pre symptom of cuti..
dun u think?

am sweeting like a bucket full & my legs is hurting each time i make a step but yeah..i satisfied

the 16 capture..
i lurve this shoot..
taken by a yus,a bride to be..
the one that i hv a LOVEly eyelash

am hvg the flow..
arghhh

esok balik..yahoooooo

malam kena siapkan kerja saya
esok kj nak..huhuhuhu

saya rasa nak belari

i wanna to climb mountain
i wanna to climb tree
i wanna to dive
i wanna to swim
i wanna to run/lari/jogging
i wanna lose the weight..

yeah..wat all those physical activity can really low down the stress

to mr hitachi..hope u read this

envy u..bali vacation..tak bagi tau..
arghhhh..jeles..jeles..

MUST to MYSELF

i must lose weight first..must..
cabaran ..REWARD to..45 kg!
ada duit..takde duit ke
i will go BALI /phuket/angkor wat /melbourne@ oversea trip
BUT must be cruz45..must..must..must

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saya sedih.
ada conflict here that involved people that i senang work with..
coz of ignorant & perasaan baguih people..
still not finalised yet..

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i need moolah..
i need extra salary..
i really need to be debt free

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i really wanna a new tak gegar camera
i really need a dslr
i must save & ikat perut

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i wanna cut my hair short @ botak

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if ive to be so skinny..tiny..@ even anox..
takpe..as long as am weighy 40kg..
am so in need to be one

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i so wannnnnnnna holiday!!!home..my life back!

today is a mummy day...
was at home for few hours yesterday then balik to camp..
i miss home..i do..& its feel go to be home..
its good to spend my time at mall
right after send a friend of mine for good..
i treat myself at myr 3 gym..then the i/ke/a,ika/no & cur/ve for myself
bought myself book/mag & 2 baju(bargain)
presey for mum & yummy food that i didnt finish pun..
oh yeah..treat myself w the tau fu fa..a choc one..nice!!!!!
myr 2.80 per bowl
& i bought yummy seaweeds..

i feel lost..blur..
& bosan w the people & environment am in now..
i just dun know..
i lurve the place..it was not that bad..but i feel soooo not belong here..
i njust dun know..
i wanna to write bitchy things..but was no mood..huarghhhhh

i need to clean my room & be sihat..
my room was a mess..terrible one..& need to accomplish an important job today.

& am feel soooo freaking fat..

kena jimat ..be healthy & strong & must lose weight & no acne..am getting freaking gelap here

was not well today..so MC
i slept like a log..& sleep was i really need
leave my phone at room & 12 hours wout ring & call
am feel better..which meant i need to do work

& today cook bubur..yeah..the pelarian thing...
the diet stuff..the jimat stuff..& easy to eat..
i lurve it to evry tiny bit

i miss my home
i miss my dress..
note to myself:
i must lose kilos..
i look so good w the new dress i bought last 2 week..must buy the crown at J"s

wanna sleep earlier..enough rest & wake up morning to settle the work
wanna to take MC
wanna to kemas my bilik
wanna no to go work..bored..
wanna just to lazy around & still get paid..

arghh..
lots to write but so tired..sleepy & feel demam
nite..

& yeah..i didnt tell @post u guys latest stuff i buy from n-e-p-a-l
(lurve the shop that hvg crazy sale..imagine a nicey floraly sandal & a loceng for myr 1o each)
oh ya!!..got myself new shades too..

*****these is the lovely girlish one..heheheh

am tired..& still room is so messy..
bring the m-o-r-al kids to do observation
ive lots of fun..i emant..got to shoot nice capture & baring2 at pantai & remarkable sunset..

please..i dun want to get sick..i need to be on my feet..

i wanna to hv a magic wand..@ myself to be rajin..

napa saya rasa diri saya gemuk..arghhhhh..
tense..tense..
fat..fat go away..
i must be thin..cruznoxia..must be 45kg..
i dun wat to be/feel fat..
must,,must ,,,must lose weight

am running of motivation..huarghhhhh
help..help...

i must lose weight that all i need now..
plus money..plus time & sleep..

hectic weekend..
was bloody tired & restless..

missede important event in family..sedih & regret..but wat to do..hv to work..

my paper work..tak siap lagi..
saya penat!
i wanna my own space..time & rest moment..
my very own..

room was a mess..
byk brg in car i hvnt upload lagi..
its HEAVILY RAIN here!!-sleep earlier today..

i miss ya guys..cepatlah cuti!

gorgeous guys..my darling jum..& comforting wei..

things we had in common..
we lurve to pose

when he eat food..we tend to kongsi & grab his portion..
he really know how to enjoy his food..
myself lak..eat like tassie devil when hungry

happy..happy ..happy

worth it journey..& tiredness..
am so relaxful & a detox all the pressure & stress..
met..hug..kiss..& had a great laugh w people i missed & lurve..
& lots of capture..

my fav photo group comes down to town..
so haaaaapppy & level of stress when down when am w them..
lurve my neekoon..more & more..

sleepy eyes..ill mail later the capture..
nite!