FINALLY>>Y am looking forward for the weekend

ive good night sleep & rest..
it was raining all night long(my warden's mate said lah)
coz i sleep like a log..
i turn off the volume of the h/p
comfort myself w a all time fav tassie blanket
silent environment at warden's house..
& wake up at 130pm..
since im not fasting..
i hv my lunch at 3pm makan nasi semalam..
arghhhhh..life is a bless..i THANK YOU god!

so as per this week...
MISSION:RELAXING myself.
mmm..ive few event this week...
we'll soon see..

to go back @ not...cepat lah 16...gaji lagi..ehehehhehe

bz as usual..w class & my presentation was ok..
& 2day me finish at 1215pm..FINALLY people!

i received two mail frm dearie twin & cousin..
i was bursting out laughing..HILLIRIOUS i can say..
takpe korang ABG EDD here!!
korang nak ke mana?
bulan..bintang..mall..
my atos & ME yg SIngle nie available..
but wait aku kena balik KL lu..
huarghhhhhhhh

bak kata nana:

"eleehhh bahagia ape... nak balik,,, uwaaa uwaaa nangiss dalam penjara Te/re/nda/k...

hahahahaha..... ;)"

in between i wonder where is my dinda cruz..

wei budak kecik..amboi..lupa kat akak yek...?

& my darling JUM>>>>
in case HE READ this..as he claimed he had found it

"Eddy i found. It.. just laughing and laughing...happy edd."

i update mine quite ari2..heheheh..
u wont find urself missing me much now..hehehehe

babah call just now..
huarghhhh..sedih..sedih..cover..cover
this kind of month..nak balik aje..
tak lah..i miss to be home so badly..

yesterday masa teman jan..im so excited..
dapat keluar from the camp..
macam keluar dr jail je..
its a tiring journey...no stop using my whole body system...
but its was worth a lot

one laundry done..tgh finish iron my baju..
& clean my stuff..
im pushing myself nie..
waaaaa..Y im so lazy aaa

finally..i managed to fullfill my CRAVING>>>these YUMMY..heavenly bliss cost me myr 23.90 excluded tax

i ALWAYS WANNA to DO THeSE...AT LAST!!!

the DECENT POSE...the DECENT WEAR..the DECENT LOOK..
on the 1st day of FASTING month 2006!

SHe a HAPPY GAL!!!

wat i LURVE about them..depa dengar kata aku bila aku kata

ambik gambar,pusing kanan,pose kiri,berhenti aku nak ambik gambar,eh,mari bergambar..& the fav..one more..one more..

TQ coz always make me a HAPPY tassie gal..
if ONE day..i RICH coz of my passion..u gal..will get the CREDIT..hhehehe

am so bz w class today..
return at room at 245pm..
went out w jani at 3pm..
she wanna to browse for new car

i ate 2day baked fish paste(s/ata/r)..
1 piece wings
& keladi & s/i/p/u/t sedut masak lemak myr 1
& i Buy a R/I/B/E/N/A drink that cost me myr 9.90

esok..ada pemantauan..
my all time menbosankan KJ..
arghhhh..bosan2..

eh..esok FRIDAY..
boleh balik ke?hehehhehe
in between,am hvg my FLOW of the month..
its been 2 days..thank god it was smooth..
unlike previous where i crave & temper easily
(ada a bit lah)..hehehhe

ok..ive so much to write ..later ya..

a tIRED day..read that
TIRED..later lah kay..
i wanna sleep earlier today..

nite!!!

i just dunno know
i not feeling myself..
i wanna sleep but i think ive too much..
i wanna go out..but lazy & tired am i..

& today..ive to go to school & teach
& i dun hv anything good in my mind..
mmmmm..bored..bored..tense..tense..

i wanna cuti..
nak mc..karang my KJ bising lak..
arghh...bosannya!

happy bunny...happy tassie...happy pingu..happy ME!

am so bless dapat fast..breakfast at home
the weekend, i spend sleeping ..shopping..jalan2..gal's out!
GREAt food..bargain..cuci mata..
how i miss my KL so much...
gosh..me..twin & cousin(punyalah lama tak gal's out sbb everyone r So bZ)
we ATE..WE shop..WE jalan2..

LIFE is DEFINELTY great..
lots of photo taken..
please be patient aaa korang..lupa nak bwk my usb wayar..
malas nak bukak laptop aaa..tgk lah if rajin karang...

me start the day w a bit weak coz ive FEVER
(sometimes i lost count how many times i sick for a month..ive fever that makes me so weak..
when i meant weak..it really weak..the only cure besides medicine is mall..but am too weak & tired for that..mmmmm..life in M/A/L/A/C//C/A has change me much)

then it was swimming..(2days straight..& im easily tired..guess coz i lack/low stamina & the fever things)
then its was the glorious food..
the icecream(haagen mind u-its cost myr25 for a 2 scoop & brownies but heavenly it WAS soooooo good..)
the salsa fries..
the pie(nana's one)
the laksa..the kebab..the cheese choc..hhehehe..

a bit terkilan coz we didnt spent the time at I/K/E/A/ & W/I/L/L/I/A/M
perhaps others time..

see..im a eater..i ate a lot..
stuff that i lurve..& simply cant be replace by food at camp..

i remember saying this..

"nie takde kat M//A/L/A/C/C/A nie"

"huarghhhh....esok posa..tak leh nak makan kat sini"..

i enjoy food..i lurve food..
but my body ..my stomach..my tight..my arm..
cant tolerate all those fat..
to make it worse..
i will gain weight..i will look teribble..i will feel bad..
that Y..
i need to diet..
need to always keep my mind that i CANT gain any inch..even a pound..grams & kilos..

i rarely exercise nowadays.. & i blame myself for that..
i cant use time/tiredness as an excuse not to exercise..
EXERCISE & diet is really important to lose weight
& if u can see the picture timeline..the way i see..from my album..
it took me almost A YEARS to lose the weight..
a years..365 days..12 month..
& i know i can simply blown up in just a night..

now..i just need to find way..to keep me
energise..energetic..lot of will power..
to exercise..jog..run mill..skip 500X perdays..
eat 1 times only..less carbo..no FAT..
LOTS of H2o..no soft drink & no nasi..
till i become cruz45..

its hard..but its not impossible..
its all temptation..& myself desire..
i guess../ i must..search/buy vitamin..
i cant let myself weak/demam/lembik..
i must be the hyperactive edd..

& yet i still wanna FOOD..
i lurve sweet..& spice..

in between..
am proud of myself that i managed to tahan myself to shop..
yeah..i shopperholic am i..
coz of the ive debt..
i need to pay bills..
need to bagi makabah & all..
need to save..

2 month to end 2006..
2 month b4 i turn exact 27..
am dun want to be old..feel old..get old..
am WANNA be the kids at heartfor as long as i lived
wiser..healthier..skinner..mature..grateful..HAPPIEST
wat hv i achive thru out the years..
things to ponder then...

ari bie BALIK yeyeyeyey!!!
& b4 that..thursday history...
me so restless..tired..
but happy...balik esok yeyeyeyeyye!!

lagi 30 min b4 my 1st class as per today

i young & unexperienced in life..
takde dip lagi pathetic..
but am willing to learn hard tau tak bodoh..
huargh...i miss KL..
ikut ati aku balik aje..

its seem that i dun hv enough time here..
ok..i end my day at 2pm..but paling awal i can be at my room at 230pm..
then..hal tu..hal nie..im not really resting & i MISS my privacy
i always adore..appreciate my privacy..my belong..my time alone..
that Y i dun mind going places alone..gi shop alone..coz i know i can survive..
i enjoy being in a deep thought
huarghhhhh..
this is the early sign of my stress..missing home..

NAK BALIK!!!!!

im hungry..feed me people..belanja lah saya

• i can be AWAke just to be online..

(im so blessed that ive the net..things that i know i WANT when im at camp)

• I dun like to go to school when im no mood
• everyday..there be knocking at my door..on which its not important at all
• I been fasting & im so weak..god..help me on this..being here at camp..im easily faint when its comes to fast..i dun know..am im getting old..i lurve to fast..i remember i can fast the whole day wout being hungry....i miss those day..so hv to pull myself together & be strong
• i LIVED on CAN..TUNA..Biskuit..H20..nowadays..
• i simply lurve to add black pepper in my M/A/G/G/I..yummylicious i tell u..tak mual..added lime will do good stuff too
  
• i lurve sandwich..be tuna..be sardine @ chicken
• i like yogurt but that depend on the wheather..the temperature of the day..storage matter & crave
• i lurve 1000 island than mayo...i lurve cheese..& i simply lurve those garlic butter(boy..those stuff really a fattening food)
• i miss the william's lasagna..& the r/i/b/e/n/a lychee(kena buat masa posa time nie-buy lychee b4 u go back!)
• i lurve posa month & raya tue..food..food..sweet stuff..
• im need TO EXERCISE..CLEAN STUFF..WAKE UP EARLY..& ENERGETIC..everday..am a human robot..that hv feeling & wanna to lose her weight..& be skinny..yeah skinny..huarghhhhhh...saya lapar..saya hv to cruz45..
  

See the world and change your perspective. Change the world you see by changing your perspective

i was reading a good entry on one of this blog..
its about to treat urself better after a harsh broke up..
& all her saying is TRUE..
gosh..to think back...
i was sooooo FOOLISH then..
a bit now &
i hope & pray that maturity & wise will accompany me in the future relationship..

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STILL missing HOME..
& its been a while i hvnt shop/window..
i think i spent much on food & petrol & my baby atos maintaince
gosh..keep remind myself that i need to
BUDGET,SAVE..& berjimat...
spend wisely...buy wisely..
gosh..ive this crave to hv:
-a new shoe..sport @ jalan2 one..(bargain price & long lasting.)
-new apparel(mmmm..skirt..bj..seluar..scarf..UNDIES..BRA)
-i miss my /K/E/A/ food & drink & the spree
-i miss big mall w lots of option..& cool place to hang around
-i miss sale & bargain
-i miss POOL...watery stuff
-I miss GREAT food..
-i miss my santuanary park..the nite life..

4 days more...cepat lah..

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am hungry..i wanna to eat
but at the same time..
am so lazy
am dun know wat to know
am DIET
am dun want to spent myr
am to lose weight..
hungry..hungry...but
am so LAZY!

horaaaah!!!
i proud of myself today..
as i managed to install scanner & printer at my laptop
nak arap the school one..gosh..i just hated to deal w this people..
so..at least ive alternative..

missing KL...cepat lah friday..
home sweet home..
family & frenz..
food & mall..
the air..the pool..the jam..
yeah..i miss home..

dun u just lurve food...

i just lurve the sauce.its black paper things.. & the seafood is damn fresh!

when u need extra energy..the sup one always a good choice..

its the sauce that people crave for..presenting..the al/o/r/ /g/a/j/a/h c/u/c/u/r /u/d/a/ng

im not a nasi eater..

my weekend..still here..
be patient...cry if its make me feel better..
i be at home in 5 days more..5 days..

i need to remember that im broke..
i need to lose weight
i need to berjimat

anyway..ive good time today..
went to this met up 4 photographer..
i still enjoy f/l/ic/kr better..
but it was ok..

im tired..
& deep inside..
i do miss home..
i miss the mall..
i miss my frenz..
& i know i will feel better once i cry..
but napa lah tak nangis2 lagi nie
cepat lah nangis..

mana lah saya tak bengang..

thursday:2305:

knock at the door..
"miss leh borrow laptoP"
"its my personal,mana leh borrow.."

friday:0830:

i heard my name being mentioned..then i seek clarification
"nak tau dy,they came back to me & ask to write 2 u letter to ask u to lend them ur Laptop"

i was:
"wat the fuck this people..alo..like im so generous to gave my 5k stuff 2 u"

friday:1530:

in the car,checking stuff b4 proceed to do work

"takpe miss,i go & see the punch card"

i was :
"gosh,how RuDE & disrespecful this people to us.."
i began ny mini lecture that the things is strictly unethical & u CANT do that!

i was angry & dissatisfied..dah lah take advantages,not on time..
i said 4 people only they bring 5..
ingat aku nie driver
kepala B**i hotak korang(im totally MAD)

saturday:0015

knock at the door at the weeeee hour..& u know wat

"miss go MP tak esok"
"Y?"
"nak pesan buy cake"

this IRRiTatEd me more..

-aku bukan tukang beli kek
-demand MP like sg prawn & MT is not here..
-they hv the wat so called outing day esok & sun
-sapa nak byr minyak aku
-macam aku nak beli tuk korang..

i just dun understand this people..
i dun hv any high expectation on them.
is this the kind of brilliant people..i dun think..
thank god not my kids that i teach except the 1st scenario..
but i dun consider them mine..coz i just take over the class..
ingat aku nie 24/7 free..minyak free..
ingat aku nak tolong korang ke..
not anymore ... not my prob..not even related to my work pun..

in between:check the time..& the day..
2days straight of bloody idiot people
asking stupid things at stupid hour..
taking advantages & no respect at all..

tgh marah nie wei

i just discover new spot..its the same beach....HAPPY..HAPPY..am I

its a record..& i realize it today that

• i stay at the teacher's lounge fROM 8AM till the bell rang
• i hvnt go home for almost a month
• ive different set of beauty,tan & hangus face picture
  
• i hvnt renew my driving lisence(just did this evening)
  
• im so in lurve my my current hair style..so retro..so jackie O as claimed by many..so its stay till i can get hold on to the length..so people..pray me that i didnt change my mind
  
• im so in lurve w shades
• im broke..totally!
• im in high spirit of berjimat coz im so wanna travel
• i really need to re budget my myr..need to pay bill..
• iM fasting 2day!..
• i went to beach today
• i hvnt see my family since last august..
  
• i need to lose weight..ive plan for myself to keep up w my words..
• suddenly i miss I/K/E/A
  

she is HAPPY..

its was freaky hot there..but the view r AWESOME!

everyday she count her blessing for every minute of her hectic schedule she managed to go the the nearest beach & capture these

latest passion:her new tripod!!

just returned from my vacation plus kerja
despite tiredness,long bus journey..
no net..eat nasi coz no food to eat..
i enjoy it very much..
i think most likey coz its a sea/beach vacation-kerja..
lots of pic taken..
im HAPPY!!

in between petang ada assembly..
bosan aaaa..

IVE the syndrome..

i need to really rajin..wei...WAKE UP...WAKE UP
i feel like to go to zoo..
i feel like to go to sea shore
i feel like to go dip myself in a pool..
i feel like to go to the officer's club there & read myself a book next to the pool
i feel like to guling2 atas pasir
i feel like to let the sea wind blew softly to my face
i feel like to smell the fresh sea side
i feel like to hv more time
i feel like to not eat..not feeling hungry..still hv energy to exercise @ run & lose 10 kg..
i feel like to cut my hair...its already getting kinda long but till i can tahan w this length..y not isnt..
some one tell me that i look like the jackie K..gosh..im so suit w retro..heheheh

she has to learn to use abby del,N2200 & NL2..

my NL2...taking by my N2200..they completed each others..they make me a happier owner

i wanna capture a nice eye capture..am still learning..
guess whose eyes belong to?

see..my beloved Neekons can do this..try to get wat stuff i been capturing?

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i just learn few trick using my beloved Neeekoons..
managed to read up the manual & yet to try few trick..
i forget how to do the panorama things..
i learn also that my N2200 can do the color things..
gosh..i just discover..
& few features that makes me a happy person...

NEEkon stuff r powerful gadget..
tu lah pemalas nak baca manual & tak mau try & error..
i learn few tricks lah..
but still ive to practise & be patient on taking photos..
since ive two neekoon gadget..the N2200 &NL2..life seem to be merrier..

its like u able to shop bargain stuff @ getting free parking @ getting 70 %

..hehhehe..yup those happy feeling(since this gal hv to be very ringgit wise)

& yup those tripod stuff & extra Sd card.. she grinning from ear to ear..

now she ought to learns those skill & pay the debt..
byr hutang..save..ikat perut
kuruskan diri..firm & fit & to lose more..

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i know myself better ...i must lurve & respect myself b4 others..i wont let myself being hurt physically & mentaly by others..

i sleep earlier as i wanna really treasure my short weekend..
yeah..i dun go to do all the stuff i told u dinda..
finish class ,settled some school mag things(the taukeh r the most lousy taukeh..if me i wont make any bisnes w them anymore..stupid people sungguh)
went back,hv my fav nasi ayam here(yeah i ate nasi after so many day didnt)..baby sit & sleep& movie..back 2 room..surf & sleep..good meh..i rest & rejunavate myself..
wake up w blank mind but now ive errand to do:
-see my kids..
-duty from 230pm
-help a frenz

in between..ive to keep FORCING myself to rajin clean up my stuff & do filing
mmmmmm..jgn malas2..kay..i know the bad concequences or being lazy

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i just dun know..
2day..this morning..b4 i went to blog..am thinking..
im really a blessful gal..
ok..i ask myself wat the most difficult task ive ever encounter..
mmmmm..a lots but people encounter it anyway right..sibling rivalry,no money,stress..well..its a part of life..
im might be just ordinary gal,im hvnt achieve any some nation title @ watever..
im was not born rich..but my life is seem complete..
..ive been educated..ive great family..great frenz..
ive been in lurve..been hurt..bounce back..
ive great job(keep telling myself this ok)
ive blog..ive my gadget..
i make sure that i have wat i want..(as i always teach myself that..no others will get it for me except myself @ if i lucky/bless/good enough..stuff i want i'll gonna get )

so far for 26 years going to 27 years i ever lived..
i recalled event that really made me unhappy..
i remember the time where my dad being hospitalized for the heart attack..
gosh..i just dun know whether i gonna be happy as i am today if tuhan lebih sayangkan my dad..
i know i cant afford to lose him..
i hvnt berbakti cukup enough 4 him..
all i can think of that i want him to be on my convo day..
he has to be there..
as i know he want to be there
(i recall my convo day was a best stuff for an official ceremony that happen in my life..i miss my undergraduate life..the only concern was to submit assignment.,exam..& boy..wat a LIFE!!..do treasure urs..)
he survived..i praise god the AL-Mighty.
given me chance to berbakti to him..
despite im a very devilish daughter..my twin is the angel type..
rememeber a twin must be a yin & yang stuff..
personally i dun think to get married just to please my dad..
my angelic sister has save me from this kind of berbakti..
i wanna be under my daddy responsibility..
for as long as i could..
coz i still hvnt berbakti enough..
that wat i think lah..
see im so devilish..hehehehh

i think the bad year 4 me is in 2003 where i encounter many broken heart stuff..
i grad..
still searching 4 the right job..
being a part time job..
sending resume..
i get hospitalized & took MC coz i was badly sick..
& others that i think the years has been a worst one..
but still im a blessful gal..ive great family & frenz..
& in 2004...i landed to a job that change many so much..
in every way..i met more new frenz..
a good one most of all..
im learning new stuff &
i make things happy & better 4 my life..

i discover myself...i think...that not too bad isnt...

i just wanna to tell myself today..
that even this pathetic sunday on which im been lazy around..
im still a blessful person..a gifted child..a happy gal...
so wake..smile the grass..get tan..get a LIFE!!!

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i keep telling myself Y i cant shop..sbb i need to pay bills..isnt that pathetic..

bulan nie saya parah coz ive lots to pay..
1st & foremost..my road tax end this 19th..
my atos payment on 16th..
& payday only on 25th..
bills..CC..loans..dear god..murah kan lah rezeki hamba mu nie..

w limited income plus i havent receive my check..& the tertunggak pay..(byk tu)
ok..w bills to settle..debt to be clear..i cant shop..
i must save..diet..save..budget..&berjimat..
i must not be malas to do filing & to go to school..
i must get the loans..

oleh tu...saya musti HAPPy..
otherwise im going to be under depression
i be fine..i be ok..
w god will..amen
saya harap dimurahkan rezeki..amen

i wonder...wat would be IN for me in the next 5 years..i pray for the best & happiest things in life

ok..its pinky passion..new stuff..its only myr 10.17

cheap & yummy good.im having this stuff at a new kedai makan at cm..only myr 5.50 w the icecream things..gosh..i still can feel the sweetness..

hv i told u guys that i lurve buaian so much..hehhe..i lurve bubble too..
lurve pingu..lurve tassie..heheheh..

coz if my new N..im trying lots & lots of macro capture..this one is a printed flower from my fav dress..

wed:back to work w hell of fever..i survive the horror day

thursday:thank god its cuti..spend the day at room(no kidding..till at 2100 br turun)..

friday:school..no mood to teach plus weak also..there eating stuff by the people here..i ate..good for me

so wat in for today:

~managed to clean room..lipat & arrange baju.my room is a shit of mess & i glad i managed to clear it up.now to do laundary & filing & rearrangement

~i still hv to email pic..& update & to reply mail

~do my pending school work,exam question & reading(g0sh i miss reading)

u know wat i wanna do now..well in my mind i

~wanna go to beach take pic
~wanna go to beach & cari the seafood things
~wanna go to pool & dip myself
~wanna go jog for kilometer as i feel myself kinda heavy & i do really need to exercise
~hv to go to the pc shop & get myself a new spiltter
~i feel like shooping..as i was tergoda w dinda new stuff..hehehe..gosh..patient..i didnt managed to go the store in ampang that i always do..darn those place damn cheap yet branded..
~i feel like hvg brownies..chochalate..