i know myself better ...i must lurve & respect myself b4 others..i wont let myself being hurt physically & mentaly by others..

i sleep earlier as i wanna really treasure my short weekend..
yeah..i dun go to do all the stuff i told u dinda..
finish class ,settled some school mag things(the taukeh r the most lousy taukeh..if me i wont make any bisnes w them anymore..stupid people sungguh)
went back,hv my fav nasi ayam here(yeah i ate nasi after so many day didnt)..baby sit & sleep& movie..back 2 room..surf & sleep..good meh..i rest & rejunavate myself..
wake up w blank mind but now ive errand to do:
-see my kids..
-duty from 230pm
-help a frenz

in between..ive to keep FORCING myself to rajin clean up my stuff & do filing
mmmmmm..jgn malas2..kay..i know the bad concequences or being lazy

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i just dun know..
2day..this morning..b4 i went to blog..am thinking..
im really a blessful gal..
ok..i ask myself wat the most difficult task ive ever encounter..
mmmmm..a lots but people encounter it anyway right..sibling rivalry,no money,stress..well..its a part of life..
im might be just ordinary gal,im hvnt achieve any some nation title @ watever..
im was not born rich..but my life is seem complete..
..ive been educated..ive great family..great frenz..
ive been in lurve..been hurt..bounce back..
ive great job(keep telling myself this ok)
ive blog..ive my gadget..
i make sure that i have wat i want..(as i always teach myself that..no others will get it for me except myself @ if i lucky/bless/good enough..stuff i want i'll gonna get )

so far for 26 years going to 27 years i ever lived..
i recalled event that really made me unhappy..
i remember the time where my dad being hospitalized for the heart attack..
gosh..i just dun know whether i gonna be happy as i am today if tuhan lebih sayangkan my dad..
i know i cant afford to lose him..
i hvnt berbakti cukup enough 4 him..
all i can think of that i want him to be on my convo day..
he has to be there..
as i know he want to be there
(i recall my convo day was a best stuff for an official ceremony that happen in my life..i miss my undergraduate life..the only concern was to submit assignment.,exam..& boy..wat a LIFE!!..do treasure urs..)
he survived..i praise god the AL-Mighty.
given me chance to berbakti to him..
despite im a very devilish daughter..my twin is the angel type..
rememeber a twin must be a yin & yang stuff..
personally i dun think to get married just to please my dad..
my angelic sister has save me from this kind of berbakti..
i wanna be under my daddy responsibility..
for as long as i could..
coz i still hvnt berbakti enough..
that wat i think lah..
see im so devilish..hehehehh

i think the bad year 4 me is in 2003 where i encounter many broken heart stuff..
i grad..
still searching 4 the right job..
being a part time job..
sending resume..
i get hospitalized & took MC coz i was badly sick..
& others that i think the years has been a worst one..
but still im a blessful gal..ive great family & frenz..
& in 2004...i landed to a job that change many so much..
in every way..i met more new frenz..
a good one most of all..
im learning new stuff &
i make things happy & better 4 my life..

i discover myself...i think...that not too bad isnt...

i just wanna to tell myself today..
that even this pathetic sunday on which im been lazy around..
im still a blessful person..a gifted child..a happy gal...
so wake..smile the grass..get tan..get a LIFE!!!

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