colors that added LIFE in my vacation...

i just lurve the outcome of the pic..as its very bright w colors..thank god for the good weather..the colorful umbrella & my tripod..hehehhe

my 1st jadik close up macro gambar..me likey..& me proud of it

i found out the capture turn to be nice...

someone said that if i didnt told her that me..she wouldnt recognize me in the pic..i look different am i?hehhehehe

among the shot that i lurve the most during my vacation..my new beloved N can do this..hooorah!!

If you want more HAPPINESS - throw some happiness out there to someone

im so excited for the trip
despite the tiredness..the pain..the bad cough..the homesick.
yEAh>>>ive FUN & Im HAPPY..
lots of picture coming ur ways..check out the mail..

lurve edd:

quick update

just reach camp..
boy im hated to hv any commitment in relationship...
i know i just hated it..
i know im not ready for any of that anympre..
im happy for wat im hvg now..
i dun need to cry..dun need to think..
dun need to to care to much & being hurt
kodok call & i was not in the mood..
buat tak layan as im also so malas(remember this guy r such suck)
then he hang up..i hated people hang up phone..
so im be thinking..see..guy like the kodok r just suck..
no wonder lah kodok kau no gf..hahahah..coz ur bad attitude..

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am back at camp...
how im so bless & happy..
days wout net..
wout to blog..
wout reading & surf...
i miss those days...

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ok..im so brutal..
gave morning talk & at room settle my stuff..
thanks to my dinda..perhaps..im going back 2day..just for a while..
but is a must back visit..
i miss home..
& i need my kl air..
kl mall..kl life..f
renz & family..

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hope 2day will be a good day..
no nag..no bad people..
i just wish that it will be just a smooth day..

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ok..time to do work..
oh ya..in between..managed to skip 500x ..
ive to be really strict to myself..
i so wanna to lose the 10kg more..
so realistic aim..losing 3 -4 kg 1st...
at least i be in that 40+ weight..
hv too..must to..
coz i just wanna myself to be HAPPY...
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juz when i taught my beloved N going to die on me..
its alive..
i cant bear to lose my N as its my 1st gadget that i bought..
N has been w me...rain @ shine..sad & happy moment
juz when people said how pelik too be so in lurve w N..
i soon to realize that im not alone..there plenty of me actually..
i still remember the days my N need to get treatment..
i was miserable..i was unhappy..but N returned to me un one piece..healthy as a horse..
& i vow to myself that i would never abundant N again..
its my life..my soul..my sanity..my happiness..

& today..at room..as i tought i should try to treat N..
N recover..am so thankful...
in between..juz discover a new baby bro for N..

future b N:
myr 1059
6mpxl
extended 3 years warranty
a t/r/i/p/o/d ,a 512 memory card
a yellow Umbrella..
casing,charger,battery,software..

i cant wait to hv that..

2day is sunday..esok sekolah..
5 days more :HOLIDAY & ill be in K/U/A/N/T/A/N
10 days more ill be in P/E/N/A/N/G
14 days more..back 2 work..
am counting...

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in between..i just clean up my stuff..
i would say just 20% only & its just involving only my bag..
gosh..ive lots & lots of bag..
i realized that ..need to put that in my brainny whenever i wanna purchase any..
ok the latest one would be my MNG bargain...

to review..to think..
i kinda hv all kind..(nie nak buat bancian coz i need to stop buying & saving
ok..ive my bagpack & luggage already..
ive my all time fav mng which i purchase at a very bargaining price..
ive pinky,red,black,silver bag
ive dinner bag(yeah the sequine one & the roses one)
i still hv the e/s/t/e/e l/a/u/d/e/r bag that moron gave that i hvnt use it..officially..gosh bag tu like 8 years seh..
(i need to utilize the bag & others stuff also..im over him already)
dinda gave me few bags also..
kamariah too(the camera bag..those beary bag & the nike one)..

all bag that ive had..
nak bagi pada mama tak sesuai..
twin...not realy suit her
plus i lurve my bag..sayang wei nak bagi..(but depend gak kan..if its suit them i dun mind)

ive bag that i buy coz of impulsive buy..
just imagine a CR bag at myr 5 & to think that i wouldnt buy that if it cost me like myr 50..

ok.. wat the cheapest bag ive ever purchase..
.its the myr1 one...one ringgit..imagine..cheap right
& i remember it took me like 15 min to decide to buy it @ not..
its not really a brand new one but still elok..ada zip..& like branded one.
gosh..those were the days where home/kl is so near..senang nak gi window/spree

& the most expensive one...
mmmm..i think it would be my abby del bag as it cost me about myr100+++..
but its a worth buying coz its BIG..spacious..handy,multifunction
& its where i stored my abby del when im on mobile..
all those cleaning up kat my room at camp..
not counting the one at home..
gosh..there still lots at home.
ive more than 30 plus bag i think..
mmmm..cukup 1 bag per day in a month.

i really need to displine myself

• not to buy bag lah at this moment..so can save money..buy benda perlu
  
• utilize the bag..pakai..
• antar beg yg koyak to tailor like the pinky(susah nak dapat the color & cost me only myr 10)..i lurve the bag..the color is so me!..hehehe
• utilize bag not only pakai but as others stuff like letak gadget & need to stand by at my beloved atos..

mmmm..im really a shoperholic..
I AM(no deny)..
but wat good about me i think is that all those buying are at bargain & sale price..
now kena kurangkan a bit that buying..start saving & clear my debt..
ive new passion in buying stuff i think..buying gadget(gosh i really wanna the new digi cam)
i think this year is like i buy those gadget things..for a start ive my abby dell..
& ive my own superspeed net..
those things that i really need& used everyday isnt..

i think i need to put in my budget(refresh the list):
-a pro account over f/l/i/c/k/r
-new digi more pixel cam (n/I/K/O/N to be precise)& tripod perhaps
-mp4/mp3
-repair my beloved atos..plus saving for future breakdown..the tyre also kena gak tukar nie..
-get those beauty skin care
-dietting stuff...(tak related mana but coz i think im gain & not losing pun so..kena ingat apa2 buy musti "will this benefit my diet".."kena kurus to buy this"u guys musti tak paham..this my monolog aaa
-pay debt
-bagi babah mama a sum of money..(byk nilainya)
-pamper myself w a night at m/a/r/r/i/o/t(gosh i lurve those night/day stay)
-passport(coz i wanna so travel while im still young..ambitious & hv lots of time)
-saving for travel matter(that Y i really need the digi cam & mp3/4)

byk kan..those wish list..but ive to be strict to myself nowadays since i hvnt lose the weight i wanna..kena achieve dulu then reward.
i so wanna be 49 kg..huarghhhhh..back to basic & routine diet..(EXERCISE>>SKIPPING>>JOGGING>>WALK A LOTS>>NO NASI>>H2O>>NO late night>>NO soft DRink)

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by the way..i think im growing my hair..
its like dah panjang(to my term..its panjang..)
so we'll just wait & see whether i can stick w it..hahhahaha
no comment/pressure please..
p/s:KAKILA AKU TAK IZINKAN KAU POTONG RAMBUT KAU EVEN UR HUBBY BAGI..PAHAM!!!!!tak yah tiru aku..aku nie memang hensem & cute..keep ur hair long coz ur hair is healthy ..shinning long silky black hair..ur MUCH BEAUTIFUL..SWEET LOVING e/l/l/a/w longer hair..ada paham.??..if kau nak cut hair..lose at least 8 kg 1st..ok...hehehehhe(i lurve u!!!)

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besides those bag things..others stuff that i think ive a lot..but selalu tak sedar ive TONs of it

• SHOES
• BAJU..WARDROBE
• MAKE UP(as im not that heavy make up gal..so kinda byk gak..especilly those lipstick:a proud owner if my l/a/n/c/o/m/e & d/i/o/r)
• toys..(my collection that i so lurve..boleh gado w budak kecik yg tau main my stuff tapi sepah2 kan..)

hahahha..im so a gal/woman/perempuan..

like real aje..heheheh

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• tetiba i feel wanna go to V/E/G/A/S(never been pun..tah lah..i just been thinking)
  
• i wanna to get/to hold/to hv a new digi mega pixel digi cam
• i wanna SOOO much..to lose the 10 kg..i think as i see that im a bit gaining..those face area & those tummy..must diet..less eat..H20..EXERCISE..less sleep & be on hyperactive mode
  
• i wanna go HOME..i wanna jalan2..i wanna go window..i wanna go swim..i wanna hv a good food at mall..& stupid people here that ive to deal w..i just dun know..ive flight on 25 on 7am people..i need to be there on 6am..so ive to go back early lah..pergi pun me dah kira baguih for the team..dun said that i cant go..im now tgh nak configure the things..sial lah kau if tak said i cant..org lain boleh but me cant..(i dissatisfied w the few people here lah)..im so looooking forward for my gateway..flight..great hotel..jalan2..dah lah i cant really enjoy my cuti-think positive that im going to visit/discover new state )..
• suddenly i cant help thinking myself about H/A/A/G/E/N D/A/S/S.read that..DESsert!!.
• i really wanna spent my cuti relaxing..think back about plan for myself..& to pamper/ rejunavate myself..
• oh yeah..i really need to budget & SAVE!!!!..
• in between gal..i dun need KL BF..nanti i dun hv time 4 u gal..me tetap balik(u know gal.if u still wanna get me ONE..make sure the candidate must hear/follow my instruction..especially the POSING part..HV to finish my food.. RICH/bermyr..LOYAL) A MUST balik kl!!even camp hv the GREATEST SKY..BEACH..WAVE..WIND..HISTORY..fried squid..cant compare my I/K/E/A/..MY W/I/L/LI/A/M/..MY M/E/GA/ M/A/LL..MY SPREE..MY SANCTUANRY..MY POOL..MY GOOD BARGAIN..MY oh MY..(missing u gal toooooo..wei aku dah nangis nie..)

i was under demam attact this morning
teribbly week & didnt attend the 2nd class..
sleep like a log from 1030am till 2pm..long isnt..
recovering strength..

i realiaze that i hvnt eat anything when i ate my Big burger..
its 30 min drive frm camp..
its good..really for my diet things..
but when i look back pic..i hated to see that i didnt lose kilos..
i so wanna to lose weight..

eat stuff

at 845am-4 kuih as im so weak
at 7oopm-BIG mc,fries & lemon
at 1130pm-kailan & otak2

gosh...i really need to work my diet & exercise..
school holiday..kuantan..william's..penang..puasa..raya..birthday..
losing weight is my AIM...49..47..45kg..

in between...
sempat gak check latest range of digi cam..
gosh..if can buy..i buy..
i so wanna the stuff..
6.0 mega(myr 1k).
tripod..(murah tak if myr70..ive to compare the price)
pray for murah rezeki..amen..

am bit angry coz i assume that i dun be disturb by student at all..
coz im so tired & bored w them
coz im seeing them a lots & a lots..
they came coz they wanna things..that is..
some r good..some r just trying to misuse my kindness..

when i tired..im easily mad
when i feel bad about myself..im easily mad
when im hungry..i keep silent(too weak to talk)
when im in debt..i worry much..
when in feel fat..im worry MUCH & wanna lose weight so badly
when im pissed off..i really am..

yup today im really geram w that kids..
geram sesangat..just spoil my mood..
think im wat..
aaaa..im hungry..i wanna sweet..brownies..& real food..

the water besides me is river malacca..mengalir to straits of malacca..
& i lurve my purplish glasses

i used to crave for these..a MUST hv..

im just bored..that Y im posting all these pic..

i lead i charmed life..i know..just be patient

im bored...
im so wanna to lose the kilos...
how..how..how..
i discover myself that i cant take the power drink wout the choco powder alone..
coz the taste make me puke..
in between the power drink me me a bit larat for few hours..

gosh..i miss to dress in my mini dress..
wearing those heel/sport shoes
& jalan2 at mall..
hvg pic/pose all there & here..
eat decent good food..
gosh..i so wanna school holiday..

gals..i miss u too..

i lurve my room at camp(as well home)
finally today i managed to lazy around the room & surf..
despite i need to go to pay bill..

im hungry..
i need to lose weight..

so many things happen to me few days..
some good..some tiring & some killing my soul
in btw..2day there r kids that wanna to fool me..
using the same method asking to go out..
im become wiser nowadays..
plus wat the heck kau nak suruh aku bawak kau keluar..
plus takde documentation
plus u disturb my rest..
gosh..geram..& marah

i need to lose weight &
take pic..ppic & pose
laundry to do i must
plus the surat & the secretary stuff..
i shall rest my duty tonight
& buat my hakiki work..

wout make up..but im HAPPY..nie kat beach nearest to camp..me luv baring2 atas pasir

i need to go to my very basic diet..
-no late night eat
-h20 only..strictly no soft drink..less sweet drink
-EXERCISE a must..skipping!!!..jog..im gaining i can feel it..i see it..
-eat 1 time only(kena tahan hafsu)
-vege & fruit..no fatting
-kena baca balik my book
-exercise..exercise...kurus...cruz

saya rasa saya mengalami syndrome:

• nak cuti..cepatlah
• nak balik umah..homesick
• faizdanitasyamamacooking's missing
• jalan2 kl
• shopping spree
• ronggeng w gals,BF & family
• wanna to lose wieght so badly
• wanna to build stamina & my metabolisme

wei na..best seh gambar kau..tak tahan aku tgk keayuan kau..kakila dah gi tempat tu..memang gorgeous seh..nantilah..aku gi..aku cuti sekolah lagi 2 minggu..hehehheheh

nothing much over weekend..i prefer to relax & lazy around..hehehe

saturday
its was a school day & ended at 2pm..
huraghhhh..there goes my rest day..
so the ball practise & balik tired..
my weekend abih like that..
oh yeah..in between coz my good kids wanna watch the sang competition..
me teman lah at wir's house..gosh..never lah me tgk those..& tau je sapa going to win kan
& i slept after 30 min tengok..guess i was tired

sunday
wake up late..
lazying around & on duty

i hv to accomplish work..yg tak siap lagi nie
mmmmm..napalh tak cuti esok..bosan seh

im so lazy..
im so tired..
im so boring..
i hvnt punch my card yet..
hated..hated..hated..
bosan nya

im should start saving strictly..i can & i must..
well not forget paying my debt..i HATED being in debt
but 4 a person that need retail therapy to clam her nerves is it possible?
well i think i did managed to starve my nafsu & buy only necessary stuff
& i bought purchase yg totally bargain..
& i should be thinking saving seriously..
i hated to be broke..i hated to be in debt
i hated i cant buy stuff i really need..
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basically i was no mood today..
saya sgt teruk..seriously im not happy..
Y i just dun know
here at camp this unknown feeling always occuring to myself..saya sgt pathetic..
& as usually i went out..& try to eat..
wat i hated here is the food is not consistent unlike mall at home
well home i can hv variety..at wat ever time..the only matter is the jam & the petrol
but since im so hungry i treat myself a myr 4.75 not-sedap-but-eat-coz-lapar
& hv this high paid BK shakes coz its out of my expectation..
there goes my myr 15..
i hated when i paid mahal for not satisfied stuff..
at this hour i miss william's..i miss the steamy hotdog..i miss shop at AP..(in between did i told u the fast food stuff is like a king's feast to me nowadays as nak makan kena drive jauh unlike home..

i miss home..i know(gosh makin teruk kan saya nie)
i think nowadays i didnt ate proper stuff meaning vege as i used to eat a lot b4..
i wanna fried fresh vege..sendiri masak..
bukan beli but wat to do...dun hv the stuff by my own..
gosh..that y..no fresh home cook..
no fresh cooking stuff..no good food when i need one..
i miss my happy comfort yummy food..

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in between,managed to go near a place under the bridge..i TOOK PIC..
so at least ive do some HAPPY part 4 myself..a bit cure lah
then its a smooth ride in my beloved companion A & still taking pic while hand on wheel(yeah i do this stuff..ambik gambar masa bawak atos..TERROR kan..)

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i need to be totally harsh to myself as i wanna lose weight..
i was browsing my own diet book..well my weight has not been drop to the weight i desire& been fluctuated aje..which i dislike..
i think i need to be harsh to my diet again..mmmmm..very susah but i must(abih aaa..kena be strict to my own mood)

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im really dun hv mood..
sbb esok kena sekolah kot..
which meant tgk budak2 lagi..
bosan its true..
i lurve my weekend..napalah musti depa disturb things that i lurve

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i wanna my future be called aidan..hahhahaha

i wanna a BF like aidan..
gosh..im so fanatized w SADC..
just bought a 1st vcd season 3,episode 6,7,8 ,9&10 4 the price of myr 7.9
i think its sooooo cheap & the affordable things i can buy
plus money constrains plus i need to see movie..
gosh..i lurve the dress..the hairdo..the discussion...
the aidan..i feel like im lucky to be a gal
there a must 4 gal (18 above)to watch SADC
napalah si carrie tu dun know to choose..
that so stupid of her..decent guys exist in her case..
huarghhhh

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musim sakit..
semua not well..hv to jaga myself

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im feeling to dip myself in a pool-but im hooked to the net
im wanna watch movie..
so that i lay down & enjoy the sound system
but im hooked to the net

plenty baju to wash..
kena buat surat
malasnye..

oh ya..i ate nasi today..
coz im so hungry..
in btw,yesterday is the 1st day i consume soft drink like after a very long time(since i start my diet thing & exception for the 100+ things as its a medicine..i was tense so tu je h2o that ive had & i ate fried fatty chicken..how pleasant..hehheheh)

im getting home air sick
& no money too..money wise actually..
bila lah nak long school holiday..

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i dun care howwhosoever big K she going to married..
its doesnt bother me either..
but it bother me camne me nak download all the nicey file in the tube..
camne?camne?bleh ke download the stuff?

i hope i can cure my lazyness after this..I MUST..

somehow i like the capture..well coz 3 reason:
i.its a new shirt that i bought& its fit myself..yeppie
ii.its suit my fav pinky skirt
iii.I look slim & small..& CUTE..hehhehe

after the hard work..this is the outcome..
less toys & entertaining stuff..
mature & important things..
i must put all stuff in order & setteld my pending work

at least ive my abby del & my reliable net...

1 class today & im so tired..
lazy to be exact..damn lazy..
napa lah kena kerja?
-sbb nak byr utang,byr keta,bg mak abah,shopping..paham?
-tak kerja takde duit..
-tanggungjawab..

i never hv this feeling b4..
in fact im so workaholic..i dun mind working 24/7
taking leave is so a HUGE decison..
but now all i wanna r weekend..holiday season & mon to be cuti..

Y OH y..
i never had this sedih at home..
i rather to stay at office (prior to the surf matter & aircondition..anyway things r differ there..many unsure things happen..& god has make a very good plan for me then)

might be coz of im far from HOME(even its just 2 hours drive)
might be of the people here
might be coz of the treatment i get
might be coz i hated people who taking advantages on me..
might be coz im so pamper
might be coz im so fragile
might be coz im still wonder wat im doing here
might be coz i dun know how to managed my time..

& to settle the HUGE prob im having..(hehheheh)
i modified @ make room renovation..hehehhe
well kinda major one..now my spacious studio apartment can be divide to toilet(merangkap bilik mandi & tempat basuh),bed,kitchen,reading area & working place..hehhehe..
hope this motivated me lah..
the cons here is a bit dim lah..light so only one..
but i like my work place to be near at window..(window yg like jail one)

now..kena kemas all those paper bg nicely order & apa to preach tomorrow..