wake up early..
as i realized its times to go work..
yeah..i know its is saturday..but..dah
kena kerja kan..

this time..i opt to help a frenz of mine
advantages..i dun need 2 be in the crowd.
so there we us
two faboulous gal with new spanking "ku-rung"
menjaga parking ke-ret-a visitor
with the ki-ds..
laugh u can but it was fun
and we escape earlier for breakfast

on d way..ess-o text..
i didnt expect it as
i told myself..
i try to not makes any con-tact
as i dun want 2 be burden by the feeling
again..i feel jumping over the moon

oh ya..managed 2 takes a decent photo
w app-le of my eyes..
sgtlah cute..and i look so demure..

oh ya..
last night outing was good
despite of heavy downpour
but i feel happy..and satisfied..

am smiling to mself..
wat a day is going 2 be
am all pinky and flowery..
its a wonderful morning..
and i cant wait the clock 12
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its like freedom..being away..

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i miss being hug..
hug me people..
i think ive to go back KL..
next week perhaps..
to visit mum n dad..
and my little niece/nephew..
i feel a part of me is missing..

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i wish he call..
as i miss him..
but ive to act a bit..
sbb i dun wanna ot look obious
hye mr-ess-o
i liked u..
u hear that!!

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one word to describe:
tired
my sleep pattern nowadays..
easily sleep..body wake up naturally by the bell
i slept just because..i had too
body was being robotised..
heart was so empty..
hold on there gal!

notes on medication:

heart beat:normal.can get along
outcome:lurve the effect
bad:emotional turmoil.damn!i feel like crying n want to shut people up..

need 2 remember lose weight!

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things that i can be happy

• call
  
• pic
• nice clothes
• the losing weight scale
• able 2 finish 10 lap
• hug
• smile
• moolah
• sweet notes
  

notes:
ur bum is lebar/wide
potential being fat is huge
so sedar diri..
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how to overcome being lazy?

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reminder 2myself..
life is beautiful

i believe in goods..i believe in faith
am blessed w wonderful life..amen..
i need to count each blessing

i dun need another broken heart
or a lie..even apologize
i wish for honesty and sincerity


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his call make my day..
his call turn the sky so bright in the sky
my heart sang
how happy she acclaimed

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when he call..i smile..hehehehe

HE CALL...HE CALL..HE CALL
OMG.!!.


happy as a bunny..
and he sang..
"mari kita""mari kita"

n he said..
"tak yah kurus lg,nanti takde apa"

nie i said..can not..hahahahaha

dreams..

• ive clincher..but i wanna to lose more weight so i can style it better..
• surfi-ng online (bj..stuff) to kill the boredom
• e-sso to call..and talk..and see..(TILL d day come..hahahhaaha)
• moolah is not a problem(any people 2 sponsor me on my unlimited wanna stuff)
• fat ridder from the body system
• losing weight so easy for me

being edd..

had dull fa-mily day..
but i get an electric kettle..that compensate lah
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was super emo..was really in need of hug..
so i rang this person..let named the person
the B.(as for the skin color)
well i can only hv "B" around..
so we went for a movie and not to mention
quiet a walking distance

the outcome..
i was happy..was smiling..
even "B " not really the type
but for a frenz he is ok

hope 2 see "B " more
i dun mind walking..
bear in mind kena walk like a lady..hahahhaha
and 2 dress youngsters..

n buy jeans..
i dun know..i lurve 3 things nowadays

• wearing jean-s(sbb i did buy a belt already)
• eat yong-tau fu(its freaking healthy stuff)
• dance 2 d music..

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noted 2 myself:

• hair-try 2 keep it kay dear

• contact lense-gre-y
• lose weight
  

its not hard 2 be me...true?

in emo and irrational thinking

• drive back 2 k-l..go to m-valley and eat ta-ko..and buy sho-es
• go swimming..
• go 2 room n soak myself in tub
• go cut hair
• go buy stuff..hair accesories..kain
• wish he call(so lame)
• take passport n go abroad..hahahaha
• go jogging

rational thought

• time
• moolah
• salary
• laziness
• emotional breakdown

• watch a movie-papa-dom ..no bad
• eat a homecook kerang..yummy!
• hv a full cream milk w mi-lo as i wanna fres-h cal-sium
• almost had a hair cut..but didnt
• buy myself a pinky hair curler
• its friday today..yay..
  

still in dun want to talk and silent mood.
it was a bit noisey td..i was getting annoy..
but now everyone has class..

3 days on medication..
was no mood for exercise..that bad..

dial tone..fav song..
put 2 hang as trying the luck..(hehehehe..i was bored)

then

"sory u..in a meting"

mood:act normal.but happy.

poetic in me..damn u mr-es-so1

she smile when she read ur text
she grin happily when she retrieve ur photo
she laugh when u said u will call back
and
she miss u when time apart

can u guess who is she?

mark this date:lose weight..get the body weight n healthy life that i wanna

back on diet n exercise track!

i need 2 lose weight coz

• i run out of stamina..climbing a mountain need sta-mina..i almost kill myself half way n almost fail 2 reach the top @ worse..the rescuer team need to pull me down..this is because i lack of stamina..damn bad cholestrol..i NEED THE HIGH stamina as i lead a bz lifestyle..i walk..talk..walk..run a lot..that the 1st reason..
• SELF- ESTEEM..hated 2 see myself looking freaking huge..fat..fat..lemak sana lemak sini body..i wanna myself when i look at myself..i be smiling and said..that me ALRIGHT
• CHEAPER LIFESYTLE..in term of clothing..food..health..so that i can SAVE MOOLAH FOR BETTER STUFF
• LONG TERM..healthy
• LURVE MYSELF
• COZ I WANNA IT

SO..WAT EVER COME..I WILL STICK 2 MYSELF..

4 days leave..i dun wanna it 2 stop..

tight budget..ikat perut ..berjimat cermat

thursday evening

• repair tyre..cost me rm250
• watch movie
• paid c-c..
• had spagg-ti 4 super

friday

• enjoy waking up late
• car service
• my "ME"time

saturday

• clean house
• free food at fre-nz place
• watch dv-d..
• sleep earlier

sunday

• I CLIMB MOUNT D-A-TO..AM SO proud of MYSELF..

monday

• w frenz..
• ma-la-cca town...

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i miss myself

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i wrote a poem AGA_in for that per-son

had a blast weekend..
tq!

dear edd..LOSE WEIGH..U FREAKING FAT N HODUH!

friday..
fun n happy times w d gals..dinda n little m-i-ra

saturday-
fun w wa-wa..i get 2 be a happy me..he mms his photo..i went home early

part2:e-sso called when i need it the most even when he say but will not do it

i feel cheated..i feel stupid..it takes me year 2 recover and the guy r such a jerk.
u hv my curse and enough of bullshit
u lie..u lie and am so lembut hati

so i learn
that ive 2 depend on myself..

i took d courage 2 view all photo
its hurt but not that hurt
jut i feel cheated and wat a big liar the person was

and 2 think
how i can loved that jerk before
seriously i dun at all

time heal the wound

entry..how lousy man can be

• i see mor-on other's half pic..i didnt update here that he call..n how sick am i with him..
• am happier person now..leave me alone
• confession..mo-ron other's half look so innocent pity her
• mo-ron is a big fa-t li-ar..thank god!

mark this date my dear

i managed 2 soak myself in tub
it was so calm n tranquil..
i was in my own world
even it was a tiny tub but i reach my happiness

lipat my baju
n i cook linggua-ni car-nbona-ra
it was a simply,cheap,sizzling hot meal
i even gave 2 a kid of mine..
she said it was nice

then i went jog w a frenz
watch the sunset..
n feel the breezey air..
i feel so lucky

a frenz came along..
we hv a good talk

later at night
it was cold 2 sleep.
as it was raining

and today..
i wear a black attire
w my t-ie rac-k scarf

i pray that 2day going 2 be a good day..
dear god
please bless my day..
amen

• its monday..
• am bored
• nak cuti

info..

• The total calories needed for a female is about 1900 cals per day.
• One would need to lessen about 500 cals of the total calories to actually lose weight,
• ranging about 1200 to 1400 cals, depending on the person themselves.

• did d exam..was ok
• ate like byk n penuh perut..bukan melantak..just i didnt diet..arghhhh
• watch a movie..ok..
  

lazy

• i need my pill
• i wanna shop..but it required moolah..so dun!
• i hv 2 stop eating as d result is gemuk
• i look berisi n gemuk..ye!
• tak mau gemuk!