i need a hug at this very moment..i need a call at this moment..i need someone to make me laugh..i wanna cry!!and here am i writing

got a call from a long time friend..
taklah..some people..cant see other senang..
i know that the person will call w a reason..
a reason to know Y im better that them...
jealousy might be..

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hated myself still..
Y..im still searching Y i like this
im hungry..
i mad about myself
i mad to others
i mad coz people were not online when i need them
i hated disturbance by people i dont know
i hated people who called themselves a friend but yet they only wanna my help only
i hated people liked that
i hated people call me coz of the fishy reason
i hated the feeling being fat
i hated the people here
i hated these mentality
i hated people who jealous about me
i hated it..i hated it