behind these smiling face..

i keep saying to myself that im good..im great..im worthy..
ive my own identity..
i wont be influence by others..
i try to be good..
i try to be myself
i not susahkan orang
i will be a good girl...
i try to adapt to the changes..
i make my own santuanary..
i dont disturb other people life..


but Y oh Y..
this people..

i feel really demotivated..
really loss..
no clue..
i just couldnt understand this people..

my frienz here told me just now about them said something about the way i wear to school
bodoh!
today i didnt go to school pun..
i went after school over..
i dont hv class..im tired so i stay in my room..sleeping & clean my room..
the high tea time i just dress my very best..sopan one..w dress & blouse..
im really careful about the way i dress especially to class..to school..
punya lah decent..
bodoh punya people here!!!

well im used to it..
used to all this..
immune i think..
said to my self..
as long i do my job..
punch card earlier..
go to class...
ajar..
buat kerja..
remain sane..
mampuih pi lah depa..

depa2 semua kan sini bodoh2 belaka..
hahahahhaha..
that all i can say..
me dapat pahala..
me still dapat gaji
me still dress to kill..
me still can go shopping
me still can enjoy things that me want..

so.. stupid ..narrow minded people..
say wat u want to say..
i adapt lah..
ye lah..wat ever..bj kurung lah..
coz i tak confirm lagi..
coz i baru 4 month old..


may i still hv all the imune..
may i can still be myself..
dear god..this is my pray..