a gloomy thursday

so today..
my time management was ok..
come punctual..n happy..
but then suddenly i was not happy.
i wanna 2 scream...2 run..

ive errand 2 do
its not lazy..its like..
a mix of hated..bored..suicide...hated the body..regreted

i miss myself smile..
the happy smile..
the warm happy smile..
the smile..

i try 2 smile..
2 make me happy
as its ourself that make us happy..
but i couldnt
why..

life is good so far..
dun b lazy..
be happy..be merry..