am being so quiet nowadays..
hated myself for that..

am being so fat lately
hated myself again

napa its so hard to lose weight
napa its so hard to be 45 kg
napa its so hard to fast
napa its so hard to starve & just lose weight
napa the fat dun want to melt
napa i can be 45kg by simple way..

i so wanna to lose weight..

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good things i do today:
shop 4 3 pieces of pant that cost me myr19 each..
(i was looking for pant..good pant..& am so happy w the purchase)

new hair cut..yup..its back 2 school again..
to think back..i look lovely w the old one..
there w as lots of lovely capture w its..
gosh..i look so gorgeous..so lovely..
takpe..its grows..& i can save moolah in between...
no regret except the memory that will haunted me till its grow back
no more dangling earling..no more getah..hairband..
& stuff that cost extra moolah to satisfied the gurly stuff..
huarghhhhhh..i miss the hair..but i cant stand the heat...the tense..
takpe its grows..i know..
despite it is me in front of the mirror...
am kinda horrified & AMAZED w my youthful look..
young..a bit tan (due to exposure to the sun over sun bathing in the pool)..
cute(am still try to convince myself upon that),gorgeous(am have to find matching outfit for that)..gosh...face the reality..its GROWs..
& in between for it to grow..

I MUST lose weight..i wanna be cruz45..
must..must..must!!!!!

5 days counting..
gosh..wat hv i achieve..?