this is a nag as i need to luahkan nya..my hand r still menggigil tahan marah & i still cant cry..i need to cry .

i lost myr150 which is suppose not happen
& i really pissed of about it
i was no mood..totally MARAH..& i feel wanna slap somebody..
arghhhhhhhhhhh

the money was reserved to pay my car instalment for dec month..
therefore..i lack of myr 150..arghhhhhhh

due to the things that suppose not happen
i went numb..i was angry..TOTALLy
& i went to get myself a massage
yeah a MASSAGE..that cost me myr 70
ok..besides retail therapy..its also meant to treat myself as my body was itching like crazy the past days..am getting old i know
it was a good massage..i kinda relax & ALMOST FAlling asleep..

treat myself kebab(as its protein & eat half way only)
a black pant as i run of pant for jalan2(i forget to bring my fav pant)
some healthy snack & this new her/shey choc(as am hvg this low blood due to the menstrual)

good things i do today:
pay bills..baby sit kejap..wake up kinda early..10% of cleaning of my room..& back kinda early from mall(this is due to im still angry )