for once..in a life time

yep..im a weight concious..i really afraid of gaining any kilo even..
the reason Y:
~i used to be so big..& fat& heavy
~its take lots of sacrife to lose this much & its not easy..my fat love my body so much..

im enjoy eating very much..infact i luv to eat
i eat everything..be it vege..seafood..fat..oily..everthing i bedal one..as long sedap..& halal..
so far no tak makan @ allergic..

it just..i wanna look good..i wanna feel good about myself..
i wanna be in shop & get the xs size..grap any bj that i want wout thinking twice that would it fit me..wouldnt make me like a sarung nangka & all...
i bet any gurl..any women do on the living earth..

i was reading this part of kate wi*let where she stated that she just afraid of being fat again despite she hvg her nice shape now..i guess i understand her feeling..i do..
its all from ur heart..urself..
if u thinks u opt to do better..u should..

i believe that i should lose another 5-10 kg more..
honest..for once in life..
but it wouldnt turn me to any anox coz anox's people dont eat..ME luv eating
but it wouldnt turn me to any bulim*a coz bolim's people vomit things their eat..vomit is tiring & food so sayang to be wasted

im not so displinary person..
therefore regime..harsh diet for me is a must..
like this past 2 days..i ate early morning..
i had nasi the direct 2 days..
i lack exercise(does sitting infront pc consider exercising)
i ate & i ate..
no adip*x..no x*nical

so as usual..
i must LOSE WEIGHT!
lose those baby fat..
no nasi..
EXERCISE!!!!!