this is hatred..& soon..revenge

my blind date was ok..
really..it was..

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yet..
as tuhan nak tunjuk tu me
i see kambing..
i see the real him..
i see lie..
he such an ass hole..
honestly at this very moment...
i dont even had any likeness..
any glimpse of love @ friendship..
i dont even recall the memory @ watever..
i see..lie..lie..lie..
ckp berbelit..penipu..hantu..setan..how i can ever fall w him at the 1st places..
how i can be such an angel though he treat me bad
how can ive that such patient
how can i smile despite the lie that he used b4

punya lah tuhan nak showed me..
while i was on a date..w others fella..
not a girls night..
not when im alone..not when im w friends @ watever..
at my playround..MV....
never did i expect
that asshole..
i know him..i recognise his face..
i know his act..i know his bike..i never wrong about it..
i pray that i can see it closer & that he didnt realise that my car was near to him
that plate 9850..
i call..no answer..coz he was on a bike w a person he deny to me the relationship
i sms.. & boy the reply was a denial..

"ME?WHERE?"

wat the fuck man..i dont buy ur lie any more

wat makes me piss off is not the girl but him..the lie..the lie..the lie..
he not honest to me & the girl
& for god sake..wat lie @ crap he told the girl about me..i will never know
as he will be a person that wont stop lie..
i asked b4..we agreed upon..i respect u & still consider u friend..
i tolerated w u..i helped u..
& again..u use me..u lie..u bohong..
i dont care about that girl..watever..i flirt..i see people..
but ive my limit..
on a bike?..memeluk?.

then said..
ooooo..i bz lah..
i dont hv time for GF..
i dont hv free time..
i think of my family 1st..
i dont hv any steady @ wat..
that JUSt a sux..lame..an u r a liar..

i just want honesty..we agreed upon to introduce..to tell..
u break that trust..u lie..u will be always b a liar..then..now & ever..
honestly..
i dont hv urs in my any corner @ watever in my heart
just hatred..revenge..curse..anger..

wat goes around comes around
somehow in life..
for the 1st time ever..
i erase ur name..ur tiny deed....u will not be forgiven...
i hope god will treat u well..
for treathing me this..

i know..after "my not to marah" reply sms..
u wont feel any things..
u will just proud isnt..
to be able to cheat me as usual
boy..im a stupid!

& for myself
i was good faking myself being nice..
but its killing me softly then..
& this entry was it..
tears..
honestly..
i wanna throw all those..watever he ever gave..

no wonder.all this time.
ive this kata hati b4..he w someone
i wanna cut hair again as i feel discomfort
i deleting all msg..boy..the post break up msg..that lie..
i deleted his pic lama dulu..
i flirt..i flirt..i flirt..no guilty at all..

now..
to that asshole
i need to be firm..
im not the one u can cheat..dolak dalih..use again..

enough is enough..
i cried b4..
i hurt deeply b4..
i suffered b4..
& i dont want to be in the same road again..

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yeah..
im so stupid..so bodoh..
so blind
as that asshole be a happy pig...
justice will come to the end soon