i feel to hv pizza/lasagna/the cheesy cake/icecream/PROTEIN!!!!/..AM I pms-ing?

am resting in my santuanary
am so restless..am taking myself a REST today
managed to mark 1 level..weekend..key in & mark all I MUST!!!
no play2..no tangguh2

& 2day am watching all the lovey dovey story..
(as i wanna treat & pamper myself after a harsh week)
i feel wanna to fall in lurve..be loved by others..
huarghhhh its such a romantic ending
need tp remind myself that i think i need to watch more korean/japanesse movie..
i fall in lurve w the gal..the guys..the dress..the make up..the stroy line..heheheheh
i treasure this korean @ japan movie.. called b/e/a/u/ti/f/u/l/ /l/i//f/e
sanggup tue malam2 gi bilik tv gi tgk...masa student dulu.
wah..such loving story..mana nak carik true lurve like that can..
gosh..i so wanna that GUY to be exist..
but then..do that such guys still exist..?
& if does pun all belong to others..
@ its not my destiny
@am not suit w them..
am such afraid of failure..
i dun want to be hurt again..
i dun want to be down the road again
i think IM much more a HAPPIER person now
& i value my past & look forward for future
i will not settled for less..coz i now stand among the best
i will not choose hentam coz people put me on pressure..
ITS my life!!!!..my way..my right...my happiness..
gosh..how lovey dovey movie put me in this kind motivation
to simply fall in lurve w people..
its a BIG NO...
buat menyusahkan hidup isnt..

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ada satu masa tu i recall when people/frenz /family simply mixmatch/tell me about the M stuff

me selalu tanya myself
"aku nie hodoh sgt ke sampai itu their taste for me?"
'aku nie takde rupa ke?"

nie semua make me hvg this kinda low self esteem..
& its is not good..its evil..its cruel..
i cant hv my self esteem that low..
i always hv faith in my religion..
tuhan tue adil..ada sbb napa DIA buat like this/like that..
betul tak?sbb ada hikmahnye
am happy like this..am dun mind be like this(sbb HAPPY KAN)
for the rest of my life(jika itu yang tersurat)..
at a good point..i can take care my parent..i can do good things w society..am can travel..am wont waste my life w wrong person..mmmmmm..am very good in planning..hehehe



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in between am surfing between neekon site & ca/no/n site
learn to use/different/get info of those gadget their selling
NOTE TO MYSELF:
SAVE MONEY FOR!!!!!!!
-GET URSELF A DSLR
-GO TRAVEL!!!
-SAVING FOR FUTURE..JGN MENBAZIR TAK TENTU PASAL
-A DESK TOP(yeah..am greedy)
-LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!(40KG!)
-CLEAR COMPLEXION..BRAND NEW ME!!!

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