im so fragile!

ha..ha..ha...
aku nie memang baik..very bery kind hearted (very angelic!)& it always get me in trouble coz i helped so wrong person...
ari nie aku nangis dalam tandas sbb aku kena luahkan tekanan nie..d stress..sampai naik kepala..aku pening..i can just bang myhead against wall...yeah cry..
that all i do bila aku tension,bila aku tak dapat kawal my emotion..

habit yg aku buat if im in my EMO/PMS

i cried easily..
i call my friends..just 2 tell them how my life is sucks,how i've been hurt..how deep i been hurt 2day..how sad i am @ email 2 them..i'll wrote a very long one....@ if ada bebudak kat office yg aku rasa leh story..i'll gonna mengumpat w all my feeling..wah!that really a relief!..the rest..kalau aku kat office..duduk diam2..tak ckp ngan sesapa..buat muka bengkak(all d people gonna ask..y edd so quiet)..till i calm my self..
i keep quiet...im so marah..i can scream on people..im so sad..i can cried a river..im so geram...im can kill/punch person...
i go shopping alone-depends on my time,place,location & MONEY..ari nie takde duit..kat office..kena kerja..
la nie..aku sedih..aku gi jog..aku must gi bukit jalil..tgh benda hijau..lari ke..tgk org sexy(SEXY GUYS in SHORT PANTS,pretty/sexy ladies in short/sleveless & nice fair foot..he.he..)..kinda a stress theraphy for me..but ari nie it was raining..
if kat office..under heavy stress ,aku akan view all my lovely pic..aku tgk flickr ke..update pic ke..@ whatsoever using superduper damn speed internet connection

(its free yeah!...kekadang aku fikir where 2 find job that required ur 8 hours looking at PC..surf d net(its a must..benda wajib..ur job depend most on it),leh balik sharp on time..just sit wout moving ur body..fully air cond,just d stress is..cust yg gila +bodoh+bahlul +B***+sial+ moron+bloody idiot..so i should be so thankful..& should be less stress..but as for 2day..im not at my stress free mode/happy mood..i was so angry due to a mistake by someone that i hv 2 go thru d problem since yesterday..mangkuk ayun betul!..)

paling best
..aku akan treat myself w sinful/fattening food..chochalate,icecream,ice blended @ anything yg aku nak makan..that go my diet..dah masuk 4 ari nie kerja aku makan je..aku makan semua yg oily,yg so fattening..so sinful..
malam tadi balik from office aku dok pelahap baki kek,makan kuih kacang yg kaya kolestrol & makan tempe goreng..takde buat exercise..terus tidur..ha..ha..ha..

ingat ari nie gonna be just ok..tp aku rasa macam sial aje!(aku jarang mencarut kan) kalau aku under stress aku mencarutlah..ha..ha..ha..
plus i'll write my dissatisfied emotion in my secret BLOG..really good coz can describe/compose all d feeling in a this virtual sanctuanary

so aku arap tommorow it will be a GREAT DAY 4 ME..GREAT I MEANT
happy..it my TOTALLY REST DAY!..wanna spent /indulge myself w pleasure..